“I will give thanks to the LORD with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds” (Psalm 9:1).
December 31, 2012
Times have really changed. There was a time when we could take off work and truly mediate on and enjoy the Christmas season. Nowadays, I try just to make the best of it. It's already a little pass one, so I better make this quick. Reflected on the daily prayer and the gospel words of the new beginning and fresh start found in, Emanuel. I’m not going to look back at this time last year to see if I made any new year’s resolutions, because like most folks, I most likely didn’t honor them. It’s this time of year where people all over the world look for a fresh start and make New Year’s resolutions. I think the most common ones are to lose weight in conjunction with exercising more and eating healthier. I think about “the glory of the grind.” We live in a fallen world of sinners, which results in a grinding ordeal of experiencing pain and suffering. But because of Christ and him crucified, we experience a second kingdom with glory and grace in the midst of the grind. Peeked at Weedon’s Blog and was happy to see there are indeed noteworthy Lutheran blogs. Fawn and I attended the Strickland’s New Year Eve’s Party, while Alex and Jennifer we to parties on their own. It was a grand time with all our neighbors. I find it interesting that I enjoy the company of all my neighbors on the block, yet think the Naperville is filled with people that with narcissistic personality disorder. Could it be we are warm and friendly with people we know and cold and uncaring of people we don’t know? I’m glad I shot off an email to my friend Dave. He always is able to share with learned insights. There are many folks that are coming down with a bad flu. Lord, you are the Divine Physician; remove all infirmities from our midst. Amen.
December 30, 2012
O God, who were pleased to give us the shining example of the Holy Family, graciously grant that we may imitate them in practicing the virtues of family life and in the bonds of charity, and so, in the joy of your house, delight one day in eternal rewards. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Woke not feeling the greatest, but did make it to the Mass and received God gifts. Was thinking about how we mediate during the Divine Service, and low and behold, there was in noted in Grace Upon Grace. Somehow a conversation about the Hanukkah Miracle came up in the robing room. I remember laughing about growing up thinking that a dreidel was a Chinese toy. I’m guessing now, it was given to us from our family doctor, Dr Berenstein. A wonderful family practice physician who made house calls. This also brought back childhood memories of the joys of a godless secular Christmas. It was a special time. My dad would proudly set up lights and the ever popular aluminum Christmas tree that utilized a rotating color wheel. Just imagine that, as a child Christmas was all about Santa Claus and gift giving, with the Christ child nowhere to be found. Well, receiving gifts from my end anyway. Even as a child, there was a wide range of secular Christmas stories to be found in music and television such as, Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer and Frosty the Snowman. Among my favorites were, A Christmas Carol and Miracle on 42nd Street. And who can forget, It’s a Wonderful Life. As time moved on, my old sibling became Evangelicals and it their minds, made a decision for Christ. I felt so tire and took a much needed afternoon nap. I ran across a Cyberbrethren McCain posting, Here We Stand Still. I once had high regards for McCain. That changed last year and now lost all respect. The personal attacks by this and other Lutheran Blogs are unfortunate. I use foolishly participated in the mob like ungodly chaos. I haven’t talked too much about the cold weather we have been having, because it in the teens and single digits as well as sub zero weather are right around the corner. Not your common meal, but love the taste of fried eggs with oyster sauce and eggplant Szechuan style to boot.
December 29, 2012
Albeit, I’m not done with the chapter of, the mystery of mediation, I’m finding the read very good so far. Kleinig notes: “Christian mediation focuses on Christ and His Word. It starts with Jesus and ends with Him.” I often you the word muse and it appears to be synonymous with meditating on God’s word. We’ve been ask to daily mediate for 5 minutes in the morning and 5 minutes in the evening. I think this is to create spiritual exercise as a daily routine. Judging by most people I know at SJ, I appears to me most are far beyond that in daily prayers and devotions. I got a wonderful Christmas letter and a beautifully written, The Nativity of Christ, icon card from theKahns. I wish I could write clean snapshots like that. It would take too much time and effort for me to organize my thought and do spell and grammar checks, so I just do stream of conscience writing. Each week, with bent knee as beggars, when we celebrate the Mass, we receive our Lord and in return offer the sacrifice of thanksgiving and adoration of God for sending the Son for salvation. Luther said, “Just as baptism is the sacrament by which God restores us; just as absolution by which God forgives sins, so the words of Christ are sacraments through which be works salvation.” The topic, on the number and use of the sacraments, is so weird. Yet we often speak in terms of Word and Sacraments. Even the topic of the number and use of the sacraments in our apologies are weak. It’s best for me to look at all symbols, everything teaches, sacramentally. It’s near the end of the year and time to delete some old emails. I came across an old email keeper from Dave Wohlrab. It had a beautiful illustration attachment. The Coram Deo artwork is beautiful. I’ve mediated on this Latin phrase most of the day and am trying question if I am actually trying my best. For sure I am failing more than succeeding in living Coram deo. Clearly we are nothing but poor miserable sinners and beggars who receive undeserving grace. With a long road back to Eden, perhaps from time to time, as little Christs, we manage to radiate God’s grace with acts of mercies.
December 28, 2012
Oh my, where did the day go. Fawn and I went to Lab Corp to have blood work done first thing in the morning. Whew, it was snowing pretty hard but it was brief and the small accumulation melted my midday. Then we got a call from my mother-in-law. She was in pain. So off we went to see her doctor in Boulder Hill he then sent us to Rush-Copley in Yorkville. While waiting, Psalm 71, aging in God’s grace came to mind. Strange that I would be thinking about that, rather than the healing hand of God. Just got back home 12 hours later. The ultrasound revealed possible infection in the bowl. More tests are require to rule out other possibilities. But for now, 2 different antibiotics. Prayers for healing and good test results.
December 27, 2012
It must be me, a working fool. I should be relaxing and getting some of my comp time back, but I’m finding myself still at it. I have this automation idea and can’t put in down. Creatively writing automated scripts is very rewarding. I think this will razzle dazzle more than a few people. I love my new glasses, the're perfect. I got to go to bed now because I’m fasting, so I'll just lie in bed reading, besides need to subside all thoughts away from food…
December 26, 2012
I’m getting to work from home this week, but am only putting in a few hours each day. I’ve been working too hard and choose to get some rest just put in a few hours so I don’t fall behind. Went with Fawn out to the Promenade to pick up my new glasses and a few after the holiday discounted deals. Dinner was at Nancy’s and we got to see my siblings and their family. I especially like seeing Melissa. I don’t get to see her that often, because she lives in California. All the kids are grown up with Jennifer 18 being the youngest. We’ve been so spoiled and now weather wise, it seems bitter cold. But I know the worse is yet to come, like sub zero weather in January. Albeit, my siblings are non denominational Evangelicals, I like being with my side of the family, the conversation is open filled Christ in the center. I’ve moved away from discussions of doctrine. All have been said and have fallen to deaf ears. It’s great now to just rejoice in hear how God lives and blesses us. Sadly, there are few places outside of SJ and home where Christ part of the conversation and I’m not me bringing Christ in the conversation and everyone else shying away and changing the subject.
December 25, 2012
And the angel said to them, “Fear not, for behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord” (Luke 2:10-11). Ahhh… Christmas morning. As I recall, I’m usually among the earliest to wake, but my clock is all messed it. I feel run down and tire. The kids woke me and the presents under the tree were opened. Talk about feeling the love. I can’t help but to pen what they give me. Andrea and Rob gave me more books to add to my evermore growing library. They got me, The Dwelling of the Light, Kingdom, Grace, Judgment, The Bible and the Liturgy. It’s overwhelming and I can hardly wait to dive in. Clearly, Fr Bruzek had a hand in the book list. I’m starting the chapter on the mystery of mediation. Fr Bruek has been teaching us about the this mystery. It will be interesting to see how these 2 learned doctors differ and are alike. Alex got me a really nice black flannel shirt. He has one just like it! How many kids do you think would do that? And Jennifer bought me 3 pairs of denim jeans. All the ones I have are pretty worn out. I think one of them might be older than her. She also got me a bag of Chinese peanut. I love eating all kinds of nut, but I find Chinese peanut addictive. I went all out with breakfast: French toast, scramble eggs, hash brown, bacon, and sausage links! I was so thrilled to hear the traditional Proclamation of the Birth of Christ chanted for the very first time. The proclamation managed to date the nativity from 9 different perspective of biblical salvation history. I’m not interested in the exact date of creation but do find the accuracy of any dating of creation questionable. Christmas dinner was at Jean’s. It’s grand to see all of Fawn’s siblings and their family. It was so strange to have all the kids grown up and just little Zach the only little toddler and his closet age cousin is 15 years older. Heavenly Father, You have called me to be a member of the mystical body of Your Son, Jesus Christ, and to be a temple of the Holy Spirit. I ask You to give me these gifts of the Holy Spirit: wisdom, that I may understand the follies of this world; understanding, that I may grasp more fully the meaning of my existence and the purpose of all things in the world; counsel, that I may always choose the proper way; fortitude, that I may remain faithful to You under the pressure of temptation; piety, that I may revere You in all I do, think or say; fear of the Lord, that should the motive of love fail me, I may quickly be awakened to the eternal consequences of my deeds. Visit me by Your grace and Your love.
December 24, 2012
Mediated on, Of The Father's Love Begotten (Corde Natus Ex Parentis). Can you hear heaven rejoice? Our family attended a full blast Christmas Eve Mass at St John. I don’t know it anyone else heard it, but the heavenly choir joined us in sing praises to the Logos. All the parts of the Liturgy came alive and the music was outstanding. Tonight was the first time I heard the chanting of the Proclamation of the Birth of Christ: The twenty-fifth day of December. In the five thousand one hundred and ninety-ninth year of the creation of the world from the time when God in the beginning created the heavens and the earth; the two thousand nine hundred and fifty-seventh year after the flood; the two thousand and fifteenth year from the birth of Abraham; the one thousand five hundred and tenth year from Moses and the going forth of the people of Israel from Egypt; the one thousand and thirty-second year from David's being anointed king; in the sixty-fifth week according to the prophecy of Daniel; in the one hundred and ninety-fourth Olympiad; the seven hundred and fifty-second year from the foundation of the city of Rome; the forty second year of the reign of Octavian Augustus; the whole world being at peace, in the sixth age of the world, Jesus Christ the eternal God and Son of the eternal Father, desiring to sanctify the world by his most merciful coming, being conceived by the Holy Spirit, and nine months having passed since his conception, was born in Bethlehem of Judea of the Virgin Mary, being made flesh. The Nativity of our Lord Jesus Christ according to the flesh. Love it when everyone is home and filled with laughter. I got some ideas about automated scripts that I’m exploring. There’s no other stimulation than being innovative. I hope it pans outs.
December 23, 2012
“These men who have turned the world upside down have come here also…” (Acts 17:6). What a beautiful Mass on the final Sunday of Advent. Serving at the altar, while holding the gift of God’s presence in his very blood, I gave thanks and rejoiced as I behold the face of God in those who came to the rails. Advent music is my favorite. I sing with all my heart, but it comes out only as a joy noise. It was nice to listen to Gregorian chants while I’m penning this journal entry. I had thought of the birth of Christ, Emmanuel – God with us all day. It’s not clear to me why the Jewish mob would shout out that the followers of Christ turned the world upside down. I think they got the verb wrong, but the world did turn, didn’t it? I’ve heard zealous Evangelicals in their works of, The Great Commission”, you this language. My thought is that the Holy Spirit works through the hearing of the word which we have been called to proclaim. I read today, and thought note worthy the following from Catholic Culture, “The very term Emmanuel, God with us, reveals the kindly, human heart of Jesus — He wants to be one of us, a Child of man, with all our human weakness and suffering; He wants to experience how hard it is to be man. He wants to remain with us to the end of time, He wants to dwell within us, He wants to make us share His nature.” I finished up the first chapter on the Mystery of Christ. Dr Kleinig speaks about our spiritual life as journey and poetically describes how we participate in our daily journey with God toward heaven. I like how Fr Bruzek describes it as pilgrimage following Christ back to Eden and bring as many of our neighbors with us along the way. Prayers for his safe trip to and back from Iowa. The hardest thing for me in keeping the mystery is to constantly set my mind on things from above and not things that are on earth. So, the days are now getting longer? I’m not noticing it yet. Come, Lord Jesus, Light of the World. Pour forth, we beseech you, O Lord, your grace into our hearts, that we, to whom the Incarnation of Christ your Son was made known by the message of an Angel, may by his Passion and Cross be brought to the glory of his Resurrection. Who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.
December 22, 2012
“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18). Today’s read was on, training in godliness. It started out on how regular physical exercise keeps us fit and healthy. That led me to do 20 on the elliptical and indeed, I feel much better. I’m habitually regular with my daily prayers throughout the day and delight whenever God’s goodness is revealed to me. Albeit, difficult for me to be able to rejoice in God in all circumstances, I prayerfully beg our Lord to place me in his light. It is clear, at least for me, my spiritual health is fully dependent on receiving from Christ. I was struck by: “Because our spiritual life and health depends on receiving from Christ, we exercise our faith by becoming beggars before God. And that’s not easy for us who fancy that we are producers of spiritual goods and owners of spiritual gifts. The place to begin learning to receive is our regular involvement in the Divine Service. The classical order for the Service of Word and Sacrament puts us and keeps us in the position of beggars before God. It invites us to join the company of holy beggars in four important places. In the Kyrie, we begin our worship by approaching the risen Lord Jesus and crying, “Lord, have mercy!” In the Gloria in Excelsis, we stand before God the Father, together with angels in the heavenly realm, and ask for Jesus to intercede for us with Him there. In the Prayer of the Church, we beg for help from God the Father for the entire Church, the entire world, and all people in need in the name of Jesus. But, most significantly, in the Agnus Dei, we come as beggars to Jesus, the host of our Holy Meal, to receive His peacemaking body and blood as food for our journey to heaven. We best learn the art of begging from God, quite practically, by bringing ourselves and others, our needs and theirs, each week to Him in the Divine Service.” [Grace Upon Grace: Spirituality for Today by John W. Kleinig, page 55]. I find being a Lutheran to be an extraordinary privilege. Again I say, I wouldn’t be one, if Jesus wasn’t one too. That too is a gift. One would think acts of mercy would become natural over time, but I know that it is the Christ that is in me doing the verb and that Coram deo, always comes to mind. It was fascinating to come across a article about Mato Grosso. While in California, we were talking about agriculture in the United States in general and about how we throwing blacktop over fertile land in the heartland. It could just be me, because I don’t live in a area where there are homeless people, but it seem like there are many homeless people wandering the street in California. I’m sure there is increase hunger in America related to our current economic conditions. Albeit it, Saint John collect and distribute clothe and food all year round, Christmas Sharing and Gifts For Grace is extra special. I ate out every meal and bagged my leftovers and left it out. Prayers to feed the hungry also led to prayers of thanksgiving for his love and goodness. It always is a blessing that Christ though us enables us in our vocation, as individuals and collectively shed his light in to a otherwise darkened world. May Your light shine on us and bring forth the fruits of repentance in our daily lives. Give us confidence in Your Word that we may embrace Your holy will without fear. Hear and answer us, we pray, for the sake of Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen.
December 21, 2012
“If any woman has a husband who is an unbeliever, and he consents to live with her, she should not divorce him. For the unbelieving husband is made holy because of his wife, and the unbelieving wife is made holy because of her husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy” (1 Corinthians 7:13-14). I’m sure everyone has a remarkable story about their ongoing journey back to Eden. I think growing up outside the church and being bred Lutheran gives me worldly darker insights into the light. Can’t tell you how many times I’ve be creeped out hearing people say, I was born Lutheran, in reference to, I know better and this is the way it is. For most of my life, I’ve heard may funky fabricated stories about who Jesus is/was. Between all the flavors of Christianity, seem like Jesus was whoever your wanted him to be. It wasn’t until I met my wife to be, Fawn, that I sat in Lutheran pews. I did this for many years. It’s not clear to me if I heard the Word of God and that my heart was so hardened that it couldn’t be pierced. But the Holy Spirit did eventual found its way and so, my journey began at the font, baptized as adult. Talk about a resurrection of road kill to live a life by the grace of God. One can’t help but to talk about the light on the shortest day and noting that Jesus is the light of the world. According to Dr Kleinig, “When our conscience is clear, we live in the light of God’s presence as He with us step-by-step through life.” Finally got some time to post Fr Bruzek’s fine Advent 1 sermon! Too bad I had to delete the audio of the sermons, but it freed up a lot of memory. I got a of my brother Dan in uniform from my niece and posted it next to my dad. It’s not very clear, but I’m still happy to have it. “Make haste to help me, O Lord, my salvation!” (Psalm 38:22). Come, Lord Jesus. Amen.
December 19-20, 2012
Hail Mary full of grace, the Lord is with thee. My friend Jose was taken by surprise that I would venerate Mary. Why won’t one venerate the Theotokos? Thanks be to God, I’m home safe and surround by family. The flight was a very rocky one in made it to my door steps 2 a.m. in the heavy pouring rain. Better that than snow, albeit looks like it’s starting to lightly snow now as I begin to pen this journal entry. I finally got another full night sleep and am at peace, not dreading working later tonight. The commit at the customer site went well and we have a happy customer! The initial plan was to go to the go to the customer site Monday night and fly back on Thursday. We decided to push up the date to go on Sunday that way we can do a commit here and spent a day relaxing in the mild lower 70s sunny weather. Turns out Chicagoland area is expecting a snow storm Thursday, so we opted to fly back a day early. Because the cheapest flight we could find was a late night flight back, we got to spent a few hours taking in Venice Beach since it was near LAX. The world teaches us to progress over time to progress and become less dependent on others and more become independent, yet with our spiritual it’s just the opposite, we become more dependent on Christ for every situation. I’m finding out that my whole life is an ongoing process of receiving grace upon grace as I walk life’s journey in Coram deo, in the face of God. The business of lives, in and out of our vocation seemingly makes our pilgrimage back to Eden impossible, but with Christ all things are possible. All we need to do is follow him. Spent a couple hours doing the travel expense report. Sigh…United Airlines went bonkers with more than a few duplicate charges. Come, Lord Jesus, Light of the world.
December 18, 2012
I was well rested but ever so hungry throughout the night. That was in many ways harmful to my overall health. The work was smooth until the actual migration when some APs didn’t come back. I was so fortunate to have Jose to restore them back. I would have been literally up the creek and would have had to back out the day’s efforts. So after soaking all day, all that remains left is be a very short night to commit and a LA celebration with 3 sites under my belt. With that being said, I think the expectation are set high, and the bar may be set a little too high. I just want to be place in a position in the team where I can best contribute comfortably. Driving around LA, Jose noted that the area is much like where he grew up as a child in Mexico. The architecture is very similar and reminded him of fond memories of summer long holidays with family and friend there. I can’t imagine what it is like to move from a country. I’m not a traveled man and places I’ve been to Shanghai, China and border towns in Canada. It was a big thing for me just to go to Hawaii on our wedding honeymoon. I don’t think often about being back in the day. I was a different person and rather leave that person back in the past. Strange, that my mother and father as well as my stepmother were Christ like in many ways, yet I remained rebellious. That part of my life I hold on dearly as well as the memories of my sister Mary and my brother Dan, who I see at the Eucharist. I’m determined not skip meals like that again. I felt so good this morning after a light breakfast, a soak in the tub, and a short nap with the balcony door wide open. Alright, I did two 20 minute workouts; one late morning and the other, mid afternoon. It was 15 mins on the elliptical and then 5 with so light weights. LOL, got to start out somewhere without injuring myself and not pen something that is embarrassing. Strange, how I always feel so much better after exercising, yet don’t do it as often as needed. Hmmm? Lunch was a nice crisp Cobb salad with plenty left for dinner. I decided not to overdo it with the meals and pace the portions and not skip because of the work load. allowed because the introduction was that good, I initially thought, Grace Upon Grace, would be a quick read, in a matter of two to four weeks as time. As I sat with the warmth of the sun on my face, I dove in chapter 1, The Mystery of Christ, A company of beggars. I didn’t get past the point, without the need to muse over, The Art of Begging, Kyrie eleison! It is most certainly true that, “Jesus teaches that we begin, continue, and end our spiritual journey with Him as beggars before God the Father, the heavenly king.” The next point, Strange Enrichment, Love it when the angelic choir and the human choir are joined together in praise. I aspire there will be a time when I am able to sing praises before our Lord beyond making a joyful noise. It is strange to be a sinner and also a saint, but it become clear in that we become holy only though the works and righteousness of Christ and him crucified. I can tell this book is going to be a slow read, perhaps only one or two points to muse upon and savor as daily mediation and prayer. Jesus Christ son of the living God, have mercy on me, a sinner. Amen. I put in a little time to put together some screen shots from last night that may be helpful with the flow of the process document. Funny, that the last job was so spoiling, working from home and that this job is the other extreme, requiring being on the road. At least this job I get to interact with people and I do love talking theology, if it comes about. I know some people prefer not to or is uncomfortable talking about it, but in mind, what else is there to talk about? Especially, when our lives are fully dependent upon our relationship with God and that our relationship between our neighbors is the Christ in us which beholds the Christ that is in them. Alright, pizza to celebrate the LA migration, tonight!
December 17, 2012
What a killer night but we got through it. The day was most excellent. The Marriott is right across the way from Disneyland! I had the balcony sliding door open and enjoyed the fresh air and beautiful morning from my 16th floor balcony. The read on receptive spirituality is very Lutheran. Since brought into faith, personal devotions and reading Holy Scripture was never an issue. I’m like the deer that yearns for running stream and thirst. My problem for many years was much like that of the Ethiopian eunuch. St Luke consistently tells us that reading and understanding Scripture are not the same thing and that correct understanding of scripture is a gift. But God in his mercy, has provided me and my family spirit filled teacher at SJ. My key take is that we bring nothing to the process of our spiritual growth and that our spirituality is found in Christ alone. Thus, we are beggars and are receivers of all good things, of grace upon grace. I used the exercise room which was good for me. Exercising always makes me better. I opted for the much needed sleep over dinner which is very telling how demanding this job is. I’m thinking this opportunity may not be a good fit. O well time to get ready to go to customer site and work during their maintenance window.
December 16, 2012
This morning during Mass, referring to Creator of the Stars of Night, Fawn asked, isn’t that the Advent hymn you like? With a smile I replied, it’s been sung every week in advent so far. 1. Creator of the stars of night, Thy people’s everlasting Light; Jesu, Redeemer, save us all, And hear thy servants when they call. 2. Thou, grieving that the ancient curse Should doom to death an universe, Hast found the med’cine, full of grace, To save and heal a ruin’d race. 3. Thou cam’st, the Bridegroom of the Bride, As drew the world to evening-tide; Proceeding from a Virgin shrine, The spotless Victim all divine. 4. At whose dread Name, majestic now, All knees must bend, all hearts must bow And things celestial thee shall own, And things terrestrial, Lord alone. 5. O thou, whose coming is with dread To judge and doom the quick and dead, Preserve us, while we dwell below, From ev’ry insult of the foe. 6. To God the Father, God the Son, And God the Spirit, Three in One, Laud, honour, might, and glory be From age to age eternally. Amen. I’ll admit the first week theof Advent; I was in awe to the air of the Conditor alme Syderum. There something about the Latin. I was totally surprised by the timely gift of a book, Grace Upon Grace, from Rob and Andrea. I have wanted to read it for some time. It’s written by John Kleinig, who arguably is the most learned teacher of Christ alive of the planet. I read preface on the plane. I arrived in LA with Jose and just had time for bite at Red Lobster and for a quick nap. Jose is very learned and here to provide training. Nothing is as exhilarating as being train on a live network … Come, Lord Jesus.
December 15, 2012
“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice” (Philippians 4:4).This morning’s daily prayer was very helpful in mediating on sensing the presence of God’s light. Hmmm… So it’s Saturday, yet I spent more than a couple hour doing paper work on my expenses. It’s funky that the business model here is I have to front my own money first for a global corporation and then report it to get reimburse. I think this cost them more than giving me a AMEX card because I charge them time for documenting since I am hourly. O well, another day another dollar. Not sure how to rejoice in everything, but do rejoice supplication to our Lord. Alex when out, so Fawn and I had a nice dinner alone. I pan fried 12 0z boned rib eye a bone with a high flame, perfect. One of my best! We talked about my trip and about the kids. What a joy it is how wonderful of life together is turning out. Even with it’s ups and downs. Come, Lord Jesus.
December 14, 2012
I was so tire I fell asleep for a couple hours on the flight back and only have a few minutes to spend before bed and what to pen my jubilation. Whoo hoo, thanks be to God for a successful office migration update at Oakland … got 3.5 hours of sleep and then got a light breakfast, gathered my belongings and off to the airport. Interesting setup at the San Francisco Airport having to drop off the rental car and then taking a monorail train. What a different world it is with long line airport security checks. But the reality is there are hateful crazies out there wanting to kill us. There is little personal time and feel like a slave to the job. It will be interesting to see how this job plays out.
December 13, 2012
Even so, come quickly Lord Jesus. I was looking at some of the snaps I took at Pebble Beach and smiled at the beauty of God’s creations. Advent is a special time in the church year for me. I get a little misty eyed during Advent Masses. The music is outstanding and has my singing it throughout the week. Fr Bruzek have encourages us to spend time mediating several times a day. I do it during the daily prayers. I also mused on Advent. I thought about the comings of Christ; on how the world turned at Bethlehem. Some rejected the Word incarnated and God on earth, while other marveled and joyfully receiving him with faith, hope and love. Most of all I rejoice and thank the Lord for his coming in the Holy Sacraments such as Baptism, Confession and Absolution, and the Eucharist. My family and I wait patiently at the hilltop at Saint John, where he comforts and feeds us, for what is often called, his Second Coming. As the song goes, “It’s been a hard day’s night”. Ever thing was going smooth all last night until then near the end; of course the hard drive just had to crash on me. O well, I’ll be staying another night and had to rebook another flight. I was so bushed I was able to sleep 5 hours straight. That’s pretty good to be able to sleep that many hours in this type of environment. I went out and for a relatively long walk and was pleasantly surprise that there is a rather big Chinatown in Oakland. Being in an environment where 99% of the people and businesses I see are Chinese reminded me of my business trip to Shanghai. Sweet, I came across a meat shop and went back there for dinner and had a little of this and that, roast pig, roast duck and Chinese brocolli. They replaced the hard drive with a new one last night, so I anticipate all will go well tonight at the customer. Anyway, time to relax and perhaps a short nap before going in tonight.
December 12, 2012
Loved the day’s prayers as I acknowledge my need for God to show me the way, teach me the truth and give me life. Come, Lord Jesus. Spent much of the afternoon in kata mode prepping for tonight, Day 3 this will wrap up trip and will be taking a mid afternoon flight back. So just enough time for a quick nap …
December 11, 2012
I’m joining the list of people can’t find a kind think to say about Apple Maps. Had a good night and quickly completed the work for day 1. Sweet, when issues are few and easily resolved. Stayed in all day because the temp had significantly dropped compare to the beautiful sunny day in the mid 70s to a cool windy overcast day. I spent few hours prepping myself for the task at hand for day 2 and praying things will go as smooth tonight.
December 10, 2012
Come, Lord Jesus. There was no way to start the 1st night of 3 after an exhausting day just traveling to get to Oakland, so what to do after a really nice night sleep and a hearty breakfast? I just had to go to Pebble Beach and do the 17 mile drive. It was one of the most spectacular venue I ever been to. I am so blessed to have such learned teachers of Christ in my life. Here I am in a challenging time and under a lot of pressure and yet so relaxed and cool as a cucumber looking at awe at God’s creation and orally sharing it with Fawn with a cell phone. So my vocation is of some benefit to my neighbor. Good to be at peace and not ranting. Anyway, got to take a nap before going in to the customer site.
December 9, 2012
Thanks be to God for peaceful rest in his Eucharistic love. Fawn’s delicious spaghetti dish for lunch and then I was off to San Francisco. The weather is spectacular and so is the night view from the hotel, but the traffic in horrendous. It took 9 hours get from my door to the hotel. I ate at a nice Thai restaurant that was next to the hotel. The food was outstanding but it took up my day’s food allowance. Last week I went $35 over. Seems the allowance is inadequate and it is costing me more than I like out of my own pocket.
December 8, 2012
May our prayer of petition rise before you, we pray, O Lord, that, with purity unblemished, we, your servants, may come, as we desire, to celebrate the great mystery of the Incarnation of your Only Begotten Son. Who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Hmmm… It’s Saturday, right? Crazy that I just got back and am flying back out tomorrow and yet I’m spending part the day still working and planning ...
December 7, 2012
This job is brutal with extraordinary hours. Yet there is no overtime and no plan as of yet about comp time. Hard to believe I had to explain what they are doing is against the law and need to come up with a plan. I’m not documenting 40 when I’m working more than that. There is a lot to say about the conditions but best not to pen it here … I didn’t get all the need sleep this past week and pretty beat up. Fawn had to do the driving up to SJ for Christmas sharing. Jennifer was very helpful with Spanish and Fawn helped out with Jean and Bob in the clothing room and I helped with the loading. Love it when Fr Bruzek gives me my much needed neck and shoulder massage. Fr Genig is pretty good at it too. I know this doesn't count as pastoral care beyond Word and Sacraments, but it sure is nice to be loved. The ride back is always filled with stories the blessings of God with us, though us and for us.
December 6, 2012
Out like a light within minutes and got 7 hours straight sleep. There was not time for lunch because of meetings so the first meal wasn’t till 4:30 and we went all out at the Cheesecake factory. Interesting that the 1st week of Advent was in the darkness. The sky was literally completely cloudy and raining off and on the entire time. However the sun broke out today between the small cracks in the cloud blanked sky for about 30 minutes. That was enough for people to bring about cheers. I’m just relaxing to blessings of scared music on LPR. Tonight will be the last night at the customer’s site and I’ll be doing a full migration of all the growth frames to the base frame. If all goes well according, I’ll be on the 6:05 am flight back home. I’ll have to come up with a better way to cope with physical transitions demanded. Next week will be at Oakland. Clearly this is a young man’s game and I’m anything but that. If it were not for Christ’s presence, life would be without hope. Anyway, there is time for a few winks before checking out and wrapping up Sacramento. Too bad to is an in and out job and not time for enjoying the landscape. Can't wake to see my dear with and children.
December 5, 2012
O Lord, I put all my hope and trust in you. What a nice thought to start off another rainy day. Hard to believe the rain is continuing to fall like this in California. Shot off a quick Urkel to Laura type email this morning to Fawn, she and the kids are always on my mind. Seem there is so much to do and work and am slightly concern about the possible dire consequences of sleep not deprivation to my health as well error. I slept about 4 hours last night and took an afternoon nap, so we’ll see how that will play out tonight.
December 4, 2012
Come, my Light, and illumine my darkness. Come, my Life, and revive me from death. Come, my Physician, and heal my wounds. Come, Flame of divine love, and burn up the thorns of my sins kindling my heart with the flame of thy love. Come, my King, sit upon the throne of my heart and reign there. For thou alone art my King and my Lord. - St. Dimitrii of Rostov (1641-17070). Up so early in the darkness, but there was light in my heart. Jennifer’s writing on light is still on my mind. I have to learn to adjust my eating habits. Having a cold bowl of cereal 5:30 in the morning and not eating lunch till 7-1/2 hours later isn’t going to cut it. With that said, lunch at Thai House. Yummy, Gang Garee Gai! It’s been a long while since I’ve been on an airplane, more years than I care to mention. As spectacular as the view is, pales in comparison to the view from the altar during Mass. Hard to believe how big an airbus is, well over 200 people. I took a short nap after that and will be going out to dinner shortly and then off to customer site to start prep work. Working during the maintenance window at night will be interesting. Being away from Fawn isn’t easy for me.
December 3, 2012
Whoo hoo, got email from Fr Bruzek with the requested ecopy of Sunday’s sermon. Now all I need is the time to format and post it. I simply refuse to talk about work other than to say the day there wasn’t pretty. Now on the other hand what’s going on, it was an awesome early autumn like day in the upper 60s. Well, off to bed and an early start tomorrow morning. O almighty and merciful God, Who hast commissioned Thy angels to guide and protect us, command them to be our assiduous companions from our setting out until our return.
December 2, 2012
Steps out this morning for Sunday Mass and was immediately struck by the unseasonably warm weather. It got up to 65◦F midday. LOL, neighbors were out setting their exterior holiday ordainments wearing a t-shirts, shorts and sandals. Anyway, Advent 1 was a full blast Mass and all my senses were immerse in the splendor of God’s beauty. The Advent music was outstanding and as the sermon. I asked Fr Bruzek for an e-copy of the sermon so that I can post and share it as well as to thank him for all he does. I was blown away by Conditor Alme Siderum in Latin, it was really something. I'd would never have guessed in a million years, a year ago that the music at SJ could of been any better. Which is why I'm really surprise it as the level it is. Why do we have over 300 people physically attend a bible study any given week? Simply just drop in one and find out. I love it when Dave and I both assist at the altar. We have it down to a science with 8 people. Pride? Really? I started to pen something and then just had to stop and asked again, really? Why in the world would someone say such a thing? Redirection to one’s own lost of the joy of their own salvation? That was where my family and I were at- not pride. Our Lord counted our teardrops and placed them in a bottle and then gathered us to his hilltop where we have so many friends, where we are able love and care for one another, beholding the Christ in each of us, while we patiently wait for his return. I guess I shouldn’t be speculating why others see things differently than me either. Hmmm… got a call to reschedule and book my flight to Sacramento to Tuesday. The new plan is Sacramento this week, Oakland next and then L.A. the following. Things are so fluid and wonder if I flexible enough for this seemingly chaotic project. Jennifer read her paper on the importance of light as a stimulus in Gothic Churches and the blessing of stained glass and their power to convey sacred stories. Fawn and I drove Jennifer back to school. I really enjoy the car ride because it really is a good time to just talk and share. I seen so many relationships fail because of lack of communication.
December 1, 2012
Didn’t wake in time to make it to bible study, Oh well? I got a full night’s rest and was good for the day. I see the need for a balanced day and making wise use of time and limiting the number of things of interest. LOL, with that said, I spent about an hour checking out the map, places of interest and fine dining. Lord, I place myself in your divine safety as I travel. Grant that I abide in you in thought, word and deed so that I would be a blessing everywhere I go. Amen. I wrapped my read on Augustine’s Confession. This early church father is brilliant. Of course I reject some of his teaching, but he nonetheless achieves his sought wisdom found in Christendom. Alex took yesterday off and drove up to Detroit with his old NIU College buddies to cheer on the Huskies in their MAC championship game against Kent State. He made home this afternoon wearing a NIU 2012 MAC Champion t-shirt and had an ear to ear smile. Hmmm… getting a little exercise raking up and bagging blown leaves in front yard. The thought was there about neighbors not doing the same and about the need to be doing it again when the wind blows, but at least I’m not mad about it nowadays. Fawn and I was going through my small library theology related books and am happy to add the many new ones Jennifer has for class this semester at Loyola. I truly wonder if any of our Concordia University even comes close to educating students holistically. Wow, I saw that I extra copy of Luther’s Small Catechism and realized it was the one I gave my sister Mary. Now I remember that I gave it back to me after she passed on. I was surprised to see a very old army air force photograph of my father Hawk. He was a very good looking young man. For lack of a better place, I posted it the Luther Seal for the time being.
November 29, 2012
Wow, the compulsory travel website is really funky. It took a while, but I’m booked and good to go. Fawn and I went to the 40/50 Christmas party at SJ and had a great time talking to friends. Gatherings like this are a true blessing in that we get the opportunity to behold the Christ in our fellow parishioners. Can’t go wrong being in the Commons and being loved and loving. The lit up huge Christmas tree is stunningly beautiful. Then it was off to the city to pick up Jennifer. Well, once again it’s late and this old man is tire and hopes to wake up early enough to make to the morning’s bible study. Lord, grant me the passion to live a Christ filled life. Amen.
November 29, 2012
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert” (Isaiah 43:18-19). I’m starting to come to terms that this is the way it is, corporate employers are going to be ruthless. Letting people go and then hire out cheap. So I’ll need to move on with what is at the moment in your life and trust knowing that God and plans for me and my family are never burdensome. It was a super busy day tiding up in preparing for my first business related trip. I find in amazing how much one has to find out by asking questions. Very little is given you or defined and things move at a very fast pace. I was so exhausted I went directly to bed after dinner. Now I find myself awake in the middle of the night. I made good use of the time setting up rewards programs for airlines and hotels. Created a website of work related website instead of saving links on IE favorites. Hope to get in a few winks …
November 28, 2012
Ahhh… now that’s what I’m talking about Lux et origo, light and origin of light. Up early and drove up to SJ for the Morning Eucharist. I can’t think of a better way than to start a day, than to be with friends and taste and see the goodness of the Lord, as well as leaving my burdens to him. As a bonus to have Fr Bruzek loving me with a neck and shoulder massage. Went to the doctor’s office for a prescription refill. My blood pressure is good and more good news, generic! Need I say more?
November 27, 2012
Hmmm… more frustration in not knowing and not getting a straight answer from the less than forthright. Failing to be salt and light in the world. Lord, you are the light of the world. Grant I reflect your light. Amen.
November 26, 2012
“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18). I start to pen how difficult it was to rejoice in my circumstance at work, but it’s best not to go there … Lord, grant that I rejoice in all circumstances. Amen. I love listening to this version of Ubi Caritas. It’s helpful in seeing God presence is our acts charity. There was a ton of leftovers still in the frig, so I heated up up a little this and a little of that and snacked on it. I fried up one of my best tasting 12 oz rib eye. It was one those times I wish there was 2 of them. But it goes without saying 12 ozs was way more than what Fawn can eat so I got the savor a few good slices while we watched, The Voice Top 8. It’s my favorite singing show. It doesn’t matter to me who win the show; I’m just so entertained by all the talent. But will say I’m a fan of the incredible Amanda Brown as well as Terry McDermott. Stir up the will of your faithful, we pray, O Lord, that striving more eagerly to bring your divine work to fruitful completion, they may receive in greater measure the healing remedies your kindness bestows. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.
November 25, 2012
Set us free, O God, from the bondage of our sins and give us the liberty of that abundant life which You have made known to us in Your Son, our Savior Jesus Christ; who lives and reigns with You, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever. Amen. Double Holy Mass for me! The early mass was from for the pews and the later mass was service at the altar. Albeit, I’ve sat on top many times, each time I’m still at awe when I am privileged to be seated so close to the altar and smelling the sweet fragrant of Christ. After mass, I met a young man that was a first time visitor. He is a senior at Wheaton College. He commented how much he like music and that it was quite different from the jazz music in his Presbyterian Church. I googled jazz + worship and was surprised at the number hits. I like listening to smooth jazz, but I don’t know what to make of it in a Mass other than it’s not a good fit, at least not for me. Chanting the psalms has always been a blessing to me in and out of church. With that said, I can see myself chillin to jazz psalms at a hard day at work every now and then. It was nice that Rob and Andrea stay in town for a visit after church. Fawn and I are just about ready to drive Jennifer back to school. The idiom, “All good things must come to an end”, redundantly comes to mine. But thankful we are in hope of Christ and him crucified, that good things don’t always come to an end.
November 24, 2012
I felt bad because I fell asleep on Jennifer last night, but we’re at it again today. We’re up to book X of XIII books. I hope we can finish up Augustine’s Confessions this weekend before we drive Jennifer back to school tomorrow. I don’t know what to make of Book VIII, Augustine’s water shed moment when to picked up the bible and read, “put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires” (Romans 13:14). I find his conversion fascinating. I was adult baptized and have no recollection of my conversion. I wasn’t even a seeker. I guess my problem with Augustine, is he fails to mention the work of the Holy Spirit in him and seems to add to God’s grace his own will in participation. When Augustine’s name come up I always think about justification and Luther. The Formula of Concord, states that good works are necessary, but not for salvation. I believe it is rightly stated this way by the authors because they didn’t want to give people the notion that God accepts people on the basis of their good works rather than on the basis of what Christ and him crucified has done. Because we are set free from the bondage of our sins, good works are to be done willingly from a spontaneous spirit. It is just as easy for an evangelical catholic like me to say good works are necessary for salvation. I first heard Fr Genig say the good works are necessary. It took a while for it to soak in and it wasn’t until I was blown away by a Fr Bruzek sermon where he held out his hand and counted his fingers like Mother Teresa and quoted her saying, “You did it for me.” This is in reference to the Gospel of Matthew, chapter 25, The Final Judgment. I hid indoors all day away from the cold and only went outside to take out the garbage. Mmm… I made barbecue pork with bok choy over pan fried noodles. We been eating Fawn’s garden salad the last 3 meals. She has been creatively mixing it up. I have to admit her meal salads are awesome.
November 23, 2012
Brrr… extreme temperature swings are not uncommon in the Chicagoland area, but I have no recollections of an extreme 65◦F to 31◦F midday swing with a wind chill factor of 18◦F. T So far it’s been a great holiday weekend. I don’t have much time to reflect on the day because I ‘m about to spend a little more time with Jennifer on the Augustine book. It’s a long read. Albeit all my kid’s have a higher learning aptitude than me, I’m particularly amazed at how impressive Jennifer’s ability is to comprehend and make swift analysis.
November 22, 2012
It could be me, but it seems every time the music in the daily prayers is chanted in Latin, the morning prayers, scripture and questions for reflection are many folds blessed. Funny how it’s Thanksgiving Day and yet I have Christmas and Christmas sharing on my mind and hearing and doing God’s word. “Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Therefore put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls. But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing. If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person's religion is worthless. Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction and to keep oneself unstained from the world” (James 1:19-27). Fawn and I took an nice long walk to the neighborhood store for a newspaper. Thursday’s are ads days. I think we only buy a paper several times a year now. I think they are all but obsolete. Thanksgiving was at Henry and Heather’s again this year. Naturally there is always great food and conversation. One of my prized treasures of the day was getting to spend time with Jennifer alone while most were watching the Cowboy Redskin game in the other room. She’s reading Augustine’s Confessions. I have been musing on liberum arbitrium for many years now and the red flag of decision theology comes about. For this early church father, he believes his burning passion wisdom for eternal truth as aroused from his reading of Cicero’s Hortensius. In his own mind, Augustine believes his conversion to Cath0lism essentially involves a intellectual reorienting of the will, a radical change in attitude and motive. For Lutherans, Jesus always does the verb. He chooses us. The question becomes,What does Augustine do to bring about his conversion and Is his final decision something that he accomplishes by his own effort and striving? Also, Catholics and Protestants have to ask themselves the same question. In many ways, Catholics and Protestants appear to be two sides of the same coin.
November 21, 2012
I have to make this quick because it is already late. Funny, how the day just seem heavenly. It started out in a thick fog, like being in a cloud and ended in heavenly place on earth. Whoo hoo, after 3 full days of intense training, I’m certified! Next step, a business trip to Oakland followed a trip to Los Angeles. Hmmm… this is going to be interesting. Wow, the Thanksgiving Eve Mass is outstanding. I really like Vicar Buchs. His sermons and demeanor is like a season pastor. Holy smoke, literally the sweet fragrance of Christ. I finally found out where my consecration of SJ dvd was at. I played the 2 hour Mass as soon as I home. Nice way to end the day.
November 20, 2012
Busy, busy, busy. Went in early and got out late. Training at work was intense. Where did the time go? We barely had time to eat, let alone take a break and go for a walk. It was another day of intense training in the lab with actual equipment, deja vu. To make things worse, I had to leave straight from work to the GB meeting. The meetings are swift with little discussion. Sweet, when there is no division and people are on the same page. One more day of lab training and hopefully we will be given a little time for everything to soak in. Prayers and abiding thoughts of love and generosity aren’t always on our mind. It took me a while to soak in, prayers as an act of mercy. After all, Jesus always does the verb. People in general see acts of mercy in words and deeds by a fellow being. The reality is that I’m not a kind person and what little good that I do, is done by the Christ that is in me, though me.
November 19, 2012
Busy, busy, busy. Went in early and got out late. Training at work was intense. Where did the time go? We barely had time to eat, let alone take a break and go for a walk. The plan is another day of intense training in the lab with actual equipment. I think that’ll be a lot of fun. It’s been a while since I been in lab. From a worldly perspective, I use to find work very rewarding, but with the economy the way it is, I find myself nowhere close to doing anything thing matching the level of my capabilities for the past 5 years. . If it weren’t for the fine teachings from the most learned teachers of Christ, I’d be so down in the dumps. I’m reminded that when we work with God in mind, we are fulfilling his plan to meet the needs of our community.
November 18, 2012
“you make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore” (Psalm 16:11). I don’t think I ever penned any of my feelings while sitting in the nave before Mass. Most times I’m contemplating God’s goodness and mercy, because Fr Bruzek has instilled the image of the Cross Icon and the chalice on the altar directly below. Praise to you, O Christ, we feed on your noble and precious blood that flows from your wounds that washes away the sins of the world. The sins I knowing carry out are the most agitating and surly there remain unguarded thoughts, words and deeds unaccounted for. When the bell choir began playing the pre-service music, I got a little misty eye and got goose bumps when I heard the sound of the beautiful full rings. I was so happy Rob and Andrea stayed afterward. It was a great opportunity to fix a nice big brunch with french toast, sausage links, hash brown and scramble eggs. Fawn and went for an evening drive to the city to give Jennifer a few things and to pick up her dirty laundry, so he won’t need to do that midweek when she’ll take the train back home for the thanksgiving holiday. Grant us, we pray, O Lord our God, the constant gladness of being devoted to you, for it is full and lasting happiness to serve with constancy the author of all that is good. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.
November 17, 2012
“what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?” (Psalm 8:4). The awesomeness of God is so mind boggling that can be so easily lost our simple minds. Just to gaze at the stars of night and to know God place them there, leaves me in awe and wondering like the psalmist. Sweet , the sun was shining and the temp was in the upper 50s, a blessing for this time of year. I raked and bag the remaining leaves that were on the front lawn. I hated to have to delete some pages with videos and images to free up some space. I reclaimed 4% or 4MB so I at 94% now. Eventually I may need to lose the audios. Fawn and I went to shop at target to get me some office supplies and what nots. Hard to believe the work place doesn’t provide any. The store has almost everything marked down and is already getting ready for the Christmas shopping season. It’s not quite the season of Advent but the short days make is seem like it. Lord, we wait for your glorious return. Amen.
November 16, 2012
Lord, shine your light to the darkness of our heart so that we may enjoy your present and work within us. Amen. I was hoping to get two 2mile walks in every day but the two days I was only able to get one in. It should be alright to at least get one daily walk in at work. I'll be surpise it I can't drop a pound or 2 aeach week moving forward. Not all things go my way; this morning even seemed to be against me. But by God’s grace, awareness of his presence was with me much of the day. It enabled me strive to seek him in all things so that all may be filled with it. That’s a much better being in the dumps. It’s awesome whenever the Orbiting Christ is the center of your life and the axis my thoughts, words and deeds bring glory to his holy name. Lord, grant that we reflect the image of your divine goodness. Amen.
November 15, 2012
Wow, what is one to deduce after reading, At the funeral of Hamas' Ahmed Jabari, supporters chanted, "we want to kill in the name of God"? Although it may be difficult to find a peacefulness in this broken world, “the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:7). I love today’s daily prayers. It was very helpful for me to see the echoes of the kingdom of God and appreciate Westminster Choir: Sanctus was beautiful. Albeit, the music of the church is diverse, I and very particular and set, perhaps by my own standard, of what is and isn’t beyond the pale of the church. Lord, grant us your Holy Spirit, that by studying your word, we come to a deeper knowledge of you and your love. Amen.
November 14, 2012
Their not playing nice and it appears that taking a pilgrimage through the holy land is still dangerous. Lord, sent your holy angels to watch over and protect our love one from danger in their travel and see them home in safety and peace. Amen. I invited Tim to join me on one of my 2 walks. The walk and talk is a great way share a friendship and get some good exercise.
November 13, 2012
“For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age, waiting for our blessed hope, the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us to redeem us from all lawlessness and to purify for himself a people for his own possession who are zealous for good works” (Titus 2:11-14). We have been focusing on things Christians do and how God grace trains and enables us to live lives that reflect his presence. Pope Benedict XVI, at the age of 85, recently said, "In every age we have to know how to discover the presence of the blessings of the Lord and the riches that they contain". Did 2 walks each about 20 minutes. I’m pretty sure I can stick to this and drop some weight. Last night dinner was a spring salad. I always love the way Fawn makes it. She really put a lot of effort and love into salad. I pack my lunch which is a real good thing. No sneaking in snacks like I was doing working from home. Watched,The Voice Top 12. I’m partial to Amanda Brown and Terry McDermott, but Cassadee Pope was rocking right up there with them. Anyone could win. The show was relaxing and filled with many high power performances. There are older Issues Etc hymn studies I still want to listen to. Glad they remain available thru archive on-demand. Perhaps during the holidays or during my upcoming business travel. However, I was blessed listening to the 11/5 hymn study of, For All the Saints, by Dr. Just. What a great way to cap off the evening, joining our voices with the saints of heaven.
November 12, 2012
Jesus Christ, son of the living God, have mercy on me, a sinner. Brrr…. So cold and I made a huge mistake not dressing in layers. I was uncomfortable in the office because I dressed so warm. I bought a new pair of sneakers just so I can take nice long walks about the 6 building corridors during the lunch hour. Walking in a place this big is great. Two weeks in job and I already had to contemplate whether or not to pen how disappointing people are. It is enough to say the world is a dark place. I’m not perfect either but pray that, dim as it may be, to be a light that fills the darkness. Lord, you are the light of the world. Grant that I be reliant on your source so that I’d be more than a 5 watt bulb. Amen.
November 11, 2012
Almighty and merciful God, graciously keep from us all adversity, so that, unhindered in mind and body alike, we may pursue in freedom of heart the things that are yours. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, forever and ever. Mass today was extra special for me. Not only I had the privilege of serving at the altar, I sat on top and got to see everything. I glad to see the nave is filling up as well as the bible study. Thanks be to God Alan is alright. His seizure gave us all a scare. I’m glad Rod and Andrea spent the weekend with us and sad to have to see them leave. It’s hard not seeing Jennifer around this weekend. Fawn, Alex and I joined in on Adam’s dinner celebration. The young man turned 16.
November 10, 2012
Stopped off at the Ford dealership for an oil change on the way up to the catechumenate class. It’s such a blessing to be with good company and always learning something new. Glad Alex was around to drive me home, I had to drop off the 500 for warranty work. Woo hoo, Rob and Andrea came to visit and I had a great time chat with Rob while the ladies went shopping. I have been bless in recognizing God’s presence in silent and solitude, but even more so when God leaves his fingerprints on me in holy moments.
November 9, 2012
Today’s daily prayer is exceptional. Knowing that we are God’s temple and his spirit dwell in us is amazing. Up bright and early, up early anyway. Even with the clock pushed back an hour the days are noticeably shorter. We stopped off at Dominicks for a few grocery odds and ends. Best workday, what a pleasant surprise seeing so many past co-worker. Hard to believe everyone is scattered all over doing different tasks. I got to catch up with Ismael, Julian, and Venkata. I what a blessing it was to do lunch at Connie’s with Tim O. I like the food there, but it tasted extra good today, because lunch was on Tim! The funny thing was the conversation was so good; we didn’t get to pig out at the buffet. Fawn was full on smiles because Tim sent up a e-picture he took when the Alex and Jennifer were little kids. It really hit me that I’ll be doing a lot of traveling because I was on-line setting up my profile with the traveling agency. I fixed the oddest combination for dinner, but yummy. Albeit thin cut, the rib eye steak was perfect and the fried egg with oyster sauce was great. I haven’t cooked eggs like that in years, now I’m wondering why I stopped.
November 8, 2012
According to Jesus, the two greatest commands, on which all the others depend, are concerned with relationships, with God and one another. I love being at SJ. I think the people are very friendly and we are on the same page. I know of no division. Work is going well. I’m learning a lot from reading the compulsory training materials and am slowly still looking up old friends. I had a great time doing a brown bag lunch with Faisal. I use to think there network TV had little entertainment value but I did like watching AI before but now favor watching, The Voice, on demand. Part 2 of the Live Playoff is just as entertaining as Part 1. But no one stood out and knocked it out of the park like Amanda Brown did the other day. Was musing aboutThe Feast of All Saints and rejoice in that we are one Holy Catholic Apostolic Church and the Christians never die and present at the Holy Eucharist.
November 7, 2012
Almighty and merciful God, by whose gift your faithful offer you right and praiseworthy service, grant, we pray, that we may hasten without stumbling to receive the things you have promised. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Fawn got her regular 4 month check up her meds are working. Nice surprise visit by Tim O. He’s a true blessing. We had a great time catching up and continue the conversation Friday over lunch. Albeit, I’m not much of a people person, I am blessed with good friends that I trust. But as in today’s daily prayer, I set them aside and place my trust, my hope and my salvation in the Lord.
November 6, 2012
Fun day at work with a lot of progress getting on board. Continuing to run across old coworkers. I make a quick stop at the Jewels for some green peas and ran across Rev Schumacher. So to the quick stop turned out to be a little longer than expected. The last time we spoke was over the phone and it wasn’t pretty. This time it was in person and we had a gracious and welcoming conversation about family. I’m glad we met. Make a simple Hamburger with peas over rice dinner then relaxed watching, The Voice. I think all the performances were good. For me, I liked Terry McDermott classic rock sound. I’m not much of a country fan, but have to admit, Liz Davis, Independence Day, was timely and quite good. Amanda Brown, was a super rock star, with her stellar performance of, Dream On. Wow, amazing! Gave a little thought about the 40 and 50 something group and what a blessing this season is in the life of the church. Lord, we rejoice in knowledge of your loving kindness. Amen.
November 5, 2012
Almighty and merciful God, by whose gift your faithful offer you right and praiseworthy service, grant, we pray, that we may hasten without stumbling to receive the things you have promised. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Sweet, using Alex’s old laptop again. It has Quick Time on it so I can attach the link to the journal date. Soo has been using it and she’s leaving tomorrow. It was great seeing her. Wow, busy day that went by fast. Got a bunch of logins and taking one training class after another. Great to run into Les at the end of work day, I haven’t seen him in years. Ahhh… I’m looking forward to catching up in the weeks ahead. There’s nothing like coffee, God and old friends. I try several times last week to hook up with Tim, hearing he’s back this week from vacation. He just got a newborn boy. His second child!
November 4, 2012
Out the door 7:30 this morning. At least I thought it was. I noticed there was zero traffic on the way, then it dawned on me, I should of set the clock back an hour. I turned out to be blessing as I got to sit in the nave in quite rest. The Feast of All Saints was outstanding. I think it is time to add another tray of individual cups. The large nave is beginning to filling up the last two weeks or so. It is not clear to me if more people are moving from the other service to the early or more people are attending Mass. I was thrilled to see about a half a dozen visiting pastors. It’s a blessing to see Rob and Andrea and enjoying a fine meal together.
November 3, 2012
Cold days porridge for the last two days. Made plenty of oatmeal yesterday and congee today. Great way to heat up the house and warm the tummy. Hoping for an Indian Summer in November. What a blessing to browsing though the John W. Kleinig Resources site. This collective treasure trove is a true blessing by the church for the church. I use to have to surf all over the internet to find his most learned teachings of Christ. Yikes, I'm at 98% of my 100 MB strage limitations. I will need to make drastic changes soon to this site. I think I might have a few workarounds up my sleeve.
November 1-2, 2012
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-30). I made it through the work week ! With the new job and having to drive in, seem time has gotten away with me this week. I’ll have to adjust else I’ll restore back to assimilating and conforming to the chaotic worldly culture of busy busy busy. This would only lead God being marginalized in my life and away from the truth that we are called away from the world chaos and confusion, to be grateful for all things, to grow and bring God’s love and mercy into it. Jesus warns in the parable of the sower: “And others are the ones sown among thorns. They are those who hear the word, but the cares of the world and the deceitfulness of riches and the desires for other things enter in and choke the word, and it proves unfruitful” (Mark 4:18-19). Wow, unbelievable, Jennifer took the train home from the city on her own. Albeit, she came home midday, I was still a little apprehensive; being it was in the city and all. Letting go of your babies are always baby steps in each season of their life. Thank you Lord, for your grace and exceeding mercy; for your host of angels for their protection. Amen.
October 31, 2012
Almighty ever-living God, increase our faith, hope and charity, and make us love what you command, so that we may merit what you promise. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Fr Bruzek came through! Advent One, Conditor Alme Siderum, how cool is that? Simply just love that man. Downloaded loaded an
October 30, 2012
Got a new laptop and it not going to a Quick Time link and is playing on a Windows Media Player, O well. The work day went by rather very quickly with every what not laptop setting up challenges. Guess just take it in stride, inching forward. Soo flew in for the week and Fawn is thrilled. Mama's happy. Was glued to the network news, watching the aftermath of Sandy’s unforgiving wrath. Lord, have mercy. Christ, have mercy. Lord, have mercy. Graciously comfort us, O Lord. Amen.
October 29, 2012
“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ” (Colossians 3:23-24). God delegates work to human being so I’m thrilled to be back in the saddle again, albeit it is not clear to me why this position at this time of my life. IT is enough to know that work is a gift from God.
October 28, 2012
Despite being a little chilly, it was a good day. Making this journal entry early and got to get ready to take Jennifer back to school. Won’t have time later, because I be going to bed early. Tomorrow is back work day! God is our hope and strength. The Reformation Day Mass that was well attended. I was completely unprepared for the beautiful rich and clear tone of chanting of Psalm 46. It nearly floored me. I can hardly believe it was close to 80 degrees midweek a now it seem so cold already. So how will I find mid autumn blessings when the weather is so cold and requires wearing a winter coat? I started to pen something about Halloween, but it isn’t worth the time to put any more thought than I already did.
October 27, 2012
“because of the tender mercy of our God, whereby the sunrise shall visit us from on high to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace” (Luke 1:78-79). Ahhh… The blessings of God are new every morning, filled with its own promises of mercy and forgiveness. Up way before sunrise and drove to the city with Fawn to pick up Jennifer, but naturally we stop by the Chinese bakery shop for assorted goodies. And I just had to swing over to Lawrence’s Fisheries for a bottle of their signature hot sauce. Then it was the beautiful sunrise drive along Lake Shore Drive, perfect. We stopped at City Hall got in a hour long line for early voting. It didn’t seem that long. I use to be so impatience and flip out waiting. Nowadays, out Lord has given me extraordinary lens to view and marvel the beauty of his creation. We always look forward to Oktoberfest at the Millers. Great food, fire and conversation with all the neighbors. I thought it would be chilly, but we sat around a nice size fire. Lord, remove the darkness in our life and grant us your light. Amen.
October 26, 2012
Lord, shine your light in every corner of my life. Brrr… winter coats on and out and about town shopping bulk at Costco and Sam’s Club. You Got Mail! I’m blessed with friends Dave and Fr Genig that have a gift of writing with great clarity. Prayer for the unchurched and for those who lost the joy of their salvation.
October 25, 2012
Thank you Lord for the music that is my heart. Amen. I see that Issues Etc has hymn bible studies for this reformation week. I hope to listen to a few of them this weekend. It is amazing there is so much good material to muse over and a life time to do it in. I listened to Sunday’s bible study on-line and have to confess I didn’t understand the part from Mark 2. I must be over thinking verse 5, And when Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, “Son, your sins are forgiven.” I briefly thought about the question Fr Genig brought up about the liturgical color on Reformation Day. I’m torn between the Red and Purple. It’s really creepy what mainline Protestantism is and the paths they take that distant themselves form Eden. It’s kinda nice to have pretty good weather this week despite the off and on rain. Ashamed the temp is gonna drastically plummet tonight.
October 25, 2012
Thank you Lord for the music that is my heart. Amen. I see that Issues Etc has hymn bible studies for this reformation week. I hope to listen to a few of them this weekend. It is amazing there is so much good material to muse over and a life time to do it in. I listened to Sunday’s bible study on-line and have to confess I didn’t understand the part from Mark 2. I must be over thinking verse 5, And when Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, “Son, your sins are forgiven.” I briefly thought about the question Fr Genig brought up about the liturgical color on Reformation Day. I’m torn between the Red and Purple. It’s really creepy what mainline Protestantism is and the paths they take that distant themselves form Eden. It’s kinda nice to have pretty good weather this week despite the off and on rain. Ashamed the temp is gonna drastically plummet tonight.
October 24, 2012
Today’s daily prayer is outstanding. I had to play it twice. This is truly a good teaching from Luke 12. What a gorgeous day and the weather was most excellent. Sweet, Fawn was so thoughtful and bought me a super nice thermos for taking coffee to work. After dinner, Alex, Fawn and I watched, Snow White and the Huntsman. It thought it was just going to be so so because this story is too familiar, but I was taken by surprise, and didn’t expect the film to be made so visually well. Lord, Jesus Christ, son of the living God, have mercy on me, a sinner. Amen.
October 23, 2012
Hmmm… all this rain is becoming annoying, enough already. Interesting, the headline read, Pope Canonizes Seven Saints. What does that mean? I decided to look up, Beautification and Canonization, from the Catholic Encyclopedia, no comment. Somehow I drifted and mused on the Sacraments. Interesting how Lutherans teaches two sacraments and yet practice sacramental rites. While googling Lutheranism the name ELCA kept popping up. There are boundaries beyond one can meaningfully call oneself a Lutheran. I wish the ELCA would just be honest and just stop calling themselves Lutheran. I thought this week would be easy. But just waiting for a call on new start date is funky. O Lord, although you are rightfully angry with us on account of our sins, you have never deserted the human race. You have always preserved a church for yourself among those who have looked to you for all blessings and comfort. You have been their dwelling and their refuge. Dear God, keep us your like flock, that we may escape the bitter wrath. May you find among us those who honor and serve Christ, gladly waiting for the judgment at his right hand. Amen.
October 22, 2012
Sweet drive last night. Although there was an overcast, I got super busy raking leaves and mowing the grass this. I’m surprise I wasn’t huffing and puffing. That’s a good sign. Glad I got it all done before the thunder and heavy rain moved in. Fawn made a great salad for lunch. Her salads are always so fancy because she takes care in all she do. Today’s matinee was, People Like Us. I have mixed feeling about movies of dysfunctional families. I couldn’t relate to the movie, but am willing to bet many people would be able to relate to the anger and resentment. Watched the final presidential debate and remain unconvinced either one of these two men and their party are good for America. Guess I pick one of the over the other in the booth.
October 21, 2012
I’m posting early and need to make this short. Need to get out the door and take Jennifer back to school. I was expecting full blast Mass and got just that with a unexpected baptism of infant Gregory Nielsen to boot. Dr Kleinig’s sermon on the OT Reading of Ecclesiastes 5: 10-20 was extraordinary. True enjoyment is rejoicing in the wisdom from above and enjoying what God gives us day by day in gladness and thanksgiving. Strange how the mind works, when musing about enjoying a meal and our sinful desires to want more than what God allots us. Interesting the first sin was desiring the forbidden fruit.
October 20, 2012
“Teach me your way, O LORD, that I may walk in your truth; unite my heart to fear your name” (Psalm 86:11). Now that’s what I’m talking about, Saturday morning catechumenate class with Dr Bruzek followed by a lecture by Dr Kleinig. There is so must good theology we get each week it is becoming increasingly hard to muse and digest it all in. I’m sure in the month ahead as I begin my upcoming new contract, I’ll be deeply musing over, The Seven Counsels of Enjoyment in Ecclesiastes, and exploring what Dr Kleinig summaries in, The Elusiveness of Happiness. But I think it is good occupy yourself with God's Word, and allow that Word to govern my life. I was reminded that Satan, continually seeks to destroy our soul. It is best to keep God's Word in our ears, lips and heart. His words are never without fruit. I love going to the bible study at SJ, Fr Bruzek is among the most learned teacher of Christ I know. I often gain a clearer understanding of the living word that which produces a pure heart and pure thoughts. LOL, don’t know about Alex and Jennifer. I got home a little before 1pm and the kids asked what for lunch. I just tossed in pop corn shrimp and fish sticks in the oven. Wow, Fawn was absolutely stunning. She was all dressed up and the ladies went out to a fun filled Holy Apostles Philoptochos Society Charity Luncheon.
October 19, 2012
“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also” (Matthew 6:21). Driving in traffic is no fun. Fridays are really bad. It isn’t too bad going in to pickup Jennifer. The congestion is so so and the view on lake shore drive is stunning. It’s and hour driving in but a two hour drive back. All that truck exhaust making the drive so nauseating. How and why people do that drive day in and day out is beyond me. I got an interesting phone call from a friend that was a little disturbing but not surprising. Albeit, I think tithing is a good thing, I see it as somewhat problematic when making tithing compulsory. I rather it be spoken of as “first-fruits” as we give to God what is already his - all we are. We are not to use money in a selfish way since all of it belongs to the Lord and we are merely caretakers of His wealth. Best to prayerfully seek the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Mmm… boiled corn beef. Never fails to taste so so good. I see that the God Whisperers episode 200 is posted. Hope I’ll have time to listen to it soon. Lord, my heart is heavy and burdened by my imperfections. Help me to be perfect in your love. Amen.
October 18, 2012
It’s hard for to believe some of things I think about, say and do. Lutheran believe we sin in our thought, words and deeds. It’s not clear to me why in the catholic tradition some things are not sin unless acted upon. I thank God for choosing me, the most unworthy of all his saints.
October 17, 2012
Jesus your spirit is a well spring of everlasting life. What a beautiful taize in today’s prayer. I said there are things best unsaid. Praying and meditating on the psalms reminds me that our help comes from God. Things that are bothersome and troubling to me are not like David’s Psalms 3 but preoccupying nonetheless. But praying the psalms was just the right antidote which allowed me to sleep like a baby last night. It was a rainy lazy day watching the movie The Avengers, got to love the iconic Marvel comic book super heroes. I said lazy because right after that I watched The Voice battle round 4. I didn’t think any of the battles were epics, but I still had a good time watching the show. The rain and noticeably shorter day had pondering about darkness and God’s rain. Often times I think about how it just ruins my day and then remember God’s blessings in his rain and the grace he showers us with. Lord, remind me of humanity and free me of thought that gets in the way of me of putting on the mind and heart of your Son Christ Jesus. Amen.
October 16, 2012
Sigh… got a call that my start date most likely be delayed a week because the person that needs to sign the contract PO is on vacation, argh…. I spoke with my friend Tim. It's been a while since we spoke to each other on the phone. I told him about getting the job and found out he was between jobs now so I he put his name in the hat. I hope they interview him and take him on too. He great. The GB meeting was filled with a string of very good news. Hmmm… still feels strange driving to and from by myself. Miss the great conversations I have with my friend Dave. I listened to the town hall presidential debates and thought both of them were disrespectful to each other as well and to the American people. This election is for 2 undesirables as far as I am concern, but I’ll have to vote for one of them. O Lord, make my pure. Amen.
October 15, 2012
Life is swell and some things are better left unsaid.
October 14, 2012
May your grace, O Lord, we pray, at all times go before us and follow after and make us always determined to carry out good works. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. I had the honor and privilege of serving at the altar at the late service today, so we got to sleep in a extra hour. As usual, it was a full blast service. The Wheaton College Quartet are and amazing addition. Having them as The day started with a fantastic standing room only bible study. Three things brilliant stood out for me. The first, “full cross empty tomb.” This lead to some open discussion on wearing of crucifix or an empty cross. For Saint Paul as it should be for us, it’s all about crucifixion and resurrection. For me, Golgotha is the new Eden and the first fruit bearing tree. Christ and Him Crucified; The Eucharist is everything. Half my relatives are pagans, while the other half are evangelical protestants. It use to drive me crazy, that they have reduced their communion to a memorial practice of sipping on grape juice and eating a small cracker. The second and third thing seem to go hand in hand, “We can’t start off by nailing people to the cross” and “transfiguration days and cross days”. We have times of joys and seasons that are more difficult than others where things just don’t go our way. People often talk about trials and tribulations. It’s even mentioned in the bible. However, every time during Mass while on the rails, Jesus came that we may be in Eden here and now and enjoy life fully human. Trials? Tribulations? I rather trust God has a good plan for our day and our life. But in order to enjoy God’s blessings. We do have to stop touching evil and nail our sins to the cross with a clawless hammer. We need to lift our eyes to the cross and nail self-will, ungodly thought, words and deeds, and a rebellious heart. Guilt is also something to nail up high. Satan loves to that guilt to make feel unworthy of Christ’s love and have us cling on to what God has forgotten. Fr Genig has a great Private Confession and Absolution story where sins forgiven and forgotten and where moral of the story ends with, “What sins?” I was so happy Andrea made down to Mass and spent the day with us. I whipped up her favorite, spinach sausage with pasta. I'm not into pets but feel so bad for my friends because their dog isn't doing so well. It imagine it's not great to see one pet that has brought countless blessing and to now be in poor health. One thought led to another about animals in general, until to got to I had sinful thoughts about playing God and wondering, why is it good? “And God said, “Let the earth bring forth living creatures according to their kinds—livestock and creeping things and beasts of the earth according to their kinds.” And it was so. And God made the beasts of the earth according to their kinds and the livestock according to their kinds, and everything that creeps on the ground according to its kind. And God saw that it was good” (Genesis 1:24-25).
October 13, 2012
“But the steadfast love of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him, and his righteousness to children's children, to those who keep his covenant and remember to do his commandments” (Psalm 103:17-18). Fawn and I started the morning at the first catechumenate class. Every year we get a great bunch of people from a lot of different walks of life. Every time Fr Bruzek opens his mouth, I’m at awe and walk away astonished and left musing about God’s love and what it is to be fully human. We went to Fawn’s mother’s home and met up with Carl and his son Zach. Funny I just saw my nephew a month or so ago on his first birthday and barely crawling now he a toddle walking about and climbing. Most kids don’t like me holding them for a long period. He seems to enjoy my company, he laughs and we seem to get along. I love playing with him. Life is good when there are little children about. I imagine some time down the road went I’ll have a grandchild to spoil?
October 12, 2012
I’ve been noticing a lot of hoopla around the Apocrypha lately. Seems like Harrison, Weedon and McCain of CPH thinks highly of the ancient book. I’m not convinced how beneficial it is to be reading them. Thanks be to God, I got the word on a start date for my contract with ALU. It was very timely because we needed to take in the Escape in on a recall for the cruise control and I needed a new battery for the Explorer, since I’ll need to drive to work again. I was really sweet working from home the last two and a half years. While the cars were being service, I got to chat with my friend Norm a little and the Fawn and I watch the news commentaries on the debates. I really like watching their big HD TV in the waiting room. Fair Oak Ford is a real nice place. I keep telling myself, some day when my tube tv breaks down. Hard to believe when we first got married, our tv had a rotary VHF and UHF rotary channel changers, and there was no such thing as remote controllers. The Lord blessed us with beautiful autumn weather, Fawn and I had a great evening at our parish Oktoberfest celebration. Whoo hoo, I even got a great back massage from Fr Bruzek. The turnout was as fantastic as the wide variety of German food a beverages. The commons was sounds of good cheer. Fawn and I love times like this. I was surprise to find out so things about people. It just made me love them even more. Strange, it the past, it was quite the opposite. No baby girl this weekend, Loyola Homecoming.
October 11, 2012
Almighty ever-living God, who in the abundance of your kindness surpass the merits and the desires of those who entreat you, pour out your mercy upon us to pardon what conscience dreads and to give what prayer does not dare to ask. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Brrr, it’s cold. I changed it up from the norm of Luther’s Morning Prayer. I had the, Te Deum on my mind So I opt for one of my favorite adaption of it. I began the morning with, We Praise You and Acknowledge You, O God as well as with piping hot oatmeal instead of the usual cold cereal. It was a day simply listing to beautiful Gregorian Chants and reading the psalms. I watched the vice presidential debate and still feel both parties don’t even come close to representing me. I thought Biden was unbelievably rude and disrespectful to Ryan and the American people.
October 10, 2012
“in hope of eternal life, which God, who never lies, promised before the ages began” (Titus 1:2). My morning began in beautiful praise as prayed along to Te Deum laudamus. This chant is right up there with, We praise you and acknowledge You, O God. I stayed indoors and my sinuses feel a zillion times better than I did yesterday. Fawn put together a spring salad. We enjoyed it watching, The Voice, battle rounds. Trevin Hunte vs. Amanda Brown battle round duet, Vision of Love, was fantastic. Double Ten always brings back fond childhood memories of neighborhood parade and the wonderful pastries my mom would make. I really miss my mom and dad. Funny when people get to my age and have mixed feelings; part of you still want to keep working and part of you want to retire. Well, the part about wanting to keep on working isn’t exacting true, I want to keep on working because I absolutely can not afford not to. I much rather be retired and enjoy life with family. We just a notice that our health insurance benefits will increase $150 dollars a month, insane. Clearly, retirement, as we know it today, may never be the same as our previous generation and just might disappear from the American experience. Lord, my hope is in you. Amen.
October 9, 2012
“May your constant love be with us, Lord, as we put our hope in you” (Ps. 33:22). Albeit the day started out great, with me staying busy with me tending to chores and filling out employment tax forms, it got bad after our mid afternoon walk. My eyes itches so bad for allergies, I wanted to puck them out. I glad I have a 1 oz. bottle of Alcon Naphcon A for relieve. But my sinuses are acting up too. I can’t stop the sinus from draining; I’ll need to get some antihistamine tomorrow if it don’t get better. I got a phone call from Bob announcing he is engaged to Bridget and plan to wed in the spring. Bob and Bridget are both Tibetan Buddhist. Our catechumenate class will start this weekend, so I reached out to a few unchurched folks and invited them to visit our parish. Prayerfully they will consider taking up the invite.
October 8, 2012
Ubi caritas et amor, Deus ibi est. Where charity and love are, God is there. I love the chanted prayer, Ubi caritas. I was so disappointed, no God Whisperers episode 200. I did the paper work for background check, so hopefully I can start by the 22nd? It’s been a long day for me, so I’m off to bed early.
October 7, 2012
There is nothing like being showered by God’s gift during Mass on the Lord’s Day. Today’s full blast Liturgy was outstanding with the addition of Rev Dr Just preaching. It just makes my day to see the bible study at capacity. I knew my contract was coming to end at the end of August, so have been praying for job opportunities for the last two months. When we pray, God answers our prayers in the way that is best for us. He loves us, so all we need to do is trust and follow him. He answers all of our prayers in a way that ultimately draws us to him. It was a bitter sweet day. A day of joy; A day of sorrow. I got an email late night notifying me I got the contract at Alcatel-Lucent I interviewed for on Thursday. I wish I would have known this morning. So many of my friends at SJ have been helping me in my search for work as well as offering intercessory prayers on my behalf. Thanks be to God for his grace, blessing my family with such a loving community. I was saddened when Joyce told me in the common that she is now under hospice care. Almighty and merciful God, You bestow on mankind both the remedies of health and the gifts of everlasting life. Look graciously on Your servant suffering from bodily infirmity and strengthen the soul which You have made. Amen.
October 6, 2012
Eternal Father, you said, "Let us make mankind in our image and likeness." Thus, you were willing to share with us your Own greatness. You gave us the intellect to share your truth. You gave us the wisdom to share your goodness. And you gave us the free will to love that which is true and just. Why did you dignify us? It was because you looked upon us and fell in love with us. It was love which first prompted you to create us; and it was love which caused you to share with us your truth and goodness. Yet your heart must break when you see us turn against you. You must weep when you see us abusing our intellect in pursuit of that which is false. You must cry with pain when we distort our wisdom in order to justify evil. But you never desert us. Out of the same love that caused you to create us, you have now sent your only Son to save us. He is your perfect image and likeness, and so through Him we can be restored to your image and likeness. - Saint Catherine of Siena. I was dwelling on last week’s bible study and on how being created in the image of God and how the mysteries of God’s love go hand in hand. I think it is totally revealed in Jesus Christ. Being transformed in his image is the key to our greatness and our sublime dignity.
October 5, 2012
Got my hearing aid tweaked this morning, sweet. Then it was off to pick up Jennifer. It was midterm week and she was done by 1:30. The drive in was nice and the roadway was smooth, but their never seems to be a good time going out of the city. The media calls it obfuscating, twisting of the truth and exaggerations. I call it lying. So who lies more? Romney or Obama? Does it even matter? Seems most people I talk to, the truth is often subjective. And opposing sides prefer different sets of facts. All glory to you, O Lord. Amen.
October 4, 2012
Interesting that despite day grey overcast and off and drizzle, my day remained bright and undampened. I was focus and spent most of the day prepping for my late afternoon interview. I think it went well, so I am very hopeful. I ask and received a letter of recommendation from Benson that I submitted, because much of the job description was related to the work I did while on his team. I was really move by some of the thing he said on a personal note. Looking back at it; it is as though as though we were catechize with the same table of duties from Luther’s Small Catechism. Today’s prayers have me singing, I Know That My Redeemer Lives. He lives… and calms my troubled heart. I’m so glad to own Lutheran Service Book. I created a new page, Music That Feeds Me, that I’ll be using store hymns file for easy access to and am able to share. Dearest Lord Jesus, My Redeemer, name above all name, thank you for the blessing of the day. Amen.
October 3, 2012
The plan was to do 2 x 15s on the elliptical. But the second run was interrupted at the 5 minute mark. The bible calls trials and tribulations the testing of our faith. Fawn and I don’t look at in that way, but rather as Gods plans you just don’t understand. Jesus is always for us and never against us. Fantastic dinner; Bobak sausage, green peppers and penne rigate. Hmmm… watched Obama and Romney go head to head in the first of three presidential debates. Neither one of these candidates I am supportive of but I’ll have to vote for one of them. I just knew somehow Romney would bring up God. He said, “We’re a nation that believes we’re all children of the same God.” Really? Surly he jest. I think it is sad that the Athanasian Creed is seldom recited, if ever, at the Mass on Trinity Sunday, nowadays. I think it may be because it repetitive and long it gets rather confusing. But love and confess it because is thorough in detailing who the Holy Trinity is and isn’t. Lord, let my faith be full and unreserved. Grant it give peace and gladness to my spirit. Amen.
October 2, 2012
O God, who manifest your almighty power above all by pardoning and showing mercy, bestow, we pray, your grace abundantly upon us and make those hastening to attain your promises heirs to the treasures of heaven. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. It is stressful looking for work, but remain in good cheer. The day filled with the much needed blessings. The opening prayer, music, bible passage and the opportunity to reflect Pray As You GO was a perfect way to start off morning. You got mail! I love getting email from my friend; they are such a blessing. Love the link to Abacus.fm Dave sent me. The continuous streaming of classical (sacred) music is really nice. It was also encouraging to receiving the mindful thoughts and prayers from Fr Bruzek. I spent much of the prepping for several interviews this week. It’s difficult to prepare for interviews for position that are not a complete skill set match. The weather was perfect for walk, but strange to be talking about interviewing strategies instead of family life. Come Lord, open the gates of heaven. Amen.
October 1, 2012
Whoo hoo, when we came back from our walk, the parts came for the broken monitor. Now all I need to do is find some time to make the repairs. I read a comment on the internet, “God has the ability to ‘forgive and forget.’ Man, on the other hand, has the ability to forgive, but not forget.” I don’t think that is true. We are instructed to, “Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you” (Ephesians 4:32). Be concur that is easier said than done. Sunday’s bible study was outstanding and I’m still reflecting on all that was said. The unscriptural mantra of “once saved always saved” that comes from the wrong understanding of election, led me to muse about free will and original sin in regards to redemption. When we speak of original sin, we are speaking about our straying or freedom to choose poorly and touch evil. At times, I think there is no free will as Christians, but only to do God’s will. I know these are two different things. I heard both and both appear to be a sound way at looking at it. The God Whisperers, episode 199, was very timely; the show was on Calvinism and the Formula of Concord. Lord, grant me the freedom to be a more welcoming person in your divine presence. Amen.
September 29, 2012
O God, who dispose in marvelous order ministries both angelic and human, graciously grant that our life on earth may be defended by those who watch over us as they minister perpetually to you in heaven. The daily prayers was so good Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. I always enjoy the story of Nathanial’s Fig Tree, found in the Gospel of John chapter 1. Today’s pray as you go had a different format. It invited us to take the place of Nathanial in the warm friendly conversation. I so so moved that I had to play it twice. It was one of those lazy days where I had to force myself to cut the grass. Cooking was the same way. I just boiled corn beef and microwave scalloped potatoes.
September 28, 2012
Now that’s the church catholic. African chant of some sort in the prayer link. I prefer the traditional Gregorian chants in Latin, but that’s just me. O God of Creation, you have blessed us with the changing of the seasons. As we embrace these autumn months, May the earlier setting of the sun remind us to take time to rest. May the crunch of the leaves beneath our feet remind us of the brevity of this earthly life. May the steam of our breath in the cool air remind us that it is you who give us your breath of life. May the scurrying of the squirrels and the migration of the birds remind us that you call us to follow your will. We praise you for your goodness forever and ever. Amen. Arggg, what the heck!! It is downright rude, dog pooh on my front lawn. Glad I didn’t step on it and it was not fun disposing of it either. Other than that, it was a perfect autumn Friday. All the autumn picturistic colors are really coming in, beautiful. It reminds me of the beauty God alone can create. I am thankful for God’s bountiful gifts that fills the earth. I’ve come to really enjoy fresh organic salad, we had it almost every day this week for lunch. I especially enjoy the Eathbound Farm Spring Mix, delicious. Fawn, made her everyone’s favor spaghetti sauce for dinner. Then it was off to pick up my baby girl. There was some improvement, but I can’t wait to all the road construction is finish. The joke around Chicagoland is there are two seasons, winter and construction. Glory be to the father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
September 27, 2012
Routinely, each day I now turn to the Pray As You Go, and am at peace. Beautiful, Cassadee Pope singing Torn, on The Voice. I peeked at this upcoming worship folder. Mark 9:38-50 Jesus fascinates me in how he lovingly teaches. There is a whole lot going on in this week’s gospel reading. Better to cut off our hands or pluck our eyes out? Jesus is obviously using hyperbole in order to convey the seriousness of sin. I’ll venture, perhaps for most disciples are like me, dealing with unresolved sin. Our unresolved sins not only harm us, but is also a stumbling block for others. With God’s grace, we continually take the battle to sin. The past four years have taught me to strive to have a calm soul and to be holy and fitted for service. Ultimately it is Jesus, Christus Victor, by his grace, fights for us. Lord, deliver us from the evil one. Amen.
September 26, 2012
Let nothing disturb you, nothing distress you; while all things fade away, God is unchanging. Be patient, for with God in your heart nothing is lacking, God is enough - Prayer of St Teresa. I removed By The Way from the Navigation Pane, Pray As You Go is a much better. I finally am getting around to fixing a computer monitor that went blank last year. I couldn’t believe a huge electronics store like Fry’s didn’t have the needed components in stock, disappointing. So I order the parts online. I hope I don’t have to have the monitor all part for long. I love the great discussions on The God Whisperers.
September 25, 2012
This site now have several hundred hits every month now, so I want to make sure whoever is following or stumbles upon this site is aware that date of each journal entry I have now have a link that points to the blessings of the daily prayers. I remain so blessed and jubilant by this Jesuit media initiative.
"As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God" (Psalm 42:1). I only found one new posting today in the multiple job search engines I review daily, that’s not good. The sunny mid 70s weather and notion that we are locally blessed with a beautiful Riverwalk in town had Fawn and I on a 3.5 mile stroll along the banks listen to the flow of moving water. It made me think about and prayed the psalms. Since we were downtown and I had a coupon, I stopped off at the Starbucks for my free cup of coffee. Their coffee isn’t cheap, but is so so good. LOL, I sat at the bench enjoying the coffee in a Mayberry like setting and ease dropped on the conversation two men were having about turning things around in their church and several missed opportunities and trying several programs to bring people back and new people in the church. Fawn and I went out for a very nice dinner with her mother at the House of Emperor. Father, guide us, as you guide creation according to your law of love. May we love one another and come to perfection in the eternal life prepared for us. We ask this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.
September 24, 2012
Fawn and I took advantage of the beautiful cloudless day with a nice walk. When it come to walking, I like the riverwalk in town, but walking in our neighborhood is nice too. During our walks, we become more aware of the awesome majesty of God’s creation around us like the sound of birds, the beauty and fragrance of flowers and a heightened awareness of our love for one another. Went we got home, lo and behold, a email from Dave passing on a link, Pray As You Go. It will surely be part of my daily devotions. I add the link to my site Navigation Pane but will be providing a direct link to the fine Jesuit day’s prayer in every journal entry on the date. I’m so excited about this added blessing in my life. Alex was a happy camper, it was beef and broccoli and use three watching, The Voice. I really like this show. It is so entertaining. I love soul music and I love it young men like Brandon Mahone, cares on the tradition so beautifully. He performed, I Wish It Would Rain.
September 23, 2012
O God, who founded all the commands of your sacred Law upon love of you and of our neighbor, grant that, by keeping your precepts, we may merit to attain eternal life. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. What and amazing beautiful prayer. Is there a more righteous path than to love God and love your neighbor as yourself? BBQ pork and bok choy over pan fried noodles. It’s one of my favorite that I haven’t had for a while. The problem with it is it takes me about 1-1/2 hours to prepare and cook. I usually don’t like spending more than 30 minutes over a single dish. Nice smooth late evening and back, sort of. The drive taking Jennifer back to school was OK because traffic was extremely light, but the road is all torn up on Lakeshore drive.
September 22, 2012
I finally got around to replacing the burned out halogen headlight on the Escape. I thought it was going to be satisfying to work with my hands. As a young man, I use to enjoy working on cars. I use to have fun literally doing all the maintenance on my car. Nowadays, cars are a lot more complicated and I only do simple things here and there where I can just to save a few bucks. What a blessing it was to go to evening Mass. We sat with Lensers who are regular Saturday worshipers and I haven’t seen for months on end and with Katie who is a first time visitor we met upon entering the church.
September 21, 2012
What a nightmare it was going into the city and back to get Jennifer compared to last week’s smooth sailing. Between the road construction and the crazies causing numerous accidents, it took 1-1/2 hours to get there and the same back. The blessing is it was worth it to have my baby home for the weekend. It’s hard to believe it’s only in the upper 50s and how cold it is. Fawn wasn’t able to talk me into going for a walk, so I did 2 x 15 on the elliptical instead. We don’t go Trader Joe’s that often, but when we do, we always walk out with some goodies. I always chuckle when I walk pass the “two buck chuck” wondering if some parishes use it for their altar wine, it’s got to taste bad. Well, another jobless week.
September 20, 2012
Church fellowship is the fellowship of the church. It is first of all a "vertical" but then also a "horizontal" relationship among holy persons, mediated by "holy things."Prof. Kurt Marquart, The Church, p. 41. Love seeing New Lutheran gems like these on Weedon’s Blog. After all the morning chores, Fawn and in relaxed to a nice lunch salad and an extraordinary movie. The Flowers of War, turned to be quite an emotional movie. Fascinating how Germany is filled with remorse and guilt about their fill with their atrocities and feel the need to confess their sins. It reminds of the circle redemption, where the German people have strived to make restitution. On the other hand, Japan just seems to be filled with a godless public shame and rather forget what they did. It was a perfect day for our walk and talk.
September 19, 2012
Great listening to the God Whisperers episode 197. Those two guys always crack me up. “The conscious water saw its God, and blushed.” Wow, beautiful poetic reference to Jesus turning water to wine by Richard Crashaw, in a Norman Nagel Sermon on water. I got another job lead to pursue from my friend Youlin, but without the compulsory experience on a newer technology, my only hope is in prayerful intercession from God to be given a chance based on a history of past success. Asking for work isn’t a give my pony prayer. I was telling Fawn how hard and stressful it is the look for work when you see openings that are a good fit and knowing there will be thousands upon thousands of applications for that one job. So, so glad I watched, The Voice, Blind Audition #5 with Mucle Wastman singing an AL Green Classic, Let's Stay Together, Wow wow wow, I think he is surly to become a star. The man can sang!
September 18, 2012
Now that’s what I’m talking about, right back on track with our walk and talk in 30. How cool is that? Talk about cool, it was a fall like weather and required a jacket. The job search is going well as can be expected in this poor economy. The GB meeting was great. Bless to here the good report from all the departments. One long time parishioner summed it up best by saying this past year was the happiest he seen the church in 40 years. I’ve only been at SJ four and no no finer hilltop.
September 17, 2012
Fawn wanted to go for a walk around the neighborhood, so we did. I haven’t been doing my exercises lately and it really showed. The normal 30 minute walked turned into 40 because I slowed down the pace to keep from huffing and puffing.
September 16, 2012
God, who willed that your Only Begotten Son should undergo the Cross to save the human race, grant, we pray, that we, who have known his mystery on earth, may merit the grace of his redemption in heaven. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. The liturgy of the Cross is a triumphant liturgy and a reminder of Christ’s love for us. I was blessed to sit up at the altar during Mass and got the full blast of Christ up close personal the entire time. The beautiful Feast of Holy Cross was extraordinarily well attended. It was close as there was little left in the cruets and individual cups as well as host to consume. I was surprise the Rob went up to the baloney with Adam to see him operate the cameras. The music was most excellent. The baloney was filled with the choir and musicians. Fawn raved at the beauty from the get go procession hymn, Crown Him With Many Crowns. Reflecting on the beautiful music of the church made me think about our former Kantor. I didn’t know him well, but pray all is well with him and his family. I remember Fr Bruzek once saying, “When Moses lifted up the bronze serpent over the people, and it was a foreshadowing of the salvation through Jesus when He was lifted up on the Cross.” The blood of Christ pouring from him crucified on the cross in to a Chalice, shed for you for the full forgiveness of all our sins. I was really a special moment to see two new children receiving their first communion. I was blessed by Ted today with words of prayers and encouragement. Apparently he is still a reader. I write as a means of gathering my thoughts and a way to reflect on daily walk back to Eden. I am blessed by more than a handful of friends who seem to follow my pen. This is good to have parish friends along the journey. And they devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching and the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers. (Acts 2:42). I changed over the past year. I use to think how odd it is to head Discipleship and Fellowship as one department. Now I able to see how we wisely model the early church of Acts come where we help one another follow and grow in Christ goes hand in hand. When Christians meet, they had common goals. They studied God’s Word, God’s work in each other’s life communion and prayed together. It’s all about community and loving one another. Everything points to Christ who done it all. Thanks be to God for his holy cross. I read a paper today on Genesis that Jennifer wrote in regards to free will. She gets an A+ in my book. She was able to express difficulties humans had in Eden and the difficulties on the journey back. Alex left after church with Jean, Bob and Adam to go apple picking and brought home a variety so there was something for everyone. Fawn and I took a nice drive in the evening to take Jennifer back to school. What a fantastic weekend.
September 15, 2012
Merciful God, Your Son, Jesus Christ, was lifted high upon the cross that He might bear the sins of the world and draw all people to Himself. Grant that we who glory in His death for our redemption may faithfully heed His call to bear the cross and follow Him, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever. Amen. Another day full of blessings. It started with Big Apples Bagels and a freshly home brewed cup of Star Bucks Blonde Roasted Coffee. I’m the only one that likes their bagel toasted. I do it with a little butter on a skillet. Yummy, I dipped it in sugar free maple syrup for the first time instead of adding cream cheese. Then the door bells rang and behold, Andrea and Rob. Whoo hoo, all my children are home! I took a sneak preview of the worship folder in preparation for tomorrow’s Mass. I’ll be serving as an altar assistant. Surly the color will be Red as we celebrate, The Feast of Holy Cross. I’m surprise were not singing, Sing My Tongue the Glorious Battle. Prayers for our Catechumenates who will start classes next month and will learn over time to be a part of our worshipping community and are received into full communion at the Easter Vigil next in March.
September 14, 2012
Wow. It’s Friday already? Anyway, we brought the Frigidaire 3.1 compact refrigerator, drove it to the city and picked up Jennifer for the weekend. We did the research and it was the best we could afford. It wasn’t cheap but the Lowes had the best price. I mind wandered and mused about on various symbols in the church. One was the Sacred Heart of Jesus and on foolishness. It reminded me of a great quote on the absolute certainty of grace from, The Hammer of God P 123, by Bo Giertz.
"I just want you to know from the beginning, sir, that I am a believer," he said. His voice was a bit harsh. He saw a gleam in the old man's eyes which he could not interpret. Was approval, or did he have something up his sleeve? The rector put the lamp back on the table, puffed at his pipe, and looked at the young man a moment before his spoke. "So you are a believer, I'm glad to hear that. What do you believe in?" Fridfeldt stared dumbfounded at his superior. Was he jesting with him? "But sir, I am simply saying that I am a believer." "Yes, I hear that, my boy. But what is it that you believe in?" Fridfeldt was almost speechless. "But don't you know, sir, what it means to be a believer?" That is a word which can stand for things that differ greatly, my boy. I ask only what it is that you believe in." "In Jesus, of course," answered Fridfeldt, raising his voice. "I mean- I mean that I have given Him my heart." The older man's face became suddenly solemn as the grave. "Do you consider that something to give Him?" By this time, Fridfeldt was almost in tears. "But sir, if you do not give your heart to Jesus, you cannot be saved." "You are right, my boy. And it is just as true that, if you think you are saved because you gave Jesus your heart, you will not be saved. You see, my boy," he continued reassuringly, as he continued to look at the young pastor's face, in which uncertainty and resentment were shown in a struggle for the upper hand, "it is one thing to choose Jesus as one's Lord and Savior, to give Him one's heart and commit oneself to Him, and that he now accepts one into His flock; it is a very different thing to believe in him as Redeemer of sinners, of whom one is chief. One does not choose a Redeemer for oneself, you understand, nor give one's heart to Him. The heart is a rusty old can on a junk heap. A fine birthday gift, indeed! But a wonderful Lord passes by, and has mercy on the wretched tin can, sticks His walking cane through it, and rescues it from the junk pile and takes it home with Him. That is how it is." Fridfeldt said nothing. Though it seemed sacrilegious to speak about the Savior in connection with such an ungodly thing as a walking stick, he saw that the old man's intention was certainly not sacrilegious. He felt this by the very tone of his voice.When the old man continued, his voice was gentler still. "And now you must understand that these two ways of believing are like two different religions, they have nothing whatever to do with each other." "And yet," he added thoughtfully, "one might say that there is a path that leads from the lesser to the greater. First one believes in repentance, and then in grace..."
September 13, 2012
After this I heard what seemed to be the loud voice of a great multitude in heaven, crying out, “Hallelujah! Salvation and glory and power belong to our God, for his judgments are true and just; for he has judged the great prostitute who corrupted the earth with her immorality, and has avenged on her the blood of his servants.” Once more they cried out, “Hallelujah! The smoke from her goes up forever and ever.” And the twenty-four elders and the four living creatures fell down and worshiped God who was seated on the throne, saying, “Amen. Hallelujah!” And from the throne came a voice saying, “Praise our God, all you his servants, you who fear him, small and great.” Then I heard what seemed to be the voice of a great multitude, like the roar of many waters and like the sound of mighty peals of thunder, crying out, “Hallelujah! For the Lord our God the Almighty reigns. (Revelation 19:1-6). I took a new approach to my job search today. I got on line and applied for everything in town that matched my skill set in hopes of getting a interview. Jennifer’s dorm rental refrigerator crapped out. It’s been replaced before so we’re giving up on them. A parent’s work never ends, as we went on search for a compact one for her room. With money as tight as it in this poor economy searched 6 stores and came home to do the research and will go back to Lowes tomorrow to make the purchase. Watched, The Voice, and was blessed and wowed by Nicole Nelson Hallelujah. She only got to sing the first two verses. But they were sung with such emotion on restoration and grace. Halleujah can be sung in our redemptive times of inner turmoil and grief in recognition of one’s own sins as well as times of great joy and happiness.
September 12, 2012
“The earth, O LORD, is full of your steadfast love; teach me your statutes! You have dealt well with your servant, O LORD, according to your word. Teach me good judgment and knowledge, for I believe in your commandments. Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I keep your word. You are good and do good; teach me your statutes. The insolent smear me with lies, but with my whole heart I keep your precepts” (Psalm 119:64-69). Took a drive up to Schaumburg to have lunch with Youlin. I’ve been meaning to do that since January and now I have the time. “You Got Mail” I’m always thrill when I get email from parish friends. Fr Genig moved away to MI about a year ago. We really miss this most learned teacher of Christ and his family. Today I was blessed with an email reply from him and all is well and reminds me that the reality of the sacraments keeps us close.
September 11, 2012
Wow, it another unbelievable cloudless day in the 70s. So nice, I even cut the grass in the back yard. It’s great to get enough sleep and be full of energy. I was really hoping to get this one, 3 year contract to gain some experience in data translations, but I didn’t get it. Dinner was spinach and sausage over rice and watching the start of the blind auditions of The Voice, Season 3 on TV. There are Pro and Cons about moving dinner from the table and watching TV while eating, but it works for up from time to time. I hoping things will be better next week as I am applying for more jobs. The thing is for every job I feel is an good match for me, there are perhaps hundreds if not thousands of applicants feeling the same as I do. Lord, you ask all who are anxious and weary to come to You for support and hope. I am very anxious from my inability to find work. How do you want me to respond and what do you want me to do? Guide my efforts and sustain my waning hope. Amen.
September 10, 2012
O God, by whom we are redeemed and receive adoption, look graciously upon your beloved sons and daughters, that those who believe in Christ may receive true freedom and an everlasting inheritance. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Alright, it’s God Whisperers Day, episode 196! Awesome point that Catechesis is a lifetime of learning. It’s really hard to pin point what makes the show so addicting, but they surly leave a lot for me to consider. As leaders, it good to build and encourage community. But is not an idyllic which we must realize, but rather a reality given us by God in which we may participate. Hmmm… so I’m not sure what is going on, “chewed out”? Most likely a way of saying, “we missed you.” The New Testament Greek Koinonia has a multitude of meanings in our sanctified life in Christ. Its richness can range from a marriage to participation in Christian community. The relationship is never passive in just being together but active in embracing one another. Hard to believe I was active is something 3 to 4 days a week in my old parish in town, how things have change. Living so far from having to travel out of town to church is not ideal, but the Lord gathers, comforts and blesses us.
September 9, 2012
Domine Deus, Filius Patris, miserere nobis – Lord God, Son of the Father, have mercy on us. There was no doubt about it. Every Lord’s Day we are refreshed with the comforting gift of our Lord’s body and blood and depart with peace and joy knowing we are fully reconciled to God and raised from the death of sin to life of Christ’s righteousness. Corn beef and cabbage while we sat around the tube to watch the U. S. Open women’s Final. I’m not much on sports, but have to admit the final set between Williams and Azarenka was a thriller.
September 8, 2012
And the four living creatures, each of them with six wings, are full of eyes all around and within, and day and night they never cease to say, “Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come!” (Revelation 4:8). The oddest thing while cutting the front lawn in the cool of the morning was singing the Doxology: Praise God, from Whom all blessings flow; Praise Him, all creatures here below; Praise Him above, ye heavenly host; Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. Then I began musing about the Mass and how heaven and earth resounds in the new song and how God places the song in our hearts. I’m at awe that night and day the living creatures never rested from their doxology of praise. Contemporary and Blended Services and its music use to drive me crazy. I realize it doesn’t anymore because I’m distant from being in that mist confusion now. I thank God daily for gathering us to the hilltop of St John and to his courts. There is no finer place of refuge to receive the gifts while waiting for the 2nd coming of our Lord, Christ the King. I can hardly wait for Mass tomorrow at SJ. I took a sneak preview of worship folder and like usual, it’s timeless full blast worship. I saw a noteworthy quote from Henri Nouean the margins of the worship folder: “Forgiveness means that I continually am willing to forgive the other person for not being God--for not fulfilling all my needs. I, too, must ask forgiveness for not being able to fulfill other people's needs.... When you forgive people for not being God, then you can celebrate that they are a reflection of God.” Likewise, the same with the way we worship. It says a lot to who we are(?) I’m not saying it quite right but I’ll get to Coram deo and Amos 5. There is a lot going on in the Lutheran Mass. I started writing and musing about for quite a while and I keep adding to it. Talk about stream of conscience writing, I’m all over the place and want to get back to my initial thought of that live the strange living creatures, all of nature singing songs of praises, thanksgiving and joy endlessly day and night to God. The prophet Amos tells us that God doesn’t want to hear our song and noise. What he is warning us about is our lives needs to be in line with what flows from the Eucharist. It is unconscionable to expect God to listen to us sing songs that elevates us to his very presence and then live unholy lives touching evil and unholy things. Lord, grant that our doxology and our deeds be one with you the Trinity, one God now and forever. Amen.
September 7, 2012
Woke up to gray skies and rain. That ruined my plans for cutting the rangy ugly lawn. The morning rain gave me second thought about going to the men’s steak fry and I opted out. So for dinner, I made watercress soup for the first time and surprised myself. It was actually pretty good. It was dinner and a movie. We watched Hunger Game. Hmmm…. 85% of the people who reviewed the movie liked it. I’m a minority and don’t get it.
September 6, 2012
Great ancient prayer to start off an all around day filled with the Lord's blessings and perfect peace. It started with the smell of fresh brew coffee. I slept in late like a baby and the last one up. There nothing quite satisfying like a warm Chinese baked char shi boa with your morning coffee. With nothing special on the day, we went to walk around the Bolingbrook Promenade in the cool of the day. It was also quite nice to sit outdoors in the shade and relax to the smooth jazz piped in though their outdoor sound system. Got an outstanding email from Dave. LOL, it’s like the Tom Hanks Meg Ryan movie, You Got Mail. I can’t wait to get email from him because he always has a blessing to share. This time he shared a youtube link to, Veni Creator Spiritus. As I read the beautiful translated prayer, the Gregorian chant sung in Latin lifted my spirit. The DNC was interesting. Fawn and watched the DNC and found it interesting and even humorous at times. Last night Bill Clinton gave an outstanding speech and surprisingly Joe Biden fared well tonight. It was pretty much the same old song and dance from Obama though. I guess more will come out during the upcoming scheduled debates. Come creator spirit: O God, Who didst instruct the hearts of the faithful by the light of the Holy Ghost: give to us, in the same Spirit, to know what is right, and ever rejoice in His consolation. Through Jesus Christ, Thy Son, our Lord, Who with Thee livest and reignest in the unity of the same Holy Spirit, God. World without end. Amen.
September 5, 2012
“So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ” (Romans 10:17). Great day, with Issues Etc read, 2012 Fall Journal and listen to Dr Just on Zachrias and Elizabeth. Took care of filing claim on line for unemployment and found a few more opportunities to apply for. Albeit,I've been doing it more times than I care for, looking for work remains a real tough process. The elders gave and I added my blessings as department head for the upcoming SJ Oktoberfest. It brought back a few bad memories of people lacking wisdom…
September 4, 2012
God of might, giver of every good gift, put into our hearts the love of your name, so that, by deepening our sense of reverence, and, by your watchful care, keep safe what you have nurtured. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Yikes, the DNC is much like RNC, speeches fill with spin. I’m neither a democrat nor am I a republican. What is one to do? Be an American, care and vote for the best possible leader. The nice day gave way to howling winds and heavy rains.
September 3, 2012
I haven’t celebrated a Labor Day in 5 years it hasn’t been a holiday either because I was out of work or I was contracting and there is no such thing a holiday pay or vacations. This is my jobless reality. We Fawn I drove Jennifer back to school, the drive was sweet, only a hour each way with the light traffic. The evening was tough. Fawn and I went to a wake. Our friend and former co-worker Salvatore Suero laid to rest in the comfort of our Lord. Lord, by your death on the cross, you opened the gates of eternal life for those who believe in you; do not let those who believe in you, be parted from you, but by your glorious power give light, joy, and peace in heaven where you live forever and ever. Comfort us, who mourn and thank you for Sal. Amen. I’m sure my prayers for the dead will raise more than a few Lutheran and Protestant eyebrows. A few years ago, I would not done so.
September 2, 2012
Holy Smoke comes to mind when I assist at the altar and can smell God’s presence and see our prayers rise to heaven and showering of his grace during the Mass. Sitting in the pews, it is only somewhat noticeable, but from the altar I can tell the gradual increased and see the incense fill the nave. It really seems to take time for most Lutherans to rid themselves of their phobic foolishness of the historic church as all things being Catholic. It was great to have 9 people serving on the altar. This made everything flow very smoothly in a reverent manner. I wouldn’t of believed it unless I saw it with my own eyes, grown men bat man underwear. My family is mostly divided as either Evangelicals or pagans. The generation that immigrated seems to be a blending of Taoism Buddhism and Confucianism. We had an awesome time at Boris and Karen’s Wedding and Gala Reception, albeit it being bitter sweet for me. Rejoicing in the marriage and celebrating with friends and relatives. This is the second secular wedding ceremony where there was an officiant. How things have changed for me. What a hypocrite I was. Nowadays, I treasure the sacramental blessings of marriage.
September 1, 2012
God, who cause the minds of the faithful to unite in a single purpose, grant your people to love what you command and to desire what you promise, that, amid the uncertainties of this world, our hearts may be fixed on that place where true gladness is found. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen. I prayed this beautiful prayer several times in the past. Albeit my means for earning a income is uncertain, Christ’s promises and love is a certainty. The plan for now is to just take it easy and relax this entire holiday weekend. It would be grand if Andrea and Rob comes back this weekend but there will be plenty of other opportunities. Crazy of me to hope they find work nearby a be aroung more often. I so happy Alex let me use his old XP laptop. Jennifer and Alex swear are Mac people. Seem many young people prefer Apple computers. I spent the morning setting up XP the way I’m accustom and am go to go. Fixed some BLT sandwiches and pigged out. There nothing healthy about BLTs but they sure are tasty. Looked up driving info and where my cousin's son, (my seconf cousin?), anyway another generation, is getting married and having the reception. Wow, the wedding and reception is going to be in the River East Art Center in Chicago. Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silence is one of most ancient chant of Eucharistic devotion and is based on words from Habakkuk 2:20, "Let all the earth keep silence before him". Sometime a women voice just seems so right. Strange of me, that although all angels in the bible appeared as men, at time tend to think of angelic voices as soprano. That is hard to believe, coming for an old school guy who thinks just men should be Cantors leading the congregation. Silence and a moment of pause is good and so peaceful. Often times our prayers are lament and cries for help while other time prayers of thanksgiving, but the most striking to me are the times or moments of prayerful silent where the Lord has calmed and quieted my soul in the hope in him now and forevermore.
August 31, 2012
Bless, O Lord God almighty, this home, that in it there may be health, purity, the strength of victory, humility, goodness and mercy, the fulfillment of Thy law, the thanksgiving to God the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit. And may this blessing remain upon this home and upon all who dwell herein. Through Christ our Lord. Amen. The day started way before sunrise. Logged in and cleaned out he laptop. There was only 4 tickets for the day so I was done for the day by noon. It’s not uncommon to be between jobs contracting, but this one was hard to end because it was 32 months with all the extensions and I worked from home. I said my farewells to Bob a Tim and boxed up the equipment and brought it in the Downers Grove office. Then it was off to lunch at Yorktown and later to pick up Jennifer in the city. The drive in was only a little over an hour, but the drive back was horrendous 2 hour stop and go back. Why anyone would chose to drive in to city daily? Computing on the Metra is by far a better alternative. Talk about a stressful drive, but on the bright side, we got to hear all the exciting new thing going on with Jennifer.
August 29-30, 2012
Nothing to say but just working on applying for work and going over specific materials in prep for possible interviews. The process is somewhat stressful, so I’ve been doing 3 x15s on the elliptical. Watched Mitt Romney’s nomination acceptance speech and still remain undecided to bother to vote. I’ll be unemployed after tomorrow and neither Romney nor Obama are believable. Interesting that last 10 presidential elections, Illinois voting history reveals the first 5 elections was in favor of republicans and the last 5 in favor of democrats. One thing that may seem harsh is the extremeness on the 2 political parties is one party seems more Godless and the other merciless. Lord, keep our leaders from making ungodly decisions and lead them to be righteous that they be motivated by your will and not their own personal concerns. O Lord we pray for good test results, calm our anxieties as we wait for Fawn’s CAT scan results. Amen.
August 28, 2012
The day started a trip to Edwards for a CAT scan for Fawn. Prayers for good test results. It took 30 minutes. So to kill the waiting time, I just walk around and around and around the entire time a good pace. Sweet, episode 195 of the God Whisperers with Cwirla talking about Chicao pizza and his trip back to Chicago to visit family. It brought back a few memories of my own. Great discussions, presuppositions limits and the Formula of Concord. Thrilled their back. Hmmm… could be a good sign I’m a least being considered for one of contract opportunities, got a phone query about my additional info about availability. Odd though, because I have secured an phone interviews yet. The only drawback maybe my unwillingness to travel, O well.
August 27, 2012
O God, who cause the minds of the faithful to unite in a single purpose, grant your people to love what you command and to desire what you promise, that, amid the uncertainties of this world, our hearts may be fixed on that place where true gladness is found. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. What a great prayer for the day, amid the uncertainty of the world. Busy studying and reviewing for possible interview most of the evening. Reflect on the Virgin Mary who is the Theotokos, the mother of Jesus Christ, the Son and Word of God conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit. So only 12 on the elliptical.
August 26, 2012
I was extraordinarily blessed and struck by many things today. Among them were several gems found in the day’s worship folder. In the welcome section was a New Lutheran quote by Herman Sasse. I posted it on blogger, Larry’s World. The communion hymns Panem de Caelo and Qui manducat carnem meam were beautiful. Christ said to eat his body and drink his blood for salvation as he taught in the synagogue at Capernaum. It drives me crazy so many Lutheran Parishes denies access to the weekly Eucharist. And that Evangelicals ask, How can bread and wine be the Body and the Blood of Christ? I asked Fr Bruzek for a copy of today’s homily to share and got it just like that. How can I not share the words that cut my heart. Hope to post the audio later in the week. Cool, blessed meeting Paul and Naomi in the commons, they provided me with a lead to a possible opportunity in town. I love the commons where parishioners gather to love and support each other. As always, it is truly a blessing to see and talk to the Wolhrabs. We celebrated Rob’s birthday at Butterfields. Great Awesome breakfast, reasonably priced and humongous portions, plenty of leftover food to reheat tomorrow morning.
August 20-25, 2012
And Mary said, “My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior (Luke 1:46-47).
I give thanks to God for the blessed virgin, Mary, mother of God. Fawn and I move Jennifer to Loyola on Wednesday. She is so excited move day has finally arrived. We got to meet her roommate Allie and her family. Alex met up with us in the evening after work and we all attended Mass at the beautiful Madonna della Strada Chapel. I could be bias, but I think they can learn a thing or more from SJ. The week was busy and tense. Albeit for every prospect there are hundreds if not more people in hunt, I have a handful in the works and am hopeful. I am grateful to all the people who are helping me look for work interceding on my behalf in prayer. Today was the first day I got to relax and enjoy a cup of morning coffee with Fawn. We spent the day celebrating my niece Janet and Dana’s daughter’s first birthday. It was a blessing to spend the day with relatives and friends. What’s going on at the God Whisperers? I’ve been starring a plate of spaghetti all month.
August 19, 2012
Going to the late Mass is really strange. I was on the line up again for the 11 am service as altar assistant. We’re up early as usual, so we just do things in slowmo just to kill time before going were off to SJ. Holy Smoke! Mass in slow motion. Vicar Buchs and Fr Bruzek was really swinging the censer while incensing of the altar. It was beautiful to see incense rise as prayers to God and as settles as the sweet fragrant of God’s grace.
August 18, 2012
It’s been a long day after getting up super early and all, so I’m going to make this short. The day was filled with was fill with joyful praise for grace received in the passion and promise of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I managed to do so much today, trimming back the bushes and weeding. If that wasn’t sweaty enough, did 3 x10s on the elliptical too. Thrilled to death, I got a lot of help from Alex cleaning up my funky resume. I thought it was pretty good before, but it’s 10 fold better now. What a smart young man, a good looking man, a man’s man. Ok, I love him and just a little bias. I found 6 jobs on line to applied for, along with the zillion other people in need. It took 6 months the last time to find a job and I think the economy is continually on a downward spiral. But I remain hopeful none the less something will come my way.
August 17, 2012
“My eyes are awake before the watches of the night, that I may meditate on your promise” (Psalm 119:148). I woke up by God’s grace to find myself awake in the still of the night contemplating. His words are a lamp to my feet. The day was filled with blessings albeit went by quickly and was abbreviated because I fell asleep right after dinner on the recliner. The days started much like the day before 2 x 12 and a walk with Fawn out and about the neighborhood. She was energized and continued on for and 10 minutes on her own. Longer leisure walks are fine with me, but a 30 minute brisk walk is enough for me. I leaped with joy to see so many wonderful email responses to the “Whatever” farewell email I sent to my colleagues yesterday since my contract ends the end of the month. The “whatever” was a reference to good thoughts found in Philippians 4:8. The well wishes and kind word are a blessing. So many of them I never knew are brothers and sisters in Christ. I was sheer joy reply back with thanksgiving and rejoicing with some the hope we share in Christ Jesus. The world will find this strange, but I find myself not anxious at all on my present circumstance but was completely distraught at the lost of the joy of my salvation at my former parish. Albeit, I don’t pen it, I thank God everyday for his grace, gathering my family to feed and rest on him at Saint John.
August 16, 2012
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble” (Psalm 46:1). I finally got the news that my contract did not get extended and will end at the end of the month. The intent was always to move toward an IP centric network. The UMTS foundation has run its course and only 2 contractors remain behind to clean up any remaining loose ends. Prayerful there will be given additional task to carry on to a new project. I am thankful for the experience and to work with my lead engineer Bob. Because we worked so closely for 32 months we became good friends and share good times and bad some not so good. We have a standing date to reason together over a cold beer or two, perhaps a bottle of scotch and definitely a fine cigar. It’s on my list of things to do before I die. There were times in my life when I have felt down and out and all alone. But they were times before my baptism. Being a Christian does not mean we are immune to hard and painful times. In fact, that is when the great deceiver tries to steal the joy of your salvation. And tries to make us believe we are all alone and forsaken when our circumstances are not favorable, but “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble” My friend Tim have noticed and thinks it’s odd that I often pray the psalms. For him, praying with his own words naturally to God is a better fit for him. But for me, amen, I’m often blown away with the beautiful prayerful praise of God in his own words. “I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold” (Psalm 18:1-2). Wow, talk about up and about early in the morning, pre dawn. That isn’t hard to do nowadays, as the days increasingly get shorter and shorter. I dis 2 x12s before everyone the alarm clocks rang. Alex wanted and needed to make a good impression on the first days. With the heavy rain and all, it would have been impossible for him to stay dry from the 15 minute walk from the train station to the office. It was also a good excuse for Fawn and me to stop by our favorite bakery in the city. I was stunned how light the traffic was. We make there and back and stopped off at the bakery in less the 2 hours. Sweet, the vicar did a real nice job laying out the altar assistant schedule on a speadsheet. The new format is really easy to follow. Anyway, time for evening prayers and bed …
August 15, 2012
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:8-9). Talk about stress, still nada either way. My contracting firm should be ashamed for kicking the can down the road once again and not making an announcement. Other firm have already let their people know on Monday. Began the day by taking Fawn for blood work at the Edward Cancer Center. It is a real nice place that really tries to minimize a stress situation. Only had time to do 3 x 10s on the elliptical. This evening was by far the weirdest evening; I watched, “Waiting for Godot” It was about hopelessness in an irrational existence without meaning. I don’t have the time to muse over reflect on this. I remember how much time and effort was put in writing a paper on, “A Man for All Seasons” back in college. I wrote about that in the compulsory ethics class for my masters at North Central College back in the day.
August 14, 2012
Stunning day. I was surprise first thing in the morning and Fawn asked if I wanted to go for walk. I was so early the sun barely broke the horizon and it was a little nippy. So we put on light jackets. The long brisk walk was exhilarating. Hmmm… how rude, still no word either way about my status. Whoo hoo Alex and Jennifer made it back. They had a lot of good stories and fun with their Auntie Soo and Uncle Eddie. One of the highlights they mention was St Mary’s Cathedral. As peaceful and relaxing as it was this past week and a half, it was nice to hear the laughter and joy the kid bring home with them. Thrilled all my children are back safe.
August 13, 2012
Crying shame. Woke up to a bumper of a day. I use to be like a lot people and say, “Rainy days and Mondays get me down” That was a life time ago. I got energized and did 2 x 15s on the elliptical before work. The work day was going fine until word getting around the blood letting has begun and people were notified their contracts were not getting extended again. I haven’t heard one way or the other about my status yet. I expected their would be some cuts but the number of people I heard already are already far deeper than I could of imagine. It’s best to stop now before regret penning something….
August 12, 2012
Gracious Father, Your blessed Son came down from heaven to be the true bread that gives life to the world. Grant that Christ, the bread of life, may live in us and we in Him, who reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, One God, now and forever. Amen. Well it was a really nice day and Rob is off to Midway to pick up Andrea and I I’m left penning one of the best Sunday’s ever. It was yet another awesome day. While all the kids are in the west coast vacationing, Fawn, Rob and I enjoyed fill day of countless blessings. It started out with full blast worship. A young man reminded me of myself when I first started dating Fawn. I’m not suggesting that I know him well enough to say there are similarities in anyway. I rejected the notion there is a God and sat in Lutheran Pews with a harden heart for 16 years, oblivious and zoned out, before the Holy Spirit finally was able pierced my harden heart. In te speravi, Domine. I love the Latin chant of Psalm 31 offertory. But it was done in English today. The words are beautiful. In you, O Lord, I have placed my hope … Bow down your ear to me; make haste to deliver me, for you are my strength and refuge. A breathtaking morning prayer as we go by the Sisters of Mercy of America, “O compassion Jesus, look to me today with tenderness and give me the grace to walk on the path of mercy marked out for those who follow you. May all I do today is reflect your merciful love. Amen.” After church we went to Butterfields for brunch and then to the Veggie Fest. I have mixed feeling about what the speakers were saying but the food demos were pretty good and tasty. I loved the salad and it was the first time for northern Indian food. I’m probably going to get shot for saying this, but what’s the difference between northern and southern? Taste the same to me, good stuff. However, there is one thing gross. I am perplexed about why any functional human being would ever in their lifetime consider cilantro edible. There was a time I was vehemence to the point where just a few leaves would totally ruin the dish rendering it inedible. Nowadays, I just push cilantro to the side and bare with nasty taste. Later, the afternoon was filled with some great conversation and with Rob helping out with mowing the lawn. What a great young man, always helping out. Then it was off to Fabulous Noodles for dinner. Vegetable chop suey over pan fried noodles and vegetable fried rice. Thanks be to God for a beautiful day and Andrea’s safe return. Amen.
August 11, 2012
Fawn and I was out most of the day. It was so nice to do that when the weather is cooperating. It was in the middle 70s and would be insane to stay cooped up indoors. So we went shopping for what nots for Jennifer move in a couple of weeks. We hadn’t been to York Town in a while. Most malls are seemingly deserted and there are even empty store, not good. It was a long day and we wanted something light so we decided on Sweet Tomatoes on Route 59. I’ve been to the one in Schaumburg and in Lombard before and thought they were pretty good. That was why I was so disappointed today and can’t recommend it anyone. That wasn’t the only disappointment of the day. I was telling a friend about work and he recommended I watch a comedy. He recommended, Office Space. So I went to the library and got the DVD and just got watching it. Hmmm… don’t get it, what was funny? Both thumbs down. Guess I’m losing my sense of humor?
August 10, 2012
Take, Lord, and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding, and my entire will. All I have and call my own. Whatever I have or hold, you have given me. I return it all to you and surrender it wholly to be governed by your will. Give me only your love and your grace and I am rich enough and ask for nothing more. Amen. Did 2 x 12s in the morning before starting the workday and yes of course Fawn and took the usual 30 minute awesome walk and talk in a cold breeze. So what’s different? Whoo hoo, it’s Friday. After our walk, I whip up tasty stir fry green bean and carrot dish with brown rice for lunch. After work, it was a dinner and a movie, well sort of. Frozen Home Run Inn Sausage pizza and Comcast On-demand TV, one episode of Suits. It was fun. Ever since Dave recommended to me the movie, The Mission, I’ve been fascinated about St Ignatius and have been picking up blessed tidbits here and there about Jesuit traditions. I was thrilled Jennifer became interested decided on Loyola. My journal entries are a small part of my daily examen of consciousness and are moments that remind me God’s presence and generosity. I could of penned the day a little differently and probably should every now and then of the fullness of life in Christ. For example, after my morning exercise, I relaxed and enjoyed the smell and taste of my morning coffee and muse on what love is and is not with the help of the Holy Spirit and offering prayers of thanksgiving, especially for this week for time with Fawn. During our walks there are simple joys like just being with the one you love, the sound of birds chirping and the smell of flowers in the air. I can’t say enough good things about the blessing of that much needed cool breeze, so refreshing. In the evening during evening prayers I review the day and see a sinful being with a wavering and divided heart. I sometime dwell on my shortcomings but found it better to just share it with the Lord in prayer and expressing sorrow for my sins.
August 9, 2012
Lord, for tomorrow and its needs, I do not pray; Keep me, my God, from stain of sin … guide me, love me, Lord, Just for to-day. Amen. St. Augustine once said “as our body cannot be kept alive without nourishment, so our soul cannot be kept spiritually alive without prayer.” Morning prayers, a bowl of cold cereal and doing 2 x 12s in the morning before starting the workday is exhilarating. And yes of course, Fawn and took and awesome walk and talk. Fascinating how good it is for our hearts, bodies and our marriage. Well, it was announced we will know sometime next week about cuts and possible contracts extensions. There is no way to predict what goes on in the mind of upper management.
August 8, 2012
O God of hope, the true light of faithful souls, and perfect brightness of the blessed, who art verily the light of thy church, grant that our hearts my both render thee a worthy prayer, and alwayd glorify thee with the offering of praise; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. It is really getting noticeable how much the days are getting shorter already. All the more reason to go to bed early to get maximum day light. I really don’t function well when the lights are less than "full-spectrum" It turn on the lights to create something that mimic the sun's light. My visual acuity and concentration isn’t up to par when the lighting is dim and my circadian rhythm is disrupted, and my energy and cheerfulness begin to decline. Kicked it up a notch 2 x 12s before work and Fawn and I did a 30 minute walk during my lunch hour. She prefers our walk and talk over the elliptical. Andrea texted she landed safely and has joined Alex and Jennifer in San Francisco. It brings us great joy to see how well the kids get along. LOL, social networking is so strange to me. I openned a facebook accout in hopes of hooking up with a dear friend the are on the move and I'm not quite sure where. The family is a true blessing for all who meet them. I listened to Sunday’s bible study and sent my friend Tim the link for his thoughts. It’s hard for me to have a theological conversation him because albeit he was raised RC, he now holds a self reformation theology/ideology that seeming is all over the place. I was looking a beautiful transfiguration icon and recall God proclaiming at Christ’s baptism in the Jordan the same words at the transfiguration, “This is my beloved son.” The brightness revealed is the manifestation of His true divine nature. I ponder on the Christ that is in us and our transfiguration as a renewal of our religious resolve of reverent worship of Christ Jesus in his gloried human.
August 7, 2012
Seek Ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness Alleluia was the first thing on my mind when I woke this morning so I started out this awesome day with thankful prayers for God’ grace and for lifting a worldly burden. I have been foolishly anxious and preoccupied with concerns of the world. Sweet, I did 10 on the elliptically as well as a nice long walk in the neighborhood with Fawn before starting the work day. Andrea and Rob were in town and took Fawn and I out to lunch at Maggiano’s! So nice of them. We are blessed to be part of their lives and a joy to hear some of their dreams and aspirations. I ordered the Eggplant Parmesan from the wonderful Classic Pastas selection; it was just OK. I was disappointed only because my own eggplant and sausage is better. So my no means was it bad dish. I took home the Taylor Street Baked Ziti and had a portion of it for dinner. It was grand to spend with her over lunch and dinner in the evening with Andrea. I actually watched a little of the Summer Olympics – semi final women’s beach volley between China and the US. It was a thriller. Both games went down to the wire 20-20 with the US coming on top. Whoo hoo!
August 6, 2012
Today was pretty awesome. I was up at 5:30 and was determined to change things up to make adjust for a more suitable quality of life. I did my chores and got 2 x 10s in before starting work. Instead of devoting everything to work I decided it was best to balance work and family. Times have really change, there was a time when people over worked themselves, nowadays it seems like companies demands are beyond the point of overworking and burning out people. I’m starting to feel that way and realize I need to adjust. It has nothing to do with being and doing things more efficient. We are way beyond that and simply understaffed and over extended. Whipped a light lunch, spinach and sausage with brown rice before going on a nice 30 minute walk around the neighborhood. I have been pushing myself harder on the elliptical and it has been paying off. I’m able to keep up with Fawn now without huffing and puffing. The weather is the way I like in the mid 70s.
August 5, 2012
An affirmation Sundays are the best. Truly is the highlight of my week. I actually got to and did sleep in late. Funny how every time I make and eat oatmeal in the morning, I think about my friend Dave and his family. Speaking of which I was fantastic to hear after bible study Carol was impacted by the reorg as people continue to lose the jobs. I was stuck by what Fr Bruzek comment about purgatory, justification and sanctification. He is truly a learned teacher of Christ. SJ is an amazing parish. My family have been blessed for 4 years now. The economist a year back were correct in saying, if we think it bad now, you ain’t seen nothing yet. I still rather go to the early Mass, but it was a blessing to be an altar assistant. I sat next to our new vicar, David Buchs. It is a tremendous honor and privilege to be so close to the altar, serve and see everything that is taking place in the Lutheran Liturgy. Hard to believe Fawn and I was out about most of the day. Well not really. It was too beautiful of a day to be indoors. What a difference a day makes, indeed.
August 4, 2012
Draw near to your servants, O Lord, and answer their prayers with unceasing kindness, that, for those who glory in you as their Creator and guide, you may restore what you have created and keep safe what you have restored. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Did 2 x 10s in the morning before Fawn and I went to the Geneva Common. We haven’t been out that way in a long while. It was so hot and muggy and I was musing about hot rough it must have been for the dessert people. A high wind thunder and lightning show moved end came upon up. The turbulence was only brief and the day was not a lost; in our conversation we rejoiced in God’s glorious grace given upon our daily walk with him.
August 3, 2012
Blessed are You, Lord of heaven and earth, for You have had mercy on those whom You created and sent Your only-begotten Son into our flesh to bear our sin and be our Savior. Amen. Holy smoke, literally! But I’ll get back to that it a moment. It’s a little past 4 am and I find myself with a awesome freshly brewed cup of Starbucks Blonde Roast willow blend and penning a journal entry. I once woke to a night vision years back. I didn’t claim it was revelations from the Lord, but I shared it. I can’t speak too much about jaded memories, because they are seemly joyless days that are all but faded. Back to the Holy smoke, talk about ODing on Authur Just, Heaven on Earth. I woke up in the middle of the night from a full blast Mass at St John with Fr Genig chanting and adoring a beautiful rose robe. It was more than a vision; it was also filled with color, touch, taste, hearing, smell and emotion. It is truly an understatement, on my part to say that touching and tasting eternity, hearing and seeing of voices of prayer rising in the incense and the sweet smell of Christ in a vision is an extraordinary blessing. But I am lost for words. Anyway, it’s time for a second cup, morning prayers and 10 on the elliptical before starting my work day, TGIF.
Wow, what a crazy work day. I started at 6am and I just getting off the clock at 10:30pm. It’s going to be interesting to see how long it will take to get back the ever growing built up comp time. So there nothing really to add but to say that this is no way for a human being to have to live. Surly God didn’t intend for man to just work like this and not interact with his family and neighbors.
August 2, 2012
Teach me, my Lord, to be sweet and gentle in all the events of life, in disappointments, in the thoughtlessness of those I trusted, in the unfaithfulness of those on whom I relied. Let me put myself aside, to think of the happiness of others, to hide my little pains and heartaches, so that I may be the only one to suffer from them. Teach me to profit by the suffering that comes across my path. Let me so use it that it may make me patient, not irritable. That it may make me broad in my forgiveness, not narrow, haughty and overbearing. May no one be less good for having come within my influence. No one less pure, less true, less kind, less noble for having been a fellow traveler in our journey toward Eternal Life. As I go my rounds from one distraction to another, let me whisper from time to time, a word of love to Thee. May my life be lived in the supernatural, full of power for good, and strong in its purpose of sanctity. Amen. I did a double blessing on Issues Etc. naturally; both were with the learned Dr Just. The first was a hymn study, “Abide with Me”. To abide in Christ is to be fully human. Shamed on NBC didn’t airing Abide in Me during the Opening Ceremonies. I posted in Larry’s World. The second blessing was on Joanna, Mary and Salome, the Myrrhbearers. I have to admit, I love listen to true and learned teachers of Christ all day long. I can hardly wait for Dr Just to come back and to teach at SJ. About blessing this year will be the return of Dr Kleinig. Did 2 x 10s on the elliptical.
August 1, 2012
Sadly I only did 2 x10s on the elliptical. Blessed by a great Dr Harrison bible study.
July 31, 2012
Great day full of energy and doing 4 x10s on the elliptical. Alex made cream of potato soup. Pretty good, for the first go. He on to something extraordinarily wonderful. I think with a little tinkering it will become a family recipe. So closes another month filled with countless spiritual blessings in Christ.
July 30, 2012
O God, protector of those who hope in you, without whom nothing has firm foundation, nothing is holy, bestow in abundance your mercy upon us and grant that, with you as our ruler and guide, we may use the good things that pass in such a way as to hold fast even now to those that ever endure. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. The plan was to do 4 but I only got in 3 x 10s on the elliptical. It was pretty much an ordinary day until the GW episode 194 was posted in the evening. Sweet, two brilliant sermons, one by Dr Nagel and the other by Dr Harrison. My day is complete.
July 29, 2012
“And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near” (Hebrews 10:24-25). It was an extraordinary, up at the crack of dawn doing 10 on the elliptical. We made it up to Wheaton super early and enjoyed good coffee and good conversation with our pastors and fellow parishioners in our Commons. I really like getting to church early and prepare for Mass. As usual, it was full blast worship. Seems people are back from vacation, the Mass was well attended as well as Bible Study. Every once in while I am struck by quotes in our worship folder; today is one of those days and posted it on Larry’s World on Abba Agathon. It was so nice of a day, Fawn and I went for a 2 mile early evening walk in the neighborhood. The reality of the cost college nowadays in staggering from what we paid for Andrea and Alex. Despite a huge scholarship I cut a check a little over$17K for just the first semester. These days I’m learning how to get down on my knees anew and cry out to God. Staying employed and finding work isn't easy. Almighty and most merciful God, the protector of all who trust in You, strengthen our faith and give us courage to believe that Your love You will rescue us from all adversities; through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever. Amen.
July 28, 2012
“This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it” (Psalm 118:24). It was an incredibly beautiful day. I feel so peaceful and relaxed. Did 2 x 10s, despite being out most of the day with Fawn shopping. We’ve been cooped up inside of the extreme heat and all. It use to bother me every time I drive down south on 59 toward Plainfield. Some call mega churches Sunday morning entertainment. Or is seek where you may to find a way to your salvation? Could be anyone's guess from the outside looking in. I finally got around and downloaded IE 9. Way over due. It’s faster and everything looks great. I thought Jennifer was done with working at the park district. She was done with tennis, but I guess they asked her to stay on to work the USTA. LOL, she had 2 x10 pounds bags of apples and 2 dozen bananas to bring to the some event.
July 27, 2012
Show favor, O Lord, to your servants and mercifully increase the gifts of your grace, that, made fervent in hope, faith and charity, they may be ever watchful in keeping your commands. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen. Interesting, with hurry hurry and with less people, error are on the rise yet the job demands are that we walk on water. Nothing like working out the stress on the elliptical, I just stop and take breaks, doing 4 x 10s. The parable of the Prodigal Son is well taught at SJ. It helps us recognize and comprehend our call to holiness. Jesus said, “You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect” (Matthew 5:48). This of course is impossible without grace and is the work of the Trinity. To be holy, as Fr Bruzek would say, is to become “little Christs… to live virtuous lives… to only choose and touch what is in the light good holy things… and avoid and not touch what is in the dark evil things that will kill you…to love as Jesus love. Interesting the parable is called the prodigal son. It can just as easily be called the Loving Father because the merciful and loving father is at the heart of the parable. Normally, I was stop penning at this point, but I’ll give it a go to pen the key points I have learned. It is my hope and prayer that the Holy Spirit will guide me in penning something epigrammatic and meaningful:
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God, Have Mercy on me, a sinner. Amen.
Jesus tells the story of a man who has 2 sons. The younger son rejects he is the son of the beloved father and the father lets the proud and rebellious son who had no regard for his authority depart (love isnever by force). The son sets off to a distant land and failed to live a virtuous life and recklessly squanders away all his possessions by touching unholy things and finds himself in a dire position hitting rock bottom. He comes to his senses and recognizes the sin and wayward evil life he has chosen. Much like the younger son, we need to come to our senses as individuals and as a body. We deceive ourselves by denying some sins as sins. We lie, gossip, cheat, hold grudges, misuse sexuality and refuse to forgive. The son doesn’t think that he can return to his father as a son but hopes he can return at least as a servant. This is the part of the story that blows my mind. The father on the hilltop, who has been watching and waiting for his son’s return, reveals his mercy and love. He doesn’t wait for his son to come all the way up the hill. Normally old men with stature don’t run, but joyfully the fathers runs down the hill to embrace and restore the sonship, kills the fatty calf and holds a huge feast. Just like the father in the parable, our Heavenly Father forgives and joyfully welcomes home us repentant sinners. But the story does end there. The older son, who was working in the field, realizes there is a party going on in celebration of his brother’s return. He’s stunned, angry, and refuses to forgive. He rants in self righteousness much like the Pharisees and forgets to rejoice in the return of a repentant sinner and blinds him of the constant joy of his salvation with the father. It is also worth noting that, Jesus said, “Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance” (Luke 15:7).
July 26, 2012
Father in Heaven, You made me Your child and called me to walk in the Light of Christ. Free me from darkness and keep me in the Light of Your Truth. The Light of Jesus has scattered the darkness of hatred and sin. Called to that Light, I ask for Your guidance. Form my life in Your Truth, my heart in Your Love. Through the Holy Eucharist, give me the power of Your Grace that I may walk in the Light of Jesus and serve Him faithfully. Amen. Did 4 x 10s to undo the stress of uncertainty. Yep, yep, yep… the mention of more bloodletting on August 31st. Well, after all were all contractors on an extended contract. Who are Sts Joachim and Ann? Interesting… I never gave any thought to who were the parents of the Blessed Virgin Mary. O well, I don’t really know if there is any significant other than blessing abound that a child was raised and became the Mother of God. Sweet, listen to sermon the posted audio from this last week’s Holy Mass and downloaded the keeper to accommodate the printed on the sermon page. Lord, who made the church one body, grant that we be a community of service and mercy. Amen.
July 25, 2012
It’s more than a good day, it’s a great day and there’s no time to think gloom and doom. Albeit, so many remain unemployed or under employed, at least Alex and Rachael found regular full time work doing what they studied for in college. I did 4 x10s on the elliptical. In this broken world where at times it seem like gloom and doom for so many of us, opportunities for mercy and chances to walk in love, be as Jesus say we are, light in the darkness,
July 24, 2012
“In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace, which he lavished upon us, in all wisdom and insight” (Ephesians 1:7-8). Woke to the sound of a torrential downpour beating on the house. It made me think about the overflowing dimension of God’s lavish grace. It times like this, I am reminded how petty I am at times and fail in act of mercies to people who could benefit from a little kindness. I can’t say it enough how grateful I am that God has gathered my family to the hilltop at Saint John where Christ has unveil himself and has made his glory apparent. I have been dwelling on, “We love because he first loved us” (1 John 4:19), since Sunday’s bible study. I gave a whole new meaning to me as I assisted in the distribution on the individual cups. Lord, because you grant that we love and forgive one another as you lavishly love and forgive us. Amen. After the morning downpour the day stayed dry and the overcast kept it nice an cool. However, by mid afternoon the sun broke out and it didn’t take long for in to be uncomfortable. Hmmm… ant all over the place and Fawn freaking out. I’m surprise they got in the house, because that was never an issue with Ortho-Home Defense. So we placed Raid ant bait inside and pour Spectracise Triazicide Insect Killer around the outside perimeter of the house. Mama ain’t gonna be happy until all them ants completely vanish. Whoo hoo, got the ecopy and posted the brilliant sermon. It was blessing to read it. I can’t wait until the audio is available to download. Lord, grant we abide in you. Amen.
July 23, 2012
Lord, grant that, walking worthily in our vocation, we may seek you in all things. Amen. Things are back to normal at work. It was a breath of fresh air on this hot and humid day to move away from the onslaught of work and sit down on the sofa and enjoy a nice cold glass of iced tea. I even found the time to do 4 x 10s on the elliptical. Fawn and Alex busted out in laughter when I said that 4 baby, I’ll be skinny like you before you know it. I could believe the 100 + heat that hit my face when I opened the front door to take out the garbage and get the mail. The humidity was 46% , I did the back stroke to get to the mailbox.
July 22, 2012
It don’t get any better than full blast worship. Fr Nelson’s sermon was outstanding, a keeper. I just requested an ecopy to post. I don’t get any better than this. Peter sang Panis Angelicus great feeling; it brought tears to my eyes. The entire morning was filled with joy. I was at both Mass the earlier one with my family and the latter as a altar assistant. Both Mass were stunning. Sunday, July 22, a day to remember; I went down in flames. Rob defeated me stern-halma. Despite the lost, I really enjoyed the game because all the moves were well thought out and solid. In the evening we celebrated my mother-in-law, Fawns, Jean and Alex’s birthday. Bob baked a beautiful cake.
July 21, 2012
Thanks be to God though Jesus Christ our Lord. Up early and super rested. So energized a the crack of dawn I did 10 on the elliptical right off the bat before morning mediation and reflection of the wonderful life filled with countless blessings. It’s Alex’s birthday, so I make bacon and eggs. Fawn and I decided to do the river walk in the cool of the morning. That place is outstanding, so beautiful. The downtown area is filled with activities. There were even musicians entertaining. Ahh, beauty found in the sound of classic slowhand, got to relax and spend part of the evening relaxing to a video documentary of Eric Clapton: Music in Review (2012).
July 20, 2012
Just calling it another day and off to bed early because I only got in a few hours of sleep lat night. Parenting is sometimes a hard thing to let go. I stayed up to 4 waiting for my Jennifer to come from a night out the town with her friends. They went out to the midnight opening night of the new Batman movie.
July 19, 2012
O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! (Psalm 8:9). Psalm 8 begins and ends with the same statement of praise, that God's majesty is visible throughout the earth. This prayer beautifully attests declarations of praise by first speaking of God's majesty in his creation and then of the work that God is doing through feeble man. I am at awe every time I look at the Trinity Icon, and remain amazed at the invitational seating and have to wonder, why? I did 4 x 10s, so it was a pretty good day for me. I tried my hand at making teriyaki chicken. It was just OK. Next time I’ll look a recipe and give it a go.
July 18, 2012
O God, in Whom we live and move, and have our being, grant us rain, in due abundance, that, being sufficiently helped with temporal, we may the more confidently seek after eternal gifts. Through Christ, our Lord. Amen. I stepped out in the cool of the morning just to get some fresh air after doing the initial 10 on the elliptical. Whoo hoo, got in 3 sets. I was noticing how brown the grass was because of the worsening drought. As I sat down watching TV with over morning coffee, all over the network news clips of the effect the weather was on the crops was alarming. I am rejoicing in prayers of thanksgiving as i can hear the thunderous roar of God and the sweet sound of rain while I am penning this journal entry. Alex was out this evening with friends playing tennis and Jennifer was at her last work day for the park district as a tennis instructor. So Fawn and I make it a date night out on the town. It was Mexican cuisine at the Front Street Cantina. Good stuff. It is so rare that we get to be alone, because we love being around and doing things with them.
July 17, 2012
O God, who show the light of your truth to those who go astray, so that they may return to the right path, give all who for the faith they profess are accounted Christians the grace to reject whatever is contrary to the name of Christ and to strive after all that does it honor. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. I was well rested and up very early and energized. I did 2 x 10s on the elliptical before breakfast and another 10 just before lunch. Things are normalizing in the work place, so I’m a happy camper. It was strange driving myself up to the GB meeting without Dave. I like the things I was hearing as to how we were moving forward this year at SJ. To me, the parish priest is arguably the noblest of all vocations. He baptizes, marries, anoints the sick and dying, and visits the ill or the imprisoned. He hears and forgives the sins of his people, and celebrates the Eucharist. This just a short list on the many things Our Lord calls him to administer. Dr Genig is a very learned teacher of Christ. So naturally, I was completely surprised to learn our Lord has led him away from serving as a parish priest and will be serving out Lord in a different capacity. My best wishes for him and his family.
July 16, 2012
So what happened? The plan was to cut back and work a little less than 8 and get some on my comp time back a little bit at a time. Sigh… I ended up putting in 8.5 hours. Told short breaks and only ended up doing 3 x 5s at a fast pace. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I read on a Catholic culture website, “In the so-called Bulla Sabbatina John XXII affirmed that wearers of the scapular are soon freed from the flames of purgatory, at least by the Saturday after death. The confirmation of the Bulla Sabbatina was promulgated by the Sacred Congregation of Indulgences, July 4, 1908.”
July 15, 2012
O God, who show the light of your truth to those who go astray, so that they may return to the right path, give all who for the faith they profess are accounted Christians the grace to reject whatever is contrary to the name of Christ and to strive after all that does it honor. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Wow, Every Lord’s day, we have full blast Mass, yet whenever there is a baptism, the feast just somehow more joyful when we welcome someone in the name of the Lord. I saw a visitor from my pervious LCMS parish. There always is story behind why people leave a community and many years in it, I have one of my own. My prayer is that they find a community that will restore the joy of their salvation. Lord, grant us the grace to see and walk in the light of the Lord Jesus. Amen
July 14, 2012
I love weekends. I got a good night sleep and started the day right off the bat on the elliptical and managed to do 3 x 10s. I cut the grass at the cool of the day. Good thing the only grass that need cutting was in the back yard where the sump pump discharges. So it was a piece of cake. Then it was off to good some grocery shopping at Sam’s Club. It’s been an insane work week; I finally had time to cook a decent meal. Sweet, SJ posted the last week’s awesome sermon, so I downloaded it to accommodate the print on the sermon page on this site. I can hardly wait for tomorrow to come about to be showered with our Lord’s gifts. Isaac Edward, Vicar Jacobsen 1st born will be baptized. To you. O Lord, I lift up my soul. Amen.
July 13, 2012
Finally, Friday. The plan was to only work 8 but it turns out to be 10. Good thing I did 10 on the elliptical from the get go. I'm tire and beat up from putting in an outrageous number of hours this week.
July 12, 2012
Great and glorious God, and my Lord Jesus Christ. Enlighten the darkness of my mind. Give me a right fait a firm hope and a perfect charity. Grant that I may know you, Lord in order that I may always and in all things act according to your most holy and perfect will. Amen. Work, work, work, but managed to get in 2 x 10 despite another long day. I already got enough hours in this week to be way into Monday of next week. I intend to just work a normal 8 to tomorrow, regardless of what is pending. Lord only knows how I’m going to be able to get my comp time back. One has to wonder if this is a vocation or worldly means of paying the bills.
July 11, 2012
“And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother” (1 John 4:21). Our current bible study series is on 1st John. I love the breadth with the extreme depth of the bible studies at SJ. Clearly we carry much of the time a self righteous delusion we say we love God with all out heart and soul. The reality is when we sin against our brother, be are affirm our hate for our brother and God. God love others through his people. SO there is no sense in deceiving ourselves that we can love God while not loving our brothers. We are to repent and rejoice in that such sins are forgiven by God’s perfect love. Yet another busy day but I did manage to get in 2 x10s on the elliptical and post the awesome sermon from Sunday. Hmmm… their several week behind on posting the audio on the SJ website. Weedon's Blog has photos of the Holy Evangelist stained glass at the International Center. Yikes, the worthiness of these four particular sacred icons are very questionable. I guess all that matters is that good people at the IC do see beautiful sermon that glorify God and facilitates their sanctification. Lord, grant that we put before all things love of you and love of our neighbors. Amen.
July 10, 2012
Is it Friday yet? Despite the long hours and multiple meetings, I made it a point to stress relieve by doing 4 x 10s on the elliptical and went outside to pull some weeds on my lunch hour. Hmmm… don’t know what to make of episode 193 of the God Whisperers. Perhaps I’m too tire and cranky.
July 9, 2012
“But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear” (1 Peter 3:15). Ask? The world thinks you’re a stupid for being a Christian. Been there done that. But the hope we have is in Christ’s promise in the forgiveness of sins. Woke up with joy in my heart, it Fawn’s birthday! Guess I’ll be racking up a lot of comp time this week with Bob being out all week. I went for a follow up to go cover my meds and all is well. It is hard to believe the technology put in to a car nowadays. The transmission software needed to be reprogrammed. I was so glad that Fawn’s mom took up to dinner, clearly there was no time to cook. O Lord, thank you for suffering death to save us. Because of your love we will be heirs of your eternal heavenly gladness. Amen.
July 8, 2012
O God, who in the abasement of your Son have raised up a fallen world, fill your faithful with holy joy, for on those you have rescued from slavery to sin you bestow eternal gladness. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Nice to step out the door this morning to less than oven like temps. It was awesome to step out the door to weather that was anything but an oven like sauna, beautiful. Every Sunday I am so compelled to pen what a joy it is to partake in the beautiful full blast Mass with my family and community. Interesting, to hear about people are speaking about SJ as being a parish that is like a catholic congregation on steroids, I’ll take that as compliment. Interesting, only in that, there are extremely vast differences between the pieties of congregation within our fellowship. From time to time, I look at what I have penned in the past and realize nothing that I have written comes close to being explained as well as my learned teachers and that I have no skill in rhetoric; so I am resolved in lacking any intention to benefit others, but rather to muse and acquaint my mind to God’s beauty. However, I was wowed by today’s homily and hope to get an ecopy to post along with the audio this week. Now that would certainly be a blessing to someone who would just happen to stumble upon it on my site. That diss about SJ, compelled me to review my writing on the Lutheran Mass. I have to admit, I don’t understand anything less than Full Blast Worship. We celebrated Fawn’s 29th birthday a day early at Maggiano’s. It is fun to eat out. We don’t do that as often in years past. I guess it is kind of a mixed blessing which makes special occasions all that much more special. I’m so glad that my children get along so well. It was a perfect day for Alex and Jennifer to play tennis. We got a Skype call from Fawn sister wishing Fawn happy birthday. The technology for audio visual video streaming over a cell phone is remarkable. The intent was to read about the Bodhisattvacharyavatara this evening; I ended up only slimming though the verses without musing on them in the first 2 chapters out of curiosity. Thank you, O Lord, for this day and for drawing me away from darkness. Amen.
July 7, 2012
I was determined to at least get in 1x 10, so I hopped on the elliptical so as I got downstairs. Wow, out the door by 10 and it was already 100◦F. The good news is that the weather broke and it cool off in the evening. LOL, it’s funny to view the low 80s as being cool. Fawn and I went to the toy store and TJ Max to get Zach some goodies. It’s his 1st birthday and Carl and Sandy is doing it big for him. The food and conversation was excellent and everyone was of good cheer. Hmmm… the transmission of the car started acting up so we headed straight to Fair Oak Ford and left the car there. Good thing Alex was around to pick us up. Jennifer went in to the city on the metro with her friends at the crack of dawn. It was hard letting her go on their own, but the there was 9 of them. Kids from the burbs exploring the city for the first time is nerve racking for parents I think, at least it was for Fawn and me. But hey everyone back safe and they had a good time.
July 6, 2012
I really don’t know why I have to force myself to do 2 x 10s on the elliptical because I actually feel must better physically as well as mentally after I do it. It was so busy and stressful working two submarkets, but I got r’ dun. So as the saying goes, tgif and thanks be to you, O lord, for your mercy. Amen.
July 5, 2012
Amazingly I did 2 x 10s on the elliptical. Bob is on vacation for a week and a half on a Buddhist retreat. He forwarded me the readings they will be covering. It should be an interesting reading this weekend. It was busy busy busy day but I was able to manage all the absolute needed. Any interesting Trinitarian question was asked on the God Whisperers the other day about, if Jesus is God who was he praying to? It’s not easy to explain to a child the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, each with distinct personal attributes but without division of nature, essence or being. Christ our Redeemer, pray for us to Your dear Father. Amen.
July 4, 2012
God of justice, Father of truth, who guide creation in wisdom and goodness to fulfillment in Christ your Son, open our hearts to the truth of his Gospel, that your peace may rule in our hearts and your justice guide our lives. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Lord strengthen and bless America and make our nation a safe place of liberty, justice and mercy for all — born and unborn. Amen. A few of my colleagues did not get their contracts extended and have temporarily moved on to Atlanta to work on other projects. I prayerfully hope they accept my invitation to visit Ascension. Fr Genig has written several noteworthy commentaries on First Things for discussion on the public square. While reflecting on our independence, I noticed in recent years, I see more and more of the Triune God being erased from the public square and discourse in our beloved country. So much of the foundation and mortal standard of our great nation that guarantees our freedom is that of our Beautiful Creator. I dread the direction and possible future of this nation and pray we will continue to praise and give all glory to God from whom all blessings flow. Fawn and I were out the door by 9 to do some last minute grocery shopping for the day. It was already 92◦ F by then. I dropped Fawn off at the Bolingbrook Promenade while Bill and I did lunch at Potbellies. We then just walked around marveling at everything at Outdoor World. Wow, the temp was 103◦ F and was time to headed home and hide from the heat with the AC working OT. We retreated ourselves by frying up and sharing 2 beautiful good size Black Angus rib eye steaks, Caesar salad and stuffing. What a wonderful meal. Fawn, Jennifer and I were good, but I think Alex wished he had a whole steak for himself. That is understandable for a growing young man.
July 3, 2012
I refused heed the warning and ODed on the God Whisperers 192. I thought I was able to handle it. But 2 days of it in a row is too much bombardment for human consumption. Interesting, how their mind works. Is it October yet? Good news, Dr Kleinig will be back state side. Alright, ready for the midweek holiday! Been humming the Irving Berlin’s, God Bless America, all day. How corny is that?
July 1-2, 2012
O God, who through the grace of adoption chose us to be children of light, grant, we pray, that we may not be wrapped in the darkness of error but always be seen to stand in the bright light of truth. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Yesterdays was a busy and full day and I just didn’t feel like starting up the laptoptop. Just like any given Sunday we start it off with Sunday Mass. I just love it when I am privileged to assist at the altar, especially when I get to sit on top near the altar. The view and smell is spectacular. Good for Rob for manning up when asked to assist as usher during the summer months. He’ll be doing it every week for the month of July and August. Fawn spent time with Andrea and I got to do some bonding with Rob. Today was just work, work and more work. Getting all the work we can because of the holiday. So just a late dinner and God Whisperers 191. LOL, those guys are riot and so entertaining. The nostalgic bump music was “swell” and they did get in a little bit of theology. It was an interesting muse on the ECLA. Well it’s off to bed ….
June 30, 2012
Did a little outside work in the cool of the. Yuck, it was no fun clean bird bomb off the garage door. Surprise, surprise, there is a crabapple tree next door. Took the time to clean and defragment the laptop. Maybe it only wishful thinking, but there seems to be a slight improvement. 90 degree weather for so many days isn't funny, but I didn't want to stay cooped up indoors all day so we decide to go to Costco to buy some needed odds and ends. It was too hot to really cook a good meal, so it was just hot dogs for dinner. The Lord is good, it was a great day, perfect way to end another month.
June 29, 2012
“God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns” (Psalm 46:5). Indeed, God is our fortress. Fawn and I went to Edwards Hospital to get her mammogram and ultrasound. Thanks be to God, Fawn’s test results indicates that she continues to improve and that she remains cancer free. Could be all in the mind, but while the testing was going on, I walked around and around in the corridors for an hour effortlessly. The strangest thing, late morning, dark clouds move in along with a thunderous and a heavy down pour. The gloom and doom was so dark that I swapped out the 40 watt incandescent light bulb with a 26 watt mercury one that is equivalent to a 100 watt bulb. I can the booming and heavy down pour now as I am penning the journal entry. Despite starting late, I still had a hard long 11 hour work day. Just doesn’t seem fair to me people have to work like this just. The grim reality is Americans work way too hard for our own good.
June 28, 2012
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” ( Jeremiah 29:11). The plan was to do 4 x10s band 4 x10 it was, good for me. Some time we are able for fill our plan, but God’s plan for us is a perfect plan. Step out briefly several time for what nots and it was a sauna. I think the temp is too cold in the house, but everyone else think it is just fine, so I got vote down from raising the temp on the thermostat.
June 27, 2012
The plan was to do 4 x10s but only managed to do 3 x10s, but that’s still good. Got a small chip on the windshield over the weekend on the highway. It was most likely from a small rock. I was surprise it only cost $75 to repair it on my driveway. The house was nice and cool, so how did one managed pre AC? Made a nice dinner, sausage spinach rigatoni. Good thing I got in 3 x10s.
June 26, 2012
Grant, O Lord, that we may always revere and love your holy name, for you never deprive of your guidance those you set firm on the foundation of your love. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Oh my, talk about getting flooded with work unexpectedly. I ended up eating lunch while in a phone conference meeting. Dinner was nice and simple but delicious. Fawn made a nice salad and all I did was throw a box of country fried steak we got from Sam’s Club in the oven. To make the white gravy, all that needed was to add hot water to the mix. There is nothing special about this dish, except it is a miracle. I made this dish, following a recipe before. It was great but what a mess. The AC guy came out and prep everything of summer. It's in the 80s today but the forcast is for the 9os tomorrow and over 100 on Thursday. We are in for some long hot dog days, normal for this time of year. I relaxed this evening listening the Vicar Jacobsen’s bible study online. It was no surprise to me how good it was. I’ve been to his Thursday night bible studies. It always amazes me to see how much all the vicars grow that come though St John. I started to say… but decide it best left unsaid.
June 25, 2012
“How lovely is your dwelling place, O LORD of hosts! My soul longs, yes, faints for the courts of the LORD; my heart and flesh sing for joy to the living God” (Psalm 84:1-2). Wasting my time breath again, sometimes I wonder why I bother. I was telling a friend about how beautiful St John is and how much more that remains undone. But the conversation went south with how the church waste money when it could be spent on the poor. Then of course I said and then he said followed with the, you know what I mean. Fr Bruzek always mentions the building always wins. Everything teaches, so a beautiful church witness to the incardination. Is is the house of the Lord hollowed with our prayers. Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God of Hosts. How do I know work remains in the building? Every once in a while I would see parishioners act as thought that are not in a special place. Apparently their senses do not reveal the beauty of God surrounding them. Hmmm... wonder why Genig sermons aren't regularly being posted? He he such a learned teacher of Christ. It is a joyful bonus to be able to chime in on his homilies midweek, whenever they are posted.
June 24, 2012
“This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory. And his disciples believed in him” (John 2:11). What a beautiful and joy filled day. It began with morning Mass on the Lord’s day. Hopes and prayers that Jean is feeling better; it was great joy to see that Bob took Adam to worship in her absent. I was installed as Department Head as Adult Discipleship and Fellowship. I missed the initial installation of the 2 year term because of gout. Today was Ashley and Perri Howard’s outdoor wedding at the Morton Arboretum. The reception was at the Crown Plaza Hotel. My, my, my, Fawn and I haven’t danced is quite some time. The lady still got some moves. I suspect she has been dancing with the girls. I try but was never good at it.
June 23, 2012
O God, strength of those who hope in you, graciously hear our pleas, and, since without you mortal frailty can do nothing, grant us
always the help of your grace, that in following your commands we may please you by our resolve and our deeds. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Ahh… Saturdays, a busy day doing absolutely nothing. Not proud of it, but simply got to have one of them every once in a while.
June 22, 2012
Only had time to get in 1 x 10 early in the morning. Hey, the love birds, Andrea and Rob are back. They were visiting the mouse in Florida on the 1st anniversary. The weather there was cooler then it was here in Illinois. But today was a very nice day in the lower 80s. I whipped up a special dinner, BBQ pork with baby bok choy over Cantonese pan fried noodle. Saw a Benedict XIV quote in the margins of this upcoming worship folder and posted it in blogger.
June 21, 2012
“Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world” (1 Peter 5:9). The conversation the day was briefly about grievous sins. Resistance comes from faith. The God Whisperers 190, the Heidelberg Disputation theses 25-28, good stuff. Did 2 x10s. Facianating, selective attention test.
June 20, 2012
O God, strength of those who hope in you, graciously hear our pleas, and, since without you mortal frailty can do nothing, grant us always the help of your grace, that in following your commands we may please you by our resolve and our deeds. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. The work day went very smooth; I got my replacement monitor shipped overnight, just like they promised. It’s really painful to work with a single monitor. Whoo hoo, did 3 x10s. I don’t have a facebook account, but I was invited to look at the newly installed stain glass at my former parish. Hmmm… beautiful, stunning, wonderful are few of the words I wouldn’t use to describe them. Sorry, but disappointing is my initial thought and then … O well. The colored windows at St John are really really funky. The different color glass don't teach a thing. They are left overs from the Wheaton Bible Church. I can’t wait until we get around to moving the stain glass windows from the older building are do new ones. Seems to me the cost to move them over is outrageous. I have to admit moving the Victory Window was a great idea. It will be awesome to start installing the new pipe organ this winter and hopefully completely installed by Easter.
June 19, 2012
The day went by fast. I did 10 on the elliptical the first thing in the morning because I knew if I didn’t do that, it was going to get done. It was work and then a GB meeting at St John. I’m really going to miss the ride up to there and back with Dave. The talks about family life and community are an immense joy.
June 18, 2012
Did 10 on the elliptical. Not much, but it was something. God is good and makes his presence obvious in my life daily. That’s a good thing, like most Christians, just knowing that we are in God’s is presence isn’t a daily communion. We need to acknowledge it by walking daily with the Holy Spirit giving God praise in all we say and do. I was a dinner and a movie night. I made beef with tomatoes over rice. I can’t believe I’m going to admit I love Queen Latifah movies. We watched Joyful Noise. The soundtrack is good as the movie too. How and it not be, with Queen Latifah, Dolly Parton, Keke Palmer and Jeremy Jordan. Funny, all the years I thought the song went, “Don’t walk way Ranee…” But it’s, “Just walk away Ranee...” I’m not sure when Fr Bruzek will be back from vacation, but we prayer is that we will return safely home and well rested.
June 17, 2012
God, strength of those who hope in you, graciously hear our pleas, and, since without you mortal frailty can do nothing, grant us always the help of your grace, that in following your commands we may please you by our resolve and our deeds. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. O well, still another hot day. But the rain did so wonders for the grass. So it was an indoor day, with plenty of completed chores. I would be selfish of me to wish everyday to be father’s day.
June 16, 2012
“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18). The intent was to cut the grass in the cool of the day. So out to the garage by 9 to fire up the lawn mower; I managed only to just do the front because it was already in the lower 80s and humid. I was soaking wet and breathing hard. I rested for an hour and listened to Genig, Holy Trinity Sermon before I went back outside to mow the backyard. Clearly, this is a young man’s game when the weather is like this. What a super great day, Rob and Andrea came to spend the day. We went to Mass and I can’t get over how there is no difference between what it is like on Saturday night and Sunday morning, absolutely stunning. Sounds like it starting to rain. A blessing as it will surely be providing succor to from the relentless heat we have been getting all week. Strange, how the sound of thunder always remind me of the psalms.
June 15, 2012
Grant, we pray, almighty God, that we, who glory in the Heart of your beloved Son and recall the wonders of his love for us, may be made worthy to receive an overflowing measure of grace from that fount of heavenly gifts. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Lord, I believe, help my unbelief. Beautiful day and beautiful music, Mindi Abair and Euge Groove – Just the Two of Us. It was a blessing to receive a phone call from my niece Janet, all is well with her family and Danna is working again and able to provide for the family after nine months of searching.
June 14, 2012
O God, from whom all good things come, grant that we, who call on you in our need, may at your prompting discern what is right, and by your guidance do it. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Fawn is back to her normal cheerful self and tolerant of me and my shortcomings. The doctors warned me to be prepared for the troublesome hot flashes, but I never dreamed how intense they can be. Sweet, to listen to the Sunday bible study again, technology is such a blessing. We are in the green season, ordinary times, a time to learn and grown and live in Eucharistic community where we can joyfully change and be complete. This study of the epistle of 1 John is outstanding, were we as Christians live in truth and love. This always begins with the forgiveness of sins. It was really nice to receive a call from Rob; it’s a joy to have this young man for a son-in-law. He shared with me and we rejoiced the joy of his first year of marriage. It really wasn’t necessary, I see it every time when were all together. Part of the conversation was on our transformation and putting on the new self, since Christ gathered up to the hilltop at SJ. To the truest sense of the word, we have Fr Bruzek and Nelson. Despite the warmth and dignity given to the title Pr, it just doesn’t seem to fit anymore. Father is a more befitting title to the faithfulness and humility in how they guide us God and our neighbors. As an adult, for many years I thought about life as improving and becoming a better person. The reality is, it’s a journey back to Eden, to become human beings, as God intended us to be before the fall. As Father’s Day approaches, I begin to think more about my dad and what a great one he was at that. I really miss my mother and father as well as my stepmother. They were the most kind and loving people one would ever want to meet. Hmmm… I’m fasting tonight for the needed blood work to see how well the meds are working. It has nothing to do fasting according to what God accepts.
June 13, 2012
Got caught up on some much needed sleep. Wow, not a good day. Why is it, when mama anin’t, ain’t nobody happy around here? So is it one of the hot flashes? The loud noise from the street mulcher didn't help the situation either.
June 12, 2012
Fawn and I was out the door by 5:15 this morning and the drive in was very light, literal. LOL very few cars in, but driving in the city and facing the sunrise have it challenges. It was just another outstanding day at Loyola wrapping up the 2-day orientation. It concluded with an awesome Loyola Taste of Chicago style picnic in the East Lawn. The blessing had me raising my eyebrow; it was generic in the truest sense: in the name of the One True God? Perhaps, I may be over critical of other people’s wording. Wow, three years ago today was my first entry. Prayers that everything I say and do brings glory to God.
June 11, 2012
It was a full, beautiful and edifying day. It was Incoming Freshman Orientation at Loyola. Fawn, Jennifer and I were out of the house by 6:15 to go in the city. The drive in was crazy. How people drive in the city daily for work in that rush is beyond me. But once past the Loop on Lake Shore Drive, the traffic was so light the view spectacular. Spending the day with the Jesuit has left me a lot to muse about. There is a lot to admire while others things still need to be sorted out. I utterly enjoyed my conversation with Fr Dorsey.
June 10, 2012
Lord, grant we be at awe and hold in the highest regard the sacred mysteries of your Body and Blood that we may always experience in ourselves the fruits of your redemption. Amen. What a blessed day. I was at both Mass this morning, the early service in the worshipping in the pews and at the late service as altar assistant. God is good; it is sheer joy to be in community like Saint John. The Lord invites us to feast upon his love in the Holy Eucharistic banquet and in gratitude we lay aside our self concerns to concern ourselves with the needs of our neighbor. Congratulations to David and Jeni Miller for the life of the first born. I was able to hear the name of the child. Holy Shmoly, while doing an internet search, Fawn found something disturbing. Prayers for all Christians to be morally pure and that he will wear the armor of God so that he will not fall into sexual temptation.
June 9, 2012
“This is the LORD's doing; it is marvelous in our eyes” (Psalm 118:23). Twenty-eight years ago today, I said, “I do” to the love of my life and found favor with God. I went to bed so early yesterday that I found myself wide awake and full of energy, so I did 10 on the elliptical. Normally I eat cold cereal in the morning, some I done and love since childhood. But Fawn wanted oatmeal, so oatmeal it was. We were out the door before 9 to do errands. First stop was to buy a pair of badly need sneakers, then to the mall. Fawn went to a few shops, while I mall walked. That was a lot more pleasant than doing the elliptical. I was thinking about a romantic dinner, but Fawn’s mom called and wanted to go out for dinner. So it was dinner for three. A little weird, but it was nice. Lord, grant us many more years together in the light of your love. Bless us, O Lord, and keep, let you face shine upon us and give us peace. Amen.
June 8, 2012
“pissing on the wall” LOL, only on the God Whisperers. I treated myself to an hour, episode 189, after dinner and now I’m off bed …
June 7, 2012
Sweet, Thursday night over at the vicar, it was the last men’s bible study. Wow, the time really flew by. It was a little at 10 when I left, and I was the first to leave. So I’d say the fellowship hanging with the guys on the pouch went well. It’s last so ….
June 6, 2012
The phone rang and we got the good news; whoo hoo, Bob and Jean are engaged! How awesome is that? I've been wanting to share that for days now. We also share our thoughts about our joy of life under the cross and being healed by by his wounds. I was determined to be honest with myself and made the time to get in another 10, so god for me, it was a 3 x 10 day on the elliptical!
June 5, 2012
“And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him” (Colossians 3:17). Today I put on the new self and celebrated another year of life and mercy. Fawn, Jennifer I went out for lunch. Nothing fancy, just the $7.99 early bird special at the Cattlemen in Bolingbrook. I think the food there is really good and reasonably priced. Alex couldn’t make it; he had a meeting so we got him a take out. It was a blessing to get well wishes from my sister Nancy and from Andrea and Rob. I listened to Sunday’s sermon again on line. All the sermons are so richly filled with the Holy Spirit. Thanks be to God for his mercies which endures forever. Hmmm… still only making the time for 2 x 10s. I shared the joy in my heart with Fawn who now also rejoices. I sure I'll be able to post this blessing tomorrow.
June 4, 2012
I’m bursting with joy, but am not able to pen it just yet. Perhaps in a day or so, I’ll be able to. Did 2 x 10s. So that’s good. I love the outreach plans for the 4th of July float, hoping we get some hot dogs and maybe some food for fellowship afterwards. Thanks be to God for Naphcon A eye drops or I would be ripping my itchy eyes out of the socket. A colleague that was on my project didn’t get his contract extended in January is back but on a different project, but he had to move to Atlanta to get the contact. Seems move jobs are moving to either Atlanta GA or Plano TX. Tomorrow is another one of those seemingly heartless days where no one knows who is actually at risk, only of possible impact; prayers for Carol for continued employment.
June 3, 2012
God our Father, who by sending into the world the Word of truth and the Spirit of sanctification made known to the human race your wondrous mystery, grant us, we pray, that in profession the true faith, we may acknowledge the Trinity of eternal glory and adore your Unity, powerful in majesty. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. I had be privilege to be one of the altar assistance during the Solemnity of the Most Holy Trinity. First be reconciled to your brother and sister… I think this parish finally get it. The voter’s meeting was outstanding, not bad for a room full of sinners. The Didache reflect scripture in encouraging the Christian community to "come together on the Lord’s day, having first confessed your sins so that your sacrifice may be pure. Anyone who has a quarrel with his fellow should not gather with you until he has been reconciled, lest your sacrifice be profaned." I think this is a good teaching; most are not willing to say publicly that we are so much better off that certain parishioners have left, but I find it so much peaceful, was people play nice. It was a beautiful night for baseball. Fawn and made it an evening at Benedictine College to watch our nephew, Jean oldest son Airic, play. It’s the first time; I got to see this gifted young man pitch. Strange, how certain things like the fallout of sin gets in the way of things.
June 2, 2012
It’s been several weeks, but I finally got the chance to view, Things Your Lutheran Pastor Totally Loves: Hearing Complaints from "Some People" (Episode 5). For some reason, it reminded me of the old joke about the young priest who entered a monastery. In his indoctrination, the head monk said that they were sworn to total silence. However, every ten years, they were permitted to speak two words. After 10 long years of total silence, the head monk indicated it was time for him to speak his two words. The monk said, “Bed hard!” And then he resumed his long years of silent study and work. Another 10 years passed and the head monk again indicated it was time for him to speak his two words. The monk said, “Food bad!” And then he resumed his longs years of silent study and work. Another 10 years passed and the head monk again indicated it was time for him to speak his two words. The monk said, “I quit!” The head monk shook his head and said, “I knew this was coming. You’ve done nothing but complain for the past 30 years!” Sigh… the birds seem to like to do their business on the cars in my driveway last night or early morning. No fun cleaning the cars. But I did enjoy being out in the gorgeous sun filled mild spring weather. I love it when it’s in the lower 70s. Totally unexpected, sweet corn on the cob for lunch, good stuff.
June 1, 2012
Nothing special about the day. How fitting it is to say Tempus per annum. It was dinner and a movie. Fawn made everyone favorite, spaghetti. I can’t rave enough about her meat sauce. Fawn, Jennifer and I sat and watched Mission Impossible-Ghost Protocol. Did 2 x 10s again, hoping to make more time and improve. Lord, I humbly beseech you grant special grace to our family. Amen.
May 31, 2012
“Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me” (Philippians 4:11-13). It was helpful to run 2 x10s on the elliptical. So ends another month and is the last day for four of my colleagues. This economy is so bad, for so many years worker have been continually concern about uncertainty being let go. The last time I was unemployed, it was for 6 months. During that time, I quickly learn the difference between wants and needs. On family is comforted by, “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:19). Lord, thank you for the gift of sharing or talents. You wanted us to come to you for support. We are worn with our inabilities. Calm our worries, O Lord, as our financial responsibilities mount in this poor economy. Provide for the unemployed, under employed and are at risk, especially for our community; Bill, Carol W, Ken, Terry, Patrick Timothy, John, Carol H, William, Bruce, Karin and myself. All belongs to you, make us faithful stewards. Help us to grow that we be worthy for your greater glory. Amen.
May 30, 2012
“My mouth is filled with your praise, and with your glory all the day” (Psalm 71:8). God’s words encourages us praise him wholeheartedly, in thought, words and deeds. It was an awesome cloudless and beautiful day, so the doors and windows were wide open. Nice working on such a peaceful setting, I even managed to get in 2 x 10s on the elliptical. Why do we do we tend to dwell on our misfortunes, wallow in self pity and despair, rather than to rejoice with gratitude, in the miracle of life filled with gracious gifts? It makes a huge difference if the Lord is our Shepherd. His light takes away the darkness and makes it possible for us to find peaceful rest and hope. Ahh, episode 188, of the God Whisperers, I can always count on a great listen from these two witty learned teachers of Christ.
May 29, 2012
“What gain has the worker from his toil? I have seen the business that God has given to the children of man to be busy with. He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live; also that everyone should eat and drink and take pleasure in all his toil—this is God's gift to man. I perceived that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. God has done it, so that people fear before him. That which is, already has been; that which is to be, already has been; and God seeks what has been driven away” (Ecclesiastes 3:9-15). I spent my lunch hour trimming back the hedge and pumping up the bicycles. Wonder why Jennifer decided to ride it to the library? My muscles was a little sore so I only did 3 x 10s on the elliptical. I don't get it,Larry’s World, more times than not my world is full of joy and beauty. When we do our utmost not to touch evil and strive to touch holy things, truth and goodness abounds. Wow, in less than 2 weeks, I would have penned 3 full years of sharing my life with family and friends and whoever else stumbles across this journal. It really is that simple. It is God gift to us, to rejoice and do good in our lives and to eat and drink and to enjoy the fruits of our labor. So what is this worldly purpose driven life? Seem to me Coram Deo is about being happy with the God given task of living the life of obedience, trusting him, and loving our neighbors, because Jesus does the verb. God does everything in his own time and we can’t change it. O Holy Spirit, help us to understand your ways, keep us from being delusional and realize that our heartbeats are numbered. Grant us open hearts to joyfully live and serve with compassion and to share your love on our journey back to Eden. Amen.
May 28, 2012
The result of thinking it was lame to record exercising on this journal eventually resulted in me completely stopped doing it. So I back to doing it again, 3 x 12s, and yes it does make me feel better and energized. Sweet, Genig Sermon. Another great weekend coming to an end …
May 27, 2012
“Almighty ever-living God, who willed the Paschal Mystery to be encompassed as a sign in fifty days, grant that from out of the scattered nations the confusion of many tongues may be gathered by heavenly grace into one great confession of your name. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.” I never get tire of the epistle reading from Acts 2. It is amazing how the Holy Spirit pieced the hearts of the people who heard St Peter’s first pentecostal sermon. Bible study was very interesting. It was led by the Lutheran Bible Translators. With the help of the Holy Spirit, their work can be a noble one. I have had seen enough bad versions of the Bible in English that would make one’s toes curl due to the motives, methods and abilities of the translators. I took Spanish in high school, but what I learned has been reduced to only a few phrases. Everyone else in my family is multilingual, Fawn can speak Cantonese and the kids are fluent in reading and writing Spanish. But as Christians, we are given the gift of a common language all mankind can understand. The language of Christ’s love instilled in us by the Holy Spirit by which we can speak to all nations. Come, Holy Spirit, reveal to us the beautiful mysteries of heavenly things. Teach us to love them above and beyond all the passing joys and satisfactions of this world. Amen. The entire afternoon was spent celebrating Kevin’s college graduation. My sister Nancy and her husband really know how to kill the fat cow and throw a party. I had a great time catching up with most the family. One of my favor hymns we sang during Mass is, “We Praise you and Acknowledge You, O God”. I simply have to cut and paste it here and will end the days devotion mediating on, “1 We praise You and acknowledge You, O God, to be the Lord, The Father everlasting, by all the earth adored. To You all angel powers cry aloud, the heavens sing, The cherubim and seraphim their praises to You bring:“O holy, holy, holy Lord God of Sabaoth; Your majesty and glory fill the heavens and the earth!” 2 The band of the apostles in glory sing Your praise; The fellowship of prophets their deathless voices raise. The martyrs of Your kingdom, a great and noble throng, Sing with the holy Church throughout all the world this song:“O all-majestic Father, Your true and only Son, And Holy Spirit, Comforter—forever Three in One!” 3 You, Christ, are King of glory, the everlasting Son, Yet You, with boundless love, sought to rescue ev’ryone: You laid aside Your glory, were born of virgin’s womb, Were crucified for us and were placed into a tomb; Then by Your resurrection You won for us reprieve — You opened heaven’s kingdom to all who would believe. 4 You sit in splendid glory, enthroned at God’s right hand, Upholding earth and heaven by forces You command. We know that You will come as our Judge that final day, So help Your servants You have redeemed by blood, we pray; May we with saints be numbered where praises never end, In glory everlasting. Amen, O Lord, amen!"
May 26, 2012
“As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God” (Psalm 42:1). Interesting, it’s been a while, I can’t remember the last time I slept I was only outside briefly to get rid of some weeds around the bushes. It was pretty hot and muggy, so I spend the rest of the morning tidying my office area and deleting old email while listening to sacred music on Lutheran Public Radio. Wow, foolish me not to have this streaming in the background more often. Several emails were truly keepers. I was stuck by Jean’s appreciation of Fawn and me for supporting her and the Catechumens. But the pleasure was all ours to be surrounded by those who thirst. Pr Bruzek’s classes are timeless and filled with precious gems. As he continues to grow, so do we. I have a SJ folder that is a treasure chest for keeping blessings like these. Psalms 42 rang in my heart on this beautiful day full of grace. Spending the entire day at home and simply being at awe at the relationship the kids have with their mother. It led me to muse more on the Blessed Virgin, Mother of God. Hail Mary full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus Christ. Amen. Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner. Amen.
May 25, 2012
"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable to you, O Lord" (Psalm 19:14). I’m so glad its Friday and the beginning of a 3 day weekend and chance to relax and get a little rest. I was so tire yesterday; I napped a few hours and ended up missing bible study with the vicar. Our nation will celebrate Memorial Day and commemorating the men and women who have died while in military service to the United States. Personally, I do not have immediate family members or friends who have died in the line of duty. My father Hawk did serve during WWII and my brother Dan served in the Army. This Memorial Day is different; SPC Sam Watts, a member of our parish was killed recently by a suicide bomber in Afghanistan. Thanks be to God for all the men and women who have served to protect our freedoms as Americans. There are so many who are serving right now and who are in harm’s way so that we may be free. We cannot take their service for granted and must never forget them and keep them and their families in our prayers. I was stuck by and posted on Larry Luder Blog St Basil the Great wisdom on our injustices. I’m always thrilled when Pentecost comes about. It is though the Holy Spirit the Church brings the light of Christ to the world by her teaching. O Heavenly King, the Comforter, the Spirit of Truth; who art in all places, and fillest all things; Treasury of good things and giver of life: come and abide in us, and cleanse us from every impurity, and save our souls, O Good One. Amen.
May 24, 2012
Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life, and we have believed, and have come to know, that you are the Holy One of God” (John 6:68-69). I really enjoy looking at beautiful art, especially Christian Art. I was blessed with Wohlrab’s “Walk No More”. It was kind of him to share it with me as well as offering kind words of encouragement. It made my day, in the days devotional John 6, the words of eternal life. It is amazing the grumbling that sometimes come about in the church. And people turn away from the hard teachings of Jesus which offends them and they walk away. That just boggles my mind that Jesus chose the twelve apostles and knew one of them was the devil. Talk about wheat and tares. In knowing Jesus, our faith become “Christocentric” and place Jesus at the center we believe and do. Episode 187 of the God Whisperers, I can’t say enough good things about this in their own words disturbing but compelling show. They do an awesome job with the Heidelberg Disputation.
May 23, 2012
It was such a beautiful and peaceful day. It started with gem found on Weedon’s Blog: In Col. 3:16-17 [St. Paul] says that through His Word, Christ actually moves and prompts us to teach each other with Spirit-inspired, Spirit-filled psalms and hymns and songs and to give thanks to God the Father together with Him. Thus, the word of Christ which dwells in the congregation produces its song, even as it is the content of that song. -- Dr. John Kleinig, Singing with Grace in our Hearts, Teach Me Thy Way, O Lord, p. 107. I just can’t wait until the autumn when this most learned teacher of Christ blesses our congregation with a visit. It is really interesting how Lectio Divina blesses the holy reading of the epistle. “Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him” (Colossians 3:16-17). This short Epistle is a challenges us to devote their lives to Christ and to one another. We indeed are our brother’s keeper. Colossians 3, plays a big part in my family, as we seek the things that are above. People don't know how to be a family anymore and that spills into the the body of Christ? I don't know about that. Could be ... Albeit, I don’t sing very well, I love reflecting on God’s grace though the singing the pslams and hymns. Contemplating upon God’s grace fills each day in thankfulness as we daily put on the new self. I really wish I could be a writer and able to pen the joy in my joy in my thankful heart. Perhaps when I retire. I take some writing classes to improve my stream of conscience writing. Ending the day with a Genig video sermon …
May 22, 2012
"If you are insulted for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you" (1 Peter 4:14). A friend, yes we still call each other friends, told me he remained baffled an intelligent man like myself cling to a stone age doctrine of faith. We have no common ground to reason together. He doesn’t believe in the OT and the inerrancy of the bible. “For whatever was written in former days was written for our instruction, that through endurance and through the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope” (Romans 15:4). Isaiah 1 and Hosea 4 speak clearly about our wickedness and unfaithfulness. It isn’t a good feeling and breaks my heart to see Christianity so fragment. Days like today make the color purple seem more appropriate on Reformation Day.
May 21, 2012
I took a little time to have some fun with Naming TV Show Theme Songs. Thanks be to God for the Dollar store, Fawn and I had fun putting up graduation banners to surprise Jennifer. It was a beautiful night for the high school commencement and the firework display was spectacular. I’m so proud of her achievements. She was received, Excellence in Education Recipients, National Honor Society, High Honors (7 semesters), and Member of National Foreign Language Honor Society. How people get that smart is beyond me. Andrea and Rob drove down to see the commencement. That really lit a smile on Jennifer’s face. I feel so good and rejoice in how the Lord has blessed us.
May 20, 2012
Gladden us with holy joys, almighty God, and make us rejoice with devout thanksgiving, for the Ascension of Christ your Son is our exaltation, and, where the Head has gone before in glory, the Body is called to follow in hope. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Thanks be to God for the beautiful Mass this morning and for the standing room only bible study. It was a pleasant surprise to see, Rev Wietfeldt and Jenna back for a visit. The continued the study on 1 John 1.It is so amazing how much we can learn from just 10 verses. Living our lives together as a family start with fellowship and ends with joy. We all expect everyone to play in the light, that is why sin is the church is particularly so destructive. We are to let the love of God be perfected in us so that we become perfect as the Father in heaven is perfect. Today was a perfect day. The kids were out with their friends so Fawn and I made it a date night. The first is quite a while. We even got to see a rainbow. The reality is every day is a perfect day if we would just rejoice in the day the Lord has made. The informational meeting for the upcoming voter’s meeting was bright. We are in the black and have a healthy reserve. How awesome is that! I’ll be the first to admit that I was wrong; the new building and the way we worship is a life changer. Everyone now at Saint John is here because they want to be and there are no distractions anymore.
May 19, 2012
He is Risen, Alleluia! I was struck by a poem written by Lynda Frederick, on bullying. She wrote, “that little girl who came to school with the clothes she wore the day before instead of asking why.. you picked on her, the little girl who had to walk to school while others rode the bus instead of asking why.. you picked on her, the little girl who had bruises and was dirty instead of asking why. you picked on her, the little girl who was always crying instead of asking why.. you picked on her”. The article concluded with a powerful message of forgiveness. She said to old classmates, “Christ forgave me…and I forgive you.” All of us are sinners and have sinned in ways that that have left a guilty scars upon our hearts. We confess our sins to God and repent of them. Upon receiving absolution, we are to forgive ourselves and walk in the fullness of Christ. The great deceiver loves to tell us we haven’t changed and the blood of Christ doesn’t set us free form the bondage of sin. This is the last week of celebrating the joy Easter season, where the Risen Christ has freed our soul from the prison, Alleluia! Give thanks to his Holy Name. At times I say things that are sinful, people sometimes disagree and would use human reasoning to say it is not a sin. I can’t reason with them when some Christians do not believe in the inerrancy of the bible. Yet with the same breath say that I was judging them. Often times pointing to, “Judge not, that you be not judged” (Matthew 7:1 ). This is used out of context. We are all sinners. “Judge not, that you be not judged”, has to do with condemning someone on moral grounds and passing judgment on them. And then to throw the Jesus said verse, “Let he who is without sin, cast the first stone.” No pun intended. It drives me crazy. Who is casting stones? First off, to caution one about a particular sin and warn where the sin will to, is not judging and goes against the work of spiritual mercy the commands Christians to admonish the sinner. St James said, “My brothers, if anyone among you wanders from the truth and someone brings him back, let him know that whoever brings back a sinner from his wandering will save his soul from death and will cover a multitude of sins” (James 5:19-20). There is a big difference judging people and judging sinful acts. It’s the duty of parents to teach their children to distinguish between what is right from wrong, and to stay way and not to touch evil. The Decalogue, the 10 words, can be viewed as either law or as gospel. I see the 10 words as loving fatherly precepts to his children and point them to grace. It was unbelievably, in the lower 90s, like a day in a sauna. I was good to see Andrea. She came down and went with Fawn and Jennifer to Ashley's wedding shower.
May 18, 2012
“This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it” (Psalm 118:24). Thank you Lord, for the many blessings you give me in this life. Amen. My day begins in the beauty of morning with the sign of the cross, in remembrance of the name that was placed on my forehead and in morning prayer. Ahh, then to gaze at my beautiful wife of 28 years. Together, as icons of the church, we keep get other. Outside of forgiveness and for an increase portion of wisdom, what else can I ask for, for myself? I drove Fawn for her physical therapy. Then it was business as usual with work. It was so good to get out on this drop dead gorgeous day. My contracting firm took us out to lunch at Famous Dave at the Promenade. There was more bloodletting; fortunately I was not on this month’s list. So I’m good for at least till the End of June. Prayers for the unemployed, underemployed and for those of us at risk. Lord, you said for the weary to turn to you for support. We are worn by our own inabilities to find continuous work. Calm our worries and strengthen our resolve. Amen. From my writing, I can see that my parish life has my family and I on the correct path back to Eden. I have been rejoicing in the Liturgical enactment of the Christ that is in me which permeates my daily life. The thank God for other pastors at St John for their good liturgical preparedness. The Mass makes incredible demands on us and challenges us to lose our life in order to find it, and to walk with Christ through the mystery of His death and resurrection. I know I’m not like most people, and perhaps quite judgmental. But I love full blast worship which swallows me up into Coram deo. Anything less is living a half hearted truncated life outside the fullness of what is intended for us. Wow what a night capper, this evening was very special, I read, The Sacrementality of the Word: Through the Lens of the Annunciation of Mary. “to grant to those who mourn in Zion—to give them a beautiful headdress instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the garment of praise instead of a faint spirit; that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he may be glorified” (Isaiah 61:3). At times, sins in words and deeds come about, in a church voter’s meetings and in the local body of Christ. There is no need to for details. Lord, forgive us and heal any hurts your pastors and family has suffered because of us. Grant Pr Bruzek, Nelson and Genig the joy to serve you in their call with gladness each day and selflessly encourage the faithful to worship you in truth and with a joyful spirit. Amen.
May 17, 2012
“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit. (2 Corinthians 3:18).Alright! All caught up at work and now have time to be still in the Lord and to soak in his glory. Jennifer is pretty chirpy, just one more day of school. I was blessed by an old most excellent Issues Etc podcast of Mary the Mother of God. Bible study with vicar Jacobsen hanging with the guys is so relaxing and rejuvenating, God is good. I don’t impress easily, but Adam’s detail study on, The History of the 1st Council of Nicea, which leads to the beginning of the Athanasian Creed, was indeed impressive. This creed was written to uphold the biblical teaching concerning the Holy Trinity. It contains the essence of the first four Church Councils. Lord, thank you for this day. Amen.
May 16, 2012
Grant, we pray, O Lord, that, as we celebrate in mystery the solemnities of your Son's Resurrection, so, too, we may be worthy to rejoice at his coming with all the Saints. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Hmmm… so what does one pen about another long day at work? Hmm… how about a, I didn’t know that. The archangel Gabriel, the announcer, is the patron saint of telecommunication! And of course the how can I not mention episode 186 of The God Whisperers . Hilarious, it’s a great show; you got to love these 2 guys. They made several interesting statement about music in corporate worship. I pinned a comment about a once upon a time …. never mind, it’s all in the past. Sunday bible study is posted. It was a great replay.
May 15, 2012
I don’t really like to talk about work, but it has been so crazy busy that all my time is consumed with it. I never thought I’d be saying going to a governing board meaning was somewhat of a welcome relief from the workday stress. Dave’s right, Sunday’s brilliant sermon already posted. Viva vox Jesu, the living voice of Jesus, When the Word is proclaimed from the pulpit at St John, it is Christ who is heard. I’m listening to it as I am penning this journal entry. I love riding to them with Dave. Once a month on the ride there and back, we get to catch up with what is going on with our family life. Somehow the topic of stained glass windows came up. I miss the big beautiful window he designed at our former parish. The tradition of filling the windows of a church with stained glass has been a tradition for many centuries. The color of the light give emphasis to the beauty and brilliance of the Gospel's own Light. Pr Bruzek is correct in saying that everything teaches. Much like icons, its unassuming beginnings taught the stories of the bible in a world in which most people were illiterate. Today stained glass and icons still serves to focus one's thought upon the gospel and aids prayerful meditations. Alright, hooked up with Val and she agrees we should do another small group get together. Ted’s a good man, helping his wife Sandi. There you go, talk about married couples as Icons in the church. According to your will, O Lord, grant healing to all who are sick, especially Fawn, Sandi, Alan. Amen.
May 14, 2012
“Therefore, brothers, be all the more diligent to confirm your calling and election, for if you practice these qualities you will never fall” (2 Peter 1:10). Where did the day go? It was a super busy day at work. Everything was coming in all at once and the day just came and gone. Interesting how our vocation and serving our neighbors within it is. Because Christ loved us first and has poured his love into the chalice, we as faithful Christians, are set free to love those in need.
May 13, 2012
"Ignorance of Scripture is ignorance of Christ." -- St. Jerome, A.D. 340-420. Happy Mother’s Day to Fawn the wonderful mother of my children, Andrea, Alex and Jennifer. The morning Mass was magnificent. It was joy serving as an altar assistant sitting next to James Yonker, his singing is pretty darn good. Interesting, Sunday Adult Bible Study attendance is around 200 every week and people don’t want to take a summer break! We move away from the edifying study of the interior of church, where the building always win and everything teaches to, A Happy Read Though the Epistles of St John. The Genig intro on Lectio Divina – Holy reading was very good and noteworthy. Lecto: Read the text slowly, prayerfully aloud – and listen to the voice, the sound of the word. Meditatio: reflect on the text, asking what strikes you, what the implications are, how they work practically in life – read again and again, letting them sink in. Oratio: pray the text – what does Jesus say in the text, give in the text, and bid you ask in the text? Contemplatio: quietly sit in the presence of the Word, through the words, considering, contemplating, and rejoicing in his goodness. So we begin with 1 John 1. Lord, you have given to us your Word to shine on our path: grant that we may so meditate on that Word and follow its teaching that we may find it in the light that shows more and more until the perfect day.
May 12, 2012
Strive to enter through the narrow door. For many, I tell you, will seek to enter and will not be able" (Luke 13:24). I know many people who profess faith in Jesus Christ. But this Jesus they profess, don’t seem to be same Jesus of the Bible: the inerrant word of God. We see in Luke 13, that Jesus taught his followers about the narrow door on the cross when someone asked him, “Lord, will those who are saved be few?” Salvation is open for all, but many who expect to receive it will not. For many, all they know is Jesus loves me, for the bible tells me so. The Jesus they know is a figment of their imagination and ignore condemnation that consequently, “there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth” among those who are barred from heaven. Was indoors most of the day, doing things around the house, until evening when, lol, we went to the, House of Emperor, again to take Fawn mother out for dinner. For some unknown reason, that is the only place she will eat at. We were joined with her sister Jean, Bob and Adam, and her brother Henry and girlfriend Heather. Ahh, Andrea and Rob made in, sweet.
May 11, 2012
“Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh” (Genesis 2:24). People are talking about Obama’s sex-sex marriage endorsement. People can do whatever they want. Married couples, one man and one woman, are Icons of the church. They are not merely bound to one another with a vow of faithfulness, but by a sacramental union sealed in the covenant before God. Our Christian fidelity only comes about by reverence for God and love for his good ordinances. Not much of a dinner, McDonald’s hamburgers and French fries off the dollar menu. We went to Naperville Central Talent Show. Jennifer played the guitar and sang with a friend. I enjoyed their performance and the show as much as I did last year. It was like a date night! I enjoyed listening to the encore Bible Study on-line from last Sunday. I never get tired listening Pr Bruzek. I’m always astonished by the oracles of God he unveils. Another learned teacher is Pr Genig, I was bless by his sermon. Holy God, Creator of all, the risen Christ taught us from the scriptures of His death, resurrection, and ascension into Your glorious presence. May the living Lord breathe on us His peace, that our eyes may be opened to recognize Him in the breaking of the bread and to follow wherever He leads, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, world without end. Amen.
May 10, 2012
Grant us, Lord, we pray, that, being rightly conformed to the paschal mysteries, what we celebrate in joy may protect and save us with perpetual power. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen. The Eucharist is a mystery to be lived. The paschal mystery is at the heart of the Liturgy. It is ashamed that so many LCMS pastors fail to see this. We usually think of the season Easter as the paschal mystery in celebrating Jesus’ death and resurrection. But to fully understand the paschal mystery we need to look at Christ’s entire from his humble incardination always doing the Father’s will. The liturgy is where we taste and see Jesus, the obedient and selfless Christ and are rightly conformed and made holy and pleasing by the nourishment of heavenly food. In living a Eucharistic life, we can’t just do nothing. Good works are necessary for salvation. We are called follow Christ and on the way back to Eden, we are to serve our neighbors. In coram deo, we live out our sorrows and joy as well as our weaknesses and grace.
May 9, 2012
“His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence, by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire” (2 Peter 1:3,4). As partakers of the divine nature, I’m still reflecting on about what Pr Nelson said about how we are drawn into the gospel story and it doesn’t end unless we end it. Best to opt to become part of his glory by honoring God in everything we say and do. Lord grant that we write a good epitaph for our own life to the glory of your holy name each and every day. Amen. Download Sunday's sermon to the sermon site and listened to it again. "Wisdom isn't cheap, and we pay for it with pain."
May 8, 2012
“The Pharisees came and began to argue with him, seeking from him a sign from heaven to test him. And he sighed deeply in his spirit and said, “Why does this generation seek a sign? Truly, I say to you, no sign will be given to this generation.” And he left them, got into the boat again, and went to the other side” (Mark 8:11-13). The Pharisees demand a sign. It doesn’t surprise me and knew it was only a matter of time that another church sign would catch my eye and raise my eyebrow. On the way home from worship on Sunday I saw a church sign that had a fast food logo on it. Forbes dubs the fast food chain, The Cult of Chick-fil-A. WOW, I had a great time watching the Final Live performance of The Voice on-line. Given a stage, they are all so, so good. I love soul music so naturally in was into, I’m a Soul Man. I also like the harmony of the Beatle song, Yesterday. Talk about “back in the day.” In the evening I watch the Finale, the show was the bomb. They bought back the live show contestants to share the stage. For me it‘s the rocker, Juliet Simms hands down, but congrats to Jermaine Paul, he is the VOICE, and exclaimed, “Nobody but Jesus!”
May 7, 2012
This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it! I am grateful for the day despite the gloomy sky and intermitting rain. Fawn and I went out to dinner with Soo, Eddy and Fawn’s mom. It doesn’t surprise me they have been eating at the House of Emperor the last 4 days, it’s the only restaurant Fawn’s mom will seems to enjoy eating at. The food is very good there, but I like a mix it up. I rejoice that everything is going well with them. This past year at St John has been wonderful. There is so much peace now similar the early New Testament church in their special koinonia fellowship, the Eucharist. I would be surprised if a visitor wasn’t greeted with kindness. The Christ in us offers everyone forgiveness, not accusations and finger pointing. St John is a place where people can find peace without the fear of being ostracized. We haven’t always been this way; we have grown as congregation in recent years. Our hospitality stem from Matthew 25 where Jesus said, “you did it to me.”
May 6, 2012
Almighty ever-living God, constantly accomplish the Paschal Mystery within us, that those you were pleased to make new in Holy Baptism may, under your protective care, bear much fruit and come to the joys of life eternal. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Ahh, the baptism of Ashlyn Marie. One thing that remains a constant blessing is the Liturgy. I’ve asked for and received an ecopy of today’s outstanding gospel sermon posted it in Sermons. I hope to include the audio once that becomes available on our parish site. There was quite a bit of Latin in the Mass. Once upon a time as a child, I was opposed to it. But with the English printed beside it in the worship folder, it becomes quite beautiful and now see worship as timeless. One stood out: Panis Angelicus, Panis angelicus fit panis hominum; Dat panis coelicus figuris terminum: O res mirabilis! Manducat Dominum Pauper, servus et humilis – The bread of angels become the bread of man; the bread of heaven is given a bounded form. O wonderous thing! The poor, the slave and the humble man feed on their lord. Today’s gospel text according to St John, the fifteeth chapter, “I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit. Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in me he is thrown away like a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned. If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be my disciples.” were words of comfort and encouragement that Jesus spoke to his apostles on Holy Thursday. I stood and heard the same consoling and encouraging words needed to preserver on the journey back to Eden. Living a truly life following Christ is never easy. Jesus warns us to abide in him if we are to bear fruit worthy of heaven. The alternative ain’t pretty. But we have to remember, it is the context that Christ is always for us and never against us. Christ has promise to abide in us if we abide in him and will be healthy branches of his vine in the world. I was struck by, “It is not sufficient to forgive others: we must forgive them with humility and compassion. If we forgive them without humility, our forgiveness is a mockery: it presupposes that we are better than they” Thomas Merton, No Man is an Island, p 214. Strange how people views change of time. I once thought it was funky, and it seemed like people in general didn’t go to church to worship, but to be entertained and it was a social outing. I now leave that alone and don’t touch that. For me there is a joy when we gather around the eucharist and socialize and build each other up. I am filled with joy to be in my community and see my friends and there is a void when some are not make it to celebrate the Mass and receive the gifts our Lord gives us. Oh wow, I haven’t it seen it rain this hard in a while. Glad it was only a brief downpour during the afternoon, but the thunderous voice of God is back along with the heavy rain. Andrea and Rob came in late last night and spent the day. I found out something about Rob and my relationship I did not know. But that is in the past and I am glad things are good with us. It wasn’t so with me and my father-in-law and I wish it could have been different and just bearing and tolerating people isn’t pleasant. But I guess that goes both ways.
May 5, 2012
O God, Author of the world‘s joy, Bearer of the world‘s pain; At the heart of all our trouble and sorrow let unconquerable gladness dwell; through our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Amen. I woke this morning filled with joy and Easter gladness and made a classic breakfast of sausage links, eggs, hash browns and croissants. Then I logged to read my email and the update on Sam Watts condition. It saddens me and yet I thank God for these young brave men and women who keep us safe. All of the recent ongoings at Saint John has given me a deeper insight into St Paul’s analogy of the Church as the Body of Christ found in 1 Corinthians 12 and the trauma of one part felt by rest of the body. I don’t know if I feel this way because I have grown in wisdom or it is because I never actually felt like be part of the body before. Life of hard but life is good. The weather is overcast and in the mid 60’s. With words of encouragement (that’s really putting it mild) I hand weeded about the front bushes. It’s not fully smart yet and still needs another go, but is leaps bound better then prior. It’s prom night, yikes! Jennifer is stunningly beautiful. I already met Ben at the senior party. He seems very nice. Turns out not everyone can make to night so some will today and other tomorrow perhaps. I opted out, but it is best left unsaid as to why. I learned over time, Pr McReynolds wisdom, in the ramifications of the potential message being conveyed by one’s action.
May 4, 2012
O God, who hast appointed Thine only-begotten Son to be the eternal High Priest for the glory of Thy Majesty and the salvation of mankind; grant that they whom He hath chosen to be His ministers and the stewards of His mysteries, may be found faithful in the fulfillment of the ministry which they have received. Through the same Christ Our Lord. Amen. This year, I’m older for sure and perhaps, just perhaps a little wiser. Most would say that the Easter story never changes. I use to think that until last week’s bible study. I now view the gospels as being circular and without an ending, because Jesus calls us to step into his story and become part of it. To simply put it, if we don’t follow him, the story ends. It is best as his disciples, to let our love of Christ be truly expressed in our love for one another so that the world may know a new hope through our parish and parishioners. Fawn’s young sister Soo and her husband Eddy are in town visiting. Fawn spent a couple hours out and about in the awesome day with Soo. I can hardly wait for the family gathering tomorrow. Soo and Eddy are by far among the nicest people one would ever want to meet. I never fail to mention when I whipped up beef with bitter melon for dinner. Hands down, bitter melon, is the most unusual yet undeniably delicious Asian I have the eaten since childhood. How in the world can one say it taste bitter and at the same time say it taste delicious.
May 3, 2012
Merciful Father, by Your Son You always give to Your Church on earth faithful shepherds to guide and feed Your flock. By Your Holy Spirit encourage all pastors that they may faithfully proclaim only Your truth, and grant Your people wisdom that their souls may be restored in the green pastures and quiet waters of Your salvation. Yesterday was call day. And it brings to mind, 1st John when Jesus calls Philip and Nathanael. What comes to mind is Nathanael’s initial response to Philip when he shared the joy of finding Jesus of Nazareth, “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?” For some reason, Nazareth must have been a obstacle for Nathanael. There are some who have left our parish and don’t share the joy of receiving our Lord gifts at St John. All I can do is echo what Philip said to Nathanael, “Come and see” Just had time to cut the grass in front yard and side of the house during the lunch hour. With all the rain, it just keep growing so fast. Weather wise one can’t ask for a better day, it was simply drop dead gorgeous. Make it out to the men’s bible study. It was on St Athanasius, Christian orthodoxy, Arian heresy and the creeds. The format it outstanding, it’s like a mini retreat, get out and chillin’ with the guys. It is good for me to get out and interacting with brothers. I am blessed to be among 1 John 2 people with an advocate. Hey one step closer to a night out on the town, Fred thinks it a great idea and want to set a date with the small group that got together.
May 2, 2012
“They surrounded me like bees; they went out like a fire among thorns; in the name of the LORD I cut them off!” (Psalm 118:12). What is going on? Sunny and in the mid 70s. Oh my, who’s birthday is it? Fawn make an outstanding lunch, huge spinach ravioli with her awesome marinara sauce. Ate 6 of those bad boys while watching the results on-demand during my l. The final four are Chris Mann, Tony Lucca, Jermaine Paul and Juliet Simms. Easy to predict it’s gonna be an outstanding final show. O wow, zillions of carpenter bees flying around. Seems like when you get one kind of flying pest a different come to replace them. The swamp of bees reminds me of psalm 118. The bees symbolize the numbers of enemies of David. They are also enemies of Christ and his people and the church. In their frenzy assault, plot and scheme and attempt in vain to no avail to their own destruction and extinguish as the burning of thorns. We moved on and I don’t dwell on it. But it a good reminder to stay alert in the ongoing spiritual warfare. Congrats to Josemon Hoem on his call to Immanuel at Murphysboro, IL
May 1, 2012
When Jesus walked the earth, he miraculously restore to health the sick. Ford, I pray as your word say for healing. Hear my earnest prayer and bless it with the power of your promise to heal and trust in your divine plan for us. Lord, especially for Fawn, she was back in physical therapy for arm lymphedema; for Sam for physical healing as he was seriously injured in Afghanistan by a suicide bomber; for Joan pneumonia. Amen. Dressed up for a night out; Fawn, Jennifer and I went to the Naperville Community Unit School District 203 Excellence in Education Banquet, held at the Bobak’s Signature Events at Seven Bridges. It is an elegant facility with 24-feet high ceiling. The banquet honored the highest-achieving graduating academicians and the educators who have influenced them on their way to excellence. Jennifer selected Claudia Winterrowd. We were blessed with the honor and privilege to spend the evening with her. She is fine and outstanding women. This entry is taking quite some time to pen, because I watching The Voice, Semifinal Live Performances on line. All the singers are awesome, giving it their all. What a show. But wow wow wow Juliet singing, A Man’s World, blew everyone way. I love listening to this rocker. I looked up who got the vicarage call to our parish on the CTS website, David Michael Buchs. He has a smart looking family.
April 30, 2012
“Eternal and ever blessed God, Lord of heaven and earth: we praise your glorious majesty. Your wisdom is seen in all your works; your grace and truth are revealed in Jesus Christ, your Son; your power and presence are given to us through your Holy Spirit; wherefore we adore your holy name, O blessed Trinity, forever and ever”- BOOK OF COMMON WORSHIP. I can hardly believe all the treasure penned by learned teachers of Christ. I saw this quotable quote on Weedon’s Blog: We now have the same status in the kingdom of God as both the prophets of old and the saints in glory. We are surrounded by a cloud of witnesses who have gone before us, and as Lutherans, we must learn to be comfortable in their presence. They are standing with us and their voices join our voices in one glorious liturgy. This is what our liturgy means when it says we celebrate the Lord's Supper "with angels and archangels and with all the company of heaven." -- Arthur Just, The Devotional Life of the Pastor, Teach Me Thy Way, O Lord, pp. 94,95. This hardly leaves room for me to say anything, but it represents the joy in my heart just reading these gems. Fawn when over to labcorp for blood work. It’s on 95th Street. Every time I’m out that way, I am at awe about how wealthy some people are. I’m pretty excited that tomorrow is call day at the seminary. I’m always carious where the vicars that server in our parish is called. I’m excited for Seminarian Holms. What a swell guy. Did I just say swell? I think all the vicars that served at St John are great, they are a blessing and I also think they have been blessed by learned teachers of Christ. But I have to say, Vicar Holms has a special place in our family’s heart. Episode 185 of, The God Whisperers, all the talk about the new man and the old Adam have my head spinning. I remembered the clear image of the circle Pr Bruzek drew, whereas on one hand, there is a sense that we have been brought into a new community, but another sense where we are trying to escape the old one. Things aren’t perfect in our community; it never is with us sinners. We live a life of repentance and faith, being kind and tenderhearted, to one another, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave us. So another month goes by in Larry’s World.
April 29, 2012
“Merciful Father, by Your Son You always give to Your Church on earth faithful shepherds to guide and feed Your flock. By Your Holy Spirit encourage all pastors that they may faithfully proclaim only Your truth, and grant Your people wisdom that their souls may be restored in the green pastures and quiet waters of Your salvation.” Sunday Mass, a most joyous celebration where receive our Lord’s gifts. It's such a great joy and privilege to serve as altar assistants. Pr Nelson did a fine job today, echoing the sermon preached by our Lord and Savior nearly 2,000 years ago, that our Lord is the good shepherd. Posted another gem in our worship folder on blogger, “We should allow no misfortune to distract us from this happiness and deep joy; for if you are determined to reach the destination of you spiritual journey the roughness of the road will not deter you. Nor should the delights of material prosperity in this life ever entice you astray; only the foolish traveler, spotting a pleasant field on the way, forgets that he is en route to a greater destination.” - A HOMILY OF GREGORY THE GREAT We got a rare treat in bible study today, Pr Nelson led the outstanding study on, Gospel Endings: Invitation to Hope. The gospel story don’t end in the pages, it ends with us. Jesus draws us into his story, his resurrection and in the understanding of hope. Our hope is in the Lord who is with us until the end of the ages. Amen. Hmmm… only a short visit, I wish Andrea and Rob had more time to spend with us. They are such a blessing, all my children are. It is remarkable how fast time pasts, they are all grown. Jennifer is the youngest and will be graduating high school in a few short weeks. Yikes and Prom is just around the corner. Can never get use to boys being around. If only I could believe in, friends.
April 28, 2012
Fawn and I were up super early and had a craving for Dim Sum, so off we went to the city for rice noodle rolls, bean curd rolls and char sui baos. Also stop at the meat shop for roast pig and barbeque pork. Jean stopped over briefly on her way to visit her mom and to pick up some of the goodies. She gave us the super news that Bob is going to have lunch with Pr Bruzek and talk about becoming a membership to our parish. It’s been a joy meeting him and worshiping with him since Christmas day. I was reading Weedon’s Blog and came across this gem, The ancient eucharistic prayers with their long recital of God's great acts of salvation in biblical and ecclesiastical history, proclaimed the presence of the whole church at the liturgy - past, present, and future. The great witnesses of the faith are present in the assembly because Christ is present in the liturgy. The story of the world is told most completely in the liturgy because Christ is present in worship according to His divine and human natures. -- Dr. Arthur Just, The Devotional Life of the Pastor in Teach Me Thy Way, O Lord, p. 95 The Eucharistic prayer after the Sanctus is a strikingly beautiful prayer of thanksgiving for God’s saving grace in Christ’s death. "Blessed are You, Lord of heaven and earth, for You have had mercy on those whom You created and sent Your only-begotten Son into our flesh to bear our sin and be our Savior. With repentant joy we receive the salvation accomplished for us by the all-availing sacrifice of His body and His blood on the cross. Gathered in the name and the remembrance of Jesus, we beg You, O Lord, to forgive, renew, and strengthen us with Your Word and Spirit. Grant us faithfully to eat His body and drink His blood as He bids us to do in His own testament. Gather us together, we pray, from the ends of the earth to celebrate with all the faithful the marriage fest of the Lamb in His kingdom, which has no end. Graciously receive our prayers; deliver and preserve us. To You alone, O Father, be all glory, honor, and worship, with the Son and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever. Amen" (LSB p. 161). Clearly this isn’t a resurrection of the “cannon mass”. Lutherans fully understand the Eucharist is God’s gift to us and not our offering to God. Another word, the Veba is a proclamation to us and not a prayer to God. Happy must needed hair cut! Fawn did a super job with the little I have left. There was a time when it would fall out before turning gray. Just got a call to swap days as altar assistant so I better stop now and ….
April 27, 2012
Lord, grant us grace to believe and lead godly lives that glorify you and becomes a blessing to our neighbors. Amen. Whoo hoo, Happy Friday! It was a good day all around. Gosh, I love the weekends. Andrea called and the test results came back negative. And it’s my sister Nancy’s birthday! Bundled up and another great walk and talk. I do my best and the walk is seamless easy to keep up with Fawn when we have a great conversation.
April 26, 2012
“Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another” (Proverbs 27:17). Holy cow, the temps dropped. The plan for the night was to go the Men’s Bible study and hanging with the guys, a little bible and a little bit of soul. But the weather isn’t cooperating. It’s too cold to hang out on a porch for these old bones. I feel I must lack sensitivity because it doesn’t bother me how some people react to things they disapprove of that differ to their own pious ways. I once was convinced that small groups are conventicles, but it ain’t so. Strange how some things played out at by old parish. Why don’t people just come out and reason together issues as a community? Not all small groups are conventicles. Friends from my parish gathered as a great mixed small group several months ago in West Chicago and had a great time. We’re talk about doing it again at a 50’s restaurant instead of a home. I hope it comes to past. LOL, don’t know why but an oldie just can to mind from the mid 60’s by, The McCoys - Hang on Sloopy. Wow nice job by the nominating committee for putting together an awesome slate for the governing board. Fawn and I put on a light jacket and went on a nice walk and talk earlier, life is good. It’s been a busy week and whoo hoo, tomorrow is already gonna be Friday. Prayers for Sam Watts, injured soldier in Afghanistan. The burning question is, why are we still in Afghanistan?
April 25, 2012
Hey, it made it to 70, sweet? Here to stay now? Talk about taking the good with the bad, I have itchy eyes and the annoying flying gnats. I listened to an interesting statement on the God Whisperers episode 184, about the willing to drive long distances to go to church to hear the gospel. Thanks be to God for St John. Andrea and Rob are such a blessing to me in that they are willing to drive one and a half hour to receive God’s gift. They can relate to not being able to find a church. A conversation with a reform Christian that is a former Catholics is extremely trying. Where do I even begin? It just ended with him saying I was stubborn to which I replied that I was steadfast to the inerrancy of the Bible. LOL, was on the evermore edifying Weedon’s blog, but today’s notable take was from a trivial comment on why flamingos change color. It’s from the pigment of the food they eat. I think it is good to look at people and have the Christ in you behold the Christ in them and yet realize they are sinful beings just like yourself.
April 24, 2012
Almighty God, by the glorious resurrection of your Son Jesus Christ, you have broken the power of death and brought life and immortality to light; grant that we who have been raised with him may triumph over all temptation and rejoice in the hope of eternal glory; through him who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God now and for ever. Amen. I woke up this morning in utter awe about the resurrection of our Lord. God loves us in a way that surpasses all understanding. The norm is being a cynic and reluctant to the call of a life filled in awe. The Holy Spirit that dwells in me helps and leads me back toward Eden and away from the hell of hopelessness. It’s really amazing how many things a person have of interest going on in their lives. Sadly there isn’t enough time to do it all, so you just pick and choose as you go along and rejoice in the day the Lord has made, taking the good and bad as it comes. Relaxed to The Voice, it was extremely entertaining. Hard to tell it apart from the free Sunday morning big production show found in some of the mega-churches. Wow all the singers were great but for me Cheesa and Tony were outstanding. I’m sure everyone has their own favorites. Mine is Juliet, rock on girl! Prayers for Andrea for care and good test results; she came down today is see her doctor. Lord, bless us and keep; be merciful to us sinner. Amen.
April 23, 2012
Awesome! It’s been a while, but Fawn and made it out for our usual nice walk and talk about the neighborhood. Easter is a time of joy, yet many are in our thoughts and intercessory prayers.
April 22, 2012
May your people exult for ever, O God, in renewed youthfulness of spirit, so that, rejoicing now in the restored glory of our adoption, we may look forward in confident hope to the rejoicing of the day of resurrection. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. He is Risen! Alleluia! What a beautiful and edifying day it was. But first let’s rewind a tad back to last night. The high school senior party was amazing. Totally different from life in the inner city for sure. Overall the kids were great. Some of things the boys do cracked me up, it really aren’t that mature yet in high school. Easy to chuckle when they’re not your kids. Glad there is a late Sunday Mass at 11 am, because Fawn and I didn’t get home till about 3 am. Nothing like full blast worship that begins with the sacrament of Holy Baptism. Nathaniel Joel, we welcome in the name of the Lord. The epistle reading found in 1 John 3: 1-7 was a very fitting reminder for us children of God because of his love. Our desire is to be Christ-like. No one abides in Christ keeps on sinning. The Holy Gospel according to St Luke the twenty-fourth chapter is most stunning. His death showed he was really human and his resurrections prove he was also divine. There are endless things to thank and praise God for. I rejoice in the hope of finishing the race. Eternal happiness in Eden is within our grasp, won for us by Christ. Pr Bruzek often reminds us that there is nothing that can happen to us that is worst than what happen in the Passion of Christ. Spiritual Warfare comes to mind. Almighty Fortress is our God. I can’t think of a better place to be than St John. If only we can together hold on, take on the flaming arrows, with the full amour of God, out up and down become so minor as less Gethsemanes and Golgotha. Then the hope that is within us is not in vain. There was a great turnout for the luncheon (Jimmy Johns) that followed late service and the prior to our guest speaker, iconographer, Meltem Aktas. She was well received. I thought Val Gaede, but behold, Melten is a Turkish version. I learn a lot about what goes on in writing a icon, amazing. Prayers for Joan, Sandra and Andrea for Comfort, health and recovery; Ongoing prayers for Fawn; Prayers of encouragement for preservation and restoration of families. Amen.
April 21, 2012
“The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace” (Numbers 6:24-26). By your grace alone, O Lord, you are my life. Amen. Tonight is the Naperville Central High School Senior Party and Fawn I will be working the 10 pm to 2am shift. Hmmm… it will be an interesting night. When the kids were young, they were thrill we were school volunteers, it is no longer the case. So I’m making an early journal entry. I don’t really like to spray the lawn with chemicals, but the dandelions won the epic battle. This year, the ultimate lawn weed was just too much. Came across the totally awesome Multi-Media Hymn Library Added this link to the site Navigation side bar as Lutheran Music and a link to the Lutheran Public Radio. Ahh, The God Whisperers Easter Edition with Donofrio and Cwirla this morning. It is interesting they mentioned Anglican descants. I love the dignified and magnificent opening procession of the Liturgy. Can hardly wait until go to the Sunday Mass. As always it’s the highlight on my week. It will be extremely interesting to meet the contemporary iconographer of our icon over the altar. I’m not a fan of Contemporary Icons and differ that they are just as beautiful and reads as their ancient counterparts.
April 20, 2012
He is Risen! Alleluia! Bathe most of the day in Sacred Easter Music on Lutheran Public Radio. Initially I was thinking about taking a Friday hiatus from penning a journal entry. But then I said to myself, the Christian life and our pilgrimage back to Eden are filled with its worldly ups and down and not immune to frustration, disappointments and even distress. Holy week is really something; our post- communion canticles is taken from the Holy Gospel according to St Luke the second chapter, “Lord, now you are letting your servant depart in peace, according to your word; for my eyes have seen your salvation that you have prepared in the presence of all peoples, a light for revelation to the Gentiles, and for glory to your people Israel.” I remember Dr Just speaking about the presentation of the Blessed Virgin Mary where Simeon continues on and told Mary that a “sword of sorrow” would pierce her heart. Mary’s sorrow speaks of the shadows of the cross, where there is joy and sorrow, happiness and distress. The Christian life is a blend Good Friday and Easter Morning. We live in the shed blood of our Lord and Savior, Christ Jesus, for the forgiveness of sin which sets free to forgive ourselves and the debts of others. Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever. Amen.
April 18-19, 2012
O God, who for the salvation of the world brought about the paschal sacrifice, be favorable to the supplications of your people, so that Christ our High Priest, interceding on our behalf, may by his likeness to ourselves bring us reconciliation, and by his equality with you free us from our sins. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Get a little bummed out. We got a heads up more cuts in May as already extended contract will not be renewed. It’s the nature of contracting one can never get use to. Rats, I forgot all about Thursday Night Men’s Bible Study. I marked it in my calendar now along with the new altar assistant schedule. I was relishing in a conversation about the love of Christ found in our pastors. They are hand down rare gems. It is truly a blessing to be love by so many friends and family.
April 17, 2012
Enable us, we pray, almighty God, to proclaim the power of the risen Lord, that we, who have received the pledge of his gift, may come to possess all he gives when it is fully revealed. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. I was thinking about how nice people tend to dress smart during Easter Sunday and how everyday worldly attire is unbecoming for the faithful in divine worship. We are standing in God's presence and the company of heaven. Parishioners of liturgical communities show a different attitude in the matter of dress that shows they realize the sublime beauty of the Mass. I had my mind on a church photo directory. It is starting to appear to be a huge undertaking and am not sure I’m up to the task at this time. Lord, help me think this out clearly. Amen.
April 16, 2012
Meditate, O devout soul, upon the worthiness of the Church, and take heed lest thou do anything unworthy of her. The Church is thy spiritual mother; take care that thou despise not her voice as she speaks to thee. She is thy mother, and through word and sacraments thou oughtest draw all thy spiritual nourishment from her. Johann Gerhaed, Sacred Meditations, p. 128 These are fine words, I found in the margins of our worship folder this week to contemplate upon. The wisdom is place fully on her worthiness. Fawn and I prayerfully rejoice in the hilltop where our Lord has gathered us. Somuch like David, we long to be in the house of the Lord. Blessed are you O Lord, you have led us into the courts of you holy house upon this earth, bring us, at last, in your mercy back to Eden. Amen.
April 15, 2012
God of everlasting mercy, who in the very recurrence of the paschal feast kindle the faith of the people you have made your own, increase, we pray, the grace you have bestowed, that all may grasp and rightly understand in what font they have been washed, by whose Spirit they have been reborn, by whose Blood they have been redeemed. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Most Sundays are the highlight of my week. Bonus weeks are when Andrea comes down to receive God’s gift with us and visit afterwards. Church musicians have a special place in my heart. I played the French horn in high school and in a drum and bugle corps and was pretty good at it. I am very appreciative because I am aware on the time and dedication required to play well at this level. I was wowed by God’s beauty because of my first and relatively new hearing aid, it is the first time I can hear the warm higher pitches with clarity. Vicar Jacobsen’s Easter 2 homily was outstanding, like a seasoned preacher at the pulpit. The Holy Gospel of the meeting between the Risen Lord with St Thomas is one of the most well known, mused over, and appreciated. Our Lord is good and encourages Thomas not to disbelieve, but to believe. Jesus’ response to Thomas, after he recognized him as ‘My Lord and my God’ (John 20:28) has a mysterious fascination to it - Jesus asks and says to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed” (John 20:29). The rich imagery of the ancient Eucharistic hymn by Thomas Aquinas, Thee We Adore, O Hidden Savior (Adoro Te Devote) comes to mind. In today’s bible study, Pr Bruzek mentioned that we live our lives between the icon of the Cross and the icon of the transfiguration. This is most certainly true. Although we have not seen the glorious body of the Risen Christ, we can see the body of Christ in the Eucharist. Peter said, “Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory” (1 Peter 1:8). No wonder some call Easter 2, Divine Mercy Sunday. The Holy Gospel according to St John, the twentieth chapter is, “written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name” (John 20:31). I was struck by the pen of Avery Cardinal Dulles in the margins of our worship bulletin, “Love of neighbor and love of God are most realized in the church as the body of Christ. The sacraments of Baptism and the Eucharist … uniting us vertically as it were, with Christ, they unite us horizontally with our brothers and sisters in Christ … Every authentic celebration of the Eucharist therefore passes over into concretes of love. We stayed a little for the late service to welcome be Christian witnesses to the baptism of Elisabeth Clair. It’s late, booming and raining hard again tonight; hope I can get some much needed sleep…
April 14, 2012
O God, who by the abundance of your grace give increase to the peoples who believe in you, look with favor on those you have chosen and clothe with blessed immortality those reborn through the Sacrament of Baptism. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Happy Easter Saturday. Great day, spent most of it with my son Alex, a rare treat. Guessing the damp weather left him and Jennifer in the house. It was nice of Henry to stop over briefly after his mom. He been with Heather for quite a number of years. I wonder at times why people in love and together so long don’t get married. I pretty excited about Easter 2. I love the this season and singing with the living creatures and elders a new song, a hymn of praise in regards to the Eucharist banquet drawn from the passages of the Apocalypse of John, This is quite different from the venerable Gloria Excelsis non biblical hymn that traditionally opens the Liturgy. We all memorize the Gloria by heart. During the 6 weeks of Easter I usually have the hymn embed then we shelve the hymn for reasons unknown to me. I can hear he thunderous voice of God, “God thunders wondrously with his voice; he does great things that we cannot comprehend” (Job 37:5).
April 13, 2012
Almighty ever-living God, who gave us the Paschal Mystery in the covenant you established for reconciling the human race, so dispose our minds, we pray, that what we celebrate by professing the faith we may express in deeds. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Happy Easter Friday! It was almost but not quite deja vu. I had to jump my other car because it has been sitting idle for a long time. I don't drive it since I have been working from home for a long while now. I took it it in for emission testing. Then Fawn and I stop off at Sam's club again. I got my free cuo of coffee and she got her free package sweet roll samples. I was reflecting on the St Paul and the Christ in him, “I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me” (Galatians 2:20). St John Wheaton has been so good for me and my family. Her teaching has allowed us view life quite differently. In the face of God, Christ is everything and we are nothing. Isn’t it amazing to have been crucified in Christ? The old Adam is laid aside, and our new life is a Christlike life, due to the spirit of Christ. Whereas his soul is my soul and the new man is now merged in Christ. I was thinking about some crazy Easter babbling and started to pen about it, and decided instead to pray for the destruction of gibberish teaching and for the poor undiscerning souls out in the wilderness that prefer to feed on less than milk.
April 12, 2012
O God, who have united the many nations in confessing your name, grant that those reborn in the font of Baptism may be one in the faith of their hearts and the homage of their deeds. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Happy Easter Thursday. Peace be with you is the greeting Jesus says to his disciple in the upper room on the day of his resurrection. Baptized in the risen Christ, we must live in the face of God in a manner of living proclamation worthy of his name. The joy of each day in the Octave we shout, "This is the day the Lord has made, Alleluia! Let us rejoice and be glad, Alleluia!" Unbelievable day from the get go, I had to scrape frost off the windshield. It is April, right? Nice the day warmed up to the lower 60’s. Dropped off Jennifer at school and brought the car in for emission testing. Then it was busy, busy, busy. Busy is good. It allows for hope for another extension of my current contract. Nice way to end the night with a Thursday night bible study at the Vicar’s. It was nice afterwards also to socialize the on the front porch and wounded down. Hmm, I clearly disappointed Fawn and clearly my word isn’t my bond. It made so unchristlike. This made me think about the clear Easter Gospel Dave proclaimed earlier in the day. Christ and his promise of salvation in his death and resurrection. Jesus said, “Because I live, you also will live” (John 14:19).
April 11, 2012
O God, who gladden us year by year with the solemnity of the Lord's Resurrection, graciously grant that, by celebrating these present festivities, we may merit through them to reach eternal joys. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Happy Easter Wednesday! I’m truly enjoying the Octave of Easter. I agree with Carol, the Easter Pascha is able to carry us for the week. I attend Mass on the early service with my family and assisted at the altar on the later service. Nothing like going back for seconds. Just love sacred music, have been listening to LPR most of the day. I read a post on Pastoral Meanderings that makes me wonder about blogging sometimes. It had something to with the First Thing Article about President Obama as Pastor-in-Chief and President Harrison. It surprises no one how the world responses. But it is striking how bloggers in the LCMS that spill over from the Steadfast Lutheran site pen with a certain noticeable tongue of righteousness. I watch AI live on my 12 year old 27” CRT TV this evening and the show was great. The bad boy has been around for a very long time. So much technology has evolved since I brought it. I’ve been offered newer sets from a lot of people. But the TV were way too big for my house. I have wanted a new TV for some time; the cost for one has come down drastically compared to years earlier. But I’m too cheap to buy one just for the sake of buying one. LOL talk about stream of conscience writing, hmmm… yes, AI was relaxing. Jessica Sanchez and Elise Testone in my mind blew everyone else away. Thanks be to God, the Lees are called to Christ. By your Spirit, make us more like you. Amen.
April 10, 2012
O God, who have bestowed on us paschal remedies, endow your people with heavenly gifts, so that, possessed of perfect freedom, they may rejoice in heaven over what gladdens them now on earth. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever." Happy Easter Tuesday! This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad. Alleluia!" Watched The Voice during lunch. Lunch was awesome and so was the show. I really like Juliet Simms and Jamar Rogers both were rockers and brought with them a lot of energy. Rock on! I took a peek ay American Idol just to see how Jessica Sanchez was doing. She’s still in it. Man, can this girl can sang! Alex’s Sliders beat Rachael Ray Sliders hands down. I could have sunk my teeth in more than 2 of those tasty mini gourmet delights. I was thinking about our Lord Jesus’ patience he has waiting with so many treasures of grace and how so many deny the full blast spiritual nourishment necessary for extraordinary holiness. So how can I not rejoice and be glad that our Lord has granted all his precious gift of St John to sustain us on our journey back to Eden? Lord, I thank you for the blessings and lavish grace of the day which lifts my heart. Where I have failed to honor you in my words and action, Iask for your forgiveness. Amen.
April 9, 2012
O God, who give constant increase to your Church by new offspring, grant that your servants may hold fast in their lives to the Sacrament they have received in faith. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Happy Easter Monday! An literally a bright Monday it is. Glory be to Christ whose mangled body hung on the tree just days ago. Let us rejoice forever and ever in his resurrection, his ascension and his sitting at the right hand of the Father, alleluia. Still savoring the joyful gifts of Pascha service. The Easter Greetings from President Harrison is outstanding. We are blessed to have a learned teacher of Christ as our synodical President. Rev Weedon posted a fine Pascha Homily. Jennifer is excited; she picked her graduation robe. It made thing a bit more concrete that it’s coming about. Over the weekend, she committed to attend Loyola University - Chicago for her undergraduate studies. Prayers for the unemployed and underemployed, especially for my brother Bill, Ken and Carol. O heavenly Father, thank you for our Redeemer, Jesus Christ, how has restore us to you. Amen.
April 8, 2012
O fillii et filiae, Rex caelestis, Rex gloriae morte surrexit hodie. Alleluia. O sons and daughters, The King of Heaven, the glorious King, has risen from death today Alleluia! The Resurrection of Our Lord, Mass on Christianity's most joyous holy day and then I hmmm on the Rubric announcement prior … Just when everyone is getting use to kneeing then we are not told not to kneeling during Easter? After musing over it, it makes sense. Because kneeling in many ways is a sign of repentance and Easter is a season of joy. Sweet, there isn’t a better spot than helping as altar assistance than on a feast day. Up close and personal with Christ and having all one’s senses soaking in the beauty of our Lord. The ensembles were spot on. What a joy it is to see so many come to celebrate. We were still stuffed from the big dinner celebration yesterday, so it was light snacks for lunch. Dinner was light but oh so tasty, streamed tilapia.
April 7, 2012
Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. What a beautiful all around day. Whoo hoo, Andrea and Rob came early and spent the day with us. We celebrated Fawn’s brother Carl’s birthday. It’s always good to spent time with family. Their son Zachery continues to grow more handsome every time we see him. On my, LOL, I not sure if it is Bob got to meet the family or is it the entire family got to meet Bob. Either way, we’re all so happy Bob and Jean have each. I spent been contemplating on the peace found in our Lord’s death and the joy found in his resurrection as well as in his suffering, which pales ours. We rejoice in the victory that is always his. In retrospect, much like the Ethiopian Eunuch, prior to becoming a member and parishioner, we found ourselves reading the Bible even though we didn’t understand what we were reading. Our Good shepherd heard countless prayers before he gathered up to the hilltop found at SJ. No one will ever know the full extent of the tearful joy the Lord has blessed us with when he showered us with his gifts of Word and Sacraments in the first Mass we attended at Saint John. It returned to us the joy of our salvation. I pray our Lord extends that t joy to our new members that were brought in to our community this Easter Vigil. We especially rejoice is Jean who has noticeably grown so much this past year. She isn’t making a big deal about becoming a member of SJ, because she has be going there for a very long time. I know something about the ongoings of a household when we fail to follow the biblical Principles for Marriage. A stumbling block in her life has been removed. The humility found in her pastors and parishioners gives the glory due to our God. Arguably there is no finer parish priest than Pastor Bruzek. Our prayers are selfishly for Pastor Bruzek and Nelson’s good health and for your family for our benefit. Albeit Rev Genig is no longer our pastor, I would fail in love not to include him and his family in my daily prayers. These 3 I have the highest regards for and count them among the most learned teachers of Christ along with Kleinig and Just. Undeserving? Hardly. To be perfectly clear in what I say is not like the worldly spiritual infants of Corinth who say I follow Paul or I follow Apollo. Spiritual infants look to people rather than the master. I sometimes think I should curb my tongue. But the idolatry of venerating of church workers in the Mass is taking our eyes off Christ. For the life of the Church? To put it in perspective, fix your eye on Christ and his passion on the cross, on the redemption bought and freely “for you”, then and only then can we continue to grow in Christ and his likeness. Jennifer is quite the character. She asked if she could borrow so money. I said no. She said, “Clearly the hearing aid doesn’t work.” I was totally wowed by the Easter Vigil and by the water of Baptism. Alleluia! Christ is Risen! There were only a just few seats available for the angels to sit in. After Mass, there was a reception and a variety of beverage fitting of for celebrating with. God is good and what a fine community we have become in coming together in Christ. It wasn’t always so.
April 6, 2012
O God, whose glory it is always to have mercy: Be gracious to all who have gone astray from your ways, and bring them again with penitent hearts and steadfast faith to embrace and behold fast the the unchangeable truth of your Word, Jesus Christ your Son. Glory and praise be to Jesus the savior crucified. The day started with a trip to the otolaryngologist to pick up my new and first hearing aid. It is so weird to hear the typing key strokes. My hearing of high pitches are very limited and haven’t bird sing in years. The technology is stunning, Sounds of Nature: Bird Songs something this simple most people take for granted. So naturally I contemplated on the symphony of God’s creation. Fawn and I arrived for the service early and was curious what the sanctuary would sound like. After all, it was the muffled sound that made hearing very difficult there. I was initially apprehensive, because for the first time I hear all the background noise of people turning the pages of their worship folder as the read and prepared for the service. Wow, I hear everything with perfect clarity. The 7 scripture readings of the passion of our Lord, Jesus Christ were drawn from the four gospels and the accommodating music was outstanding. I can’t believe that there was more people today than yesterday. The parking lot was nuts. Talk about contrasting the beautiful order inside to chaos outside. The ride home was sweet as we drove south and faced the beautiful full moon slightly to the east and a beautiful clear starry night for a backdrop.
April 5, 2012
O Lord, in this wondrous Sacrament You have left us a remembrance of Your passion. Grant that we may so receive the sacred mystery of Your body and blood that the fruits of Your redemption may continually be manifest in us; for You live and reign with the Farther and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever. Amen. My eyes have been tearing at times for no apparent reason the last 2 days. Most likely what is causing me to weep buckets is the high tree pollen count. Pignut hickory is a common allergen in our area. It was a busy workday. I barely had time to nibble in the leftovers in the frig, before heading off to The Divine Service. Mandatum: Maundy Thursday. Ahh, a beautiful Mass. We recall the new commandment that Christ gave us to love each other and the gift he gives us in his body and his blood. Mandatum Novum Do Vobis ut diligatis invicem sicut dilexi vos - “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another” (John 13:34). Not wanting to miss a single thing, Fawn and I sat at the closest possible seat in the nave. The Stripping of the Altar ceremony was so reverent. It choked me, to see Jesus stripped of his clothing and dignity as well as his abandonment. Oh my, the chanting of Psalm 22 was a breathtaking cry of forsakenness that was repeated by Christ nailed to a tree willingly as the substitute sinner. Love so see such a large sanctuary like our so filled with people worshipping. Good thing there was 9 on the altar. I can’t say enough about the commons and the community. The service started a 7 concluded about 8:15, but we stayed till about 9 with still so many enjoying each other’s company. Peace in the Death, Joy in the Resurrection!
April 4, 2012
Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days. (Psalm 90:14). I am going back in forth in my mind about the day, much streams to my mind as I contemplate the stations of the cross. I come to realize this Holy Week how significant this Lent season has been because as I follow Jesus his passion I see how little I mirror him. Images of hope found in the passion of Christ allow us to face the darkness that is within and gives us the courage to trust God to deliver me from evil. Sweet, there is something about ordinary days. I never seem Jennifer so relaxed. I think she must be in graduation mode. She's out with friends and not up late into the wee hours studying. Alex, he also seem so relaxed now too, he ischirping and feels good about his job. He really likes it and think it's challenging and fun. Fawn and I were out and about in the evening in the Danada shopping area. There something about the relationship of women and their shoes that I just don't comprehend, but I just enjoy the time we have together away and alone. The full moon is days away, but being with her just makes it look so full and beautiful. Lord, I am thankful for your unfailing love. Grant that may I see all my days as extraordinary because of you. Amen.
April 3, 2012
Lord, everything about Holy Week reveals the riches of your mercy. Create in me a clean heart that I may see the magnificence of your glory and the full measure of your grace. Amen. It was such a blessing to receive word of encouragement from my dear friend Dave. Fawn and I was out the door early to drop Jennifer off at school, because Fawn will need to pick her up and dismiss her later in the day to go back to physical therapy to straighten the knee. It was the same for her last time on her other knee, 4 weeks twice a week. Any way, it was off to Sam’s Club for groceries since it was nearby the high school and back home by 8:30 to start the work day. O wow was just looking at a video while penning this journal entry of the tornado that ripped though Dallas-Fort Worth metro area today. May the Lord bless all those affected by the destruction. It’s late ….
April 2, 2012
“O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory. Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you. So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food, and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips” (Psalm 63:1-5). Prayer for the family of Norm Zienty, upon the death of his mother Lillian. The Lees have been buying cars from the Zienty family for over 30 years. The conversation was still on the blessings of yesterday’s Mass. Everyone agreed that this was a good start to a week of true beauty; walking down the Jerusalem stone with Jesus from the Hosanna, thorough the tearful suffering to the light of his resurrection. I could be imaging it but this year seems so very different. I think the parents are owning up and raising their children it Christ. I can see it in the eyes of the little children by the font that they understand and are familiar with the songs and stories of the good news of the gospel. For Lutheran, Jesus does the verb. I think Pope Benedict XVI is a brilliant man, so it saddens me to read: ‘Benedict directed his Palm Sunday homily to young people, urging them to welcome Christ into their lives as the people of Jerusalem welcomed him."May Palm Sunday be a day of decision for you, the decision to say yes to the Lord and to follow him all the way," he said.’ This is all glory and really nothing to do with salvation for the lost. Are RC and Protestants two side of the same coin on a decision for Christ? I have been asked so many times, when did I accept Christ as my Lord and Savior? My reply is, has anyone ever? Then it is usually followed by their theology of glory testimonial. Let us be very clear about this: It is not man who accepts God, but it is God who chooses, draws, and saves those whom he wills, by His mercy and grace and has nothing whatsoever to do with anyone ever accepting Him. “You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you” (John 15:16). “No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him. And I will raise him up on the last day” (John 6:44). A decision for Christ put man before God, which is self-righteousness. Even our most righteous deeds are like polluted garments.
April 1, 2012
Die festo palmarum – The feast day of Palm Sunday. What beautiful imagery the day has brought. The Mass was more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. I had the privilege to serve this morning as an altar assistant. While passing though the front doors of the ecclesia into the nave, it was reminiscent of Christ’s word, “I am the door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved and will go in and out and find pasture” (John 10:9). Just a few steps into the courts of the Lord’s house from our pilgrimage in the broke world, the children gathered the Baptismal font with Pr Bruzek and Nelson and Rev Mumme for the first Gospel reading. Baptism is the sacrament of beginnings, of promise. It has everything to do with Coram deo. Dr Barry said it best, “Our entire life is a life lived trusting in the promises of God, given to us in and through Holy Baptism.” We continued the procession literally on the Jerusalem stone the children waved palm branches to welcome Jesus. It was a blessing to run out of individual cups at the Eucharist. It was a good thing we had 10 serving at the altar, a lot of things going on today, sweet. The musicians are always exceptional on feast days and help us boldly sing with a heart pleasing to God. I’m thinking well into Holy Week. Perhaps, just perhaps, the Sacred Triduum may inspire some to come again. One thing for certain, we should not be like the the other son was in the prodigal son who was annoyed with his brother for coming back, even if it’s only for a week and unknowingly is sitting in your pew. My soul longs for the courts of the Lord. “For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness” (Psalm 84:10). So good to see Jean, Adam and Bob at Mass. We definitely need to go out and do something together. After Church we dropped Jennifer off to serve at the Wyndemere retirement community in Wheaton. We have more than a few parishioners living there. We had 3 hours to kill, before picking Jennifer back up, so we decided to go shopping at nearby Stratford Mall. After several hours of mall walking, we walked out of there with a pitcher and I’m not even sure if we even needed that. What a small world, joy! We ran into my stepmother’s niece. It has been more than a few years.
March 31, 2012
“I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect” (Romans 12:1-2). Andrea brought back our DVD of the Borgias. Fawn and I only watched a few episodes before Andrea commandeered the DVD set. Guessing Alex watched some of it last night and was filled with questions. Hmmm… I noticed I tend to comment on it the last day of another month. I guess it’s as good as any other way to mark the passage of time. My brother Bill dropped off a couple CDs on discernment, Indentifying God’s Will in Everyday life. Coming from my brother, I was totally caught off guard, expecting some Evangelical speaker of some type. I think Fr Pacwa is a highly educated Jesuit Priest. I have seen him on ETWN. But I got bored after about 10 minutes into the audio. We thank God constantly for receiving the word of God at St John. It is highly noticeable to me how my family has grown in spiritual discernment over the last 4 years. We have grown leaps and bounds with the help of the Holy Spirit in our prayerful efforts to distinguish God’s voice from the voice of the world. O wow, took a peek at the Palm Sunday worship folder, sweet. O Lord and Master of my life, take from me the spirit of sloth, despondency, lust of power, and idle talk; But grant rather the spirit of chastity, humility, patience, and love to thy servant. Yea, O Lord and King, grant me to see my own transgressions, and not to judge my brother; for blessed art Thou unto the ages of ages. Prayer of Saint Ephrem the Syrian - 4th century
March 30, 2012
“The LORD will roar from Zion and thunder from Jerusalem; the earth and the sky will tremble. But the LORD will be a refuge for his people, a stronghold for the people of Israel” (Joel 3:6).Woke up in the wee hour to the loud cracking of thunder followed by torrential rain. Normally when I wake, I’m up, but I laid still in bed and contemplated the wondrous works of God. It’s been a while since I spoke of the voice of the most high resounded. “God thunders wondrously with his voice; he does great things that we cannot comprehend” (Job 37:5). My hearing has been so-so for many years and I have been able to get by. But with the high ceilings in our new space, it just ain’t working out. I took the hearing test last week and am definitely a candidate for hearing aid. I’ll be getting my trail pair next week. Why are they so expensive? Fawn cooked a fine dinner; so much for no second helping. She made our family favor, spaghetti with meat sauce and garlic bread. So it was another dinner and a movie night, The Ides of March. The issue of loyalty and trust was more interesting than the politics.
March 29, 2012
Ahhh a morning homily on Youtube, Pastor Genig. Nice way to start off the day. Wow, nice. Andrea came all the way down and spent part of the day with us. Well most with mom and sis. It was a work day for Alex and me. None the less, she is always a bundle of joy. Talk about joy, finished off the day listening to the encore sermon. Welcome our Lord’s divine authority. Jesus said, “Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:29,30). Lent is about giving up things isn’t it? Perhaps giving up things like our worries and sorrow for peace and joy? Or giving up our safety and respectability for gentleness and humility? There are so many things give up to that weight us down. Grant us, O Lord our Strength, a true love of your holy Name; so that, trusting in your grace, we may fear no earthly evil, nor fix our hearts on earthly goods, but may rejoice in your full salvation; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.
March 28, 2012
Nice that Jennifer is on spring break. She was in her little studio, playing her guitar, keyboard and drums. It’s been a very busy semester for her, so I glad to see her having fun. Alex was off work at 4 and 4:01 they were both out the door to play tennis. Poor baby looks so bionic with braces on both her legs. Those custom made aluminum bad boys were 800 bucks a piece, crazy. Episode 181 of the God Whisperers was really really really interesting. They talked about Higher Things. I’m surprise; there are 4 of them now in the summer, because of the poor economy. They revisited the Dry Mass, there surly is no defense for it. And they finished the show off with Receptionism vs Consecrationism and why both are wrong. I ‘ll have to listen to the final portion of the show again and ponder more on that. I came across a gem, Learning to Read Icons - Demo Life of Jesus Icon are so helpful to me in my reflections on Christ’s suffering and his sacrifice, his life his death and his resurrection and what this mean to me and the world. Lord, there is darkness within me and around me. I am weak; help me long for that Light. Amen.
March 27, 2012
Visited the God; Whisperers episode 181: sunrise baptismal floods in marijuanaville. I didn’t hear anything new, but I have to hand it to them, the delivery was spot on and humorous. These pastors are insane. This week’s show is already posted! Perhaps later in the week I might listen on. Since Jennifer is off this week for spring break, it was another dinner and a movie night. Beef with tomatoes and peppers over bowtie noodles, yummy. What can I say? The movie was Contagion. Much of the movies was as I expected. Government offices in each other face, panicking and rioting coupled with moments of acts selfless act of mercies. O God, by whose wondrous grace we are enriched with every blessing, grant us so to pass from former ways to newness of life, that we may be made ready for the glory of the heavenly Kingdom. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.
March 26, 2012
Lord, as we pray against forces of distraction, let Pastor have a discerning mind to prioritize the precious minutes of his day as well as the agenda of our church. Let him discern what is most important, and be guarded against the tyranny of the urgent. Make Your will abundantly clear to all of us. Strange when the rhythm changes; clearly I know it Monday because of the work load but none the less odd because Mass was on Saturday. I have to mention Beef with Snow Peas, because it was so phenomenal. It’s got to be when I chirp. I like it the way I stir fry it, nice and crisp. It was dinner and The Voice, the final battle round before the live show next week. There was a mix of hands downs winners along with tight epic battles and the I can't believe who they picked. I didn’t think I was going to nominate anyone for the open department heads at St John. Then it dawn on me how complacent I have become and it no time to drop our guards. St John got it right. I read on a blog about some pastor who writes about the need for longer sermons and the boneheads commenting about short sermons that give way for the Eucharist on a blog. It very telling how little Lutheran, in general doesn’t understand what Liturgical Worship is. The liturgy has a very set form week in and week out that varies very little. The elements of the Liturgy are not optional. The smells and bell as well visuals that help proclaim the faith are not adiaphorous. The heart of the liturgical worship is the Eucharist rather than a sermon. In the Lutheran Mass a homily is offered and the Eucharist is practiced weekly. It is though the Eucharist Christ gives us the strength to live the life he wills for us. Here I go again, shouting on top of a mountain to deaf ears.
March 25, 2012
Wow what beautiful day to be in the city. We visited Loyola University – Chicago. Jennifer’s right is saying their website do not do the beautiful lakefront campus justice, absolutely stunning. Madonna della Stada Chapel is magnificent. The architecture are historically amazingly preserved on the exterior, but the inside of the buildings are ultra-modern and talk about nice dorms, wow. It was really a nice outing for the family. It was refreshing to hear, “Loy0la is a Jesuit university dedicated to knowledge in the service of humanity.” Fawn and I was thrilled at what Loyola had to offer compared to University of Illinois Iowa or Wisconsin. Tuition isn’t cheap, both are about the same, but I personally think Loyola is by far the biggest bag for the buck. So now I wonder if Jennifer will pick a huge university campus of 40,000 or a smaller one of 10,000 students. The day is extremely joyful. I even got is episode 180 of the God Whisperers. I have to confess, I don’t understand the practice of Christian mortification. Synodical President Harrison was on the show. What a humble and learned teacher. The world is becoming very challenging place. More and more things are becoming morally acceptable despite being contrary to scripture and the teachings of Christ.
March 22, 2012
Brr? Not really, but it sure felt like it. Funny that the cool damp 60s feels that way in contrast to the extraordinary weather we had all week. Alex and Fawn was out the door early to drop off the Escape for repairs. One would think I wouldn’t be stunned by the cost of car repairs anymore over the years. But hey it’s cheaper than buying a new one. Put on the rain jacket and Fawn I went to America Best and picked up my glasses. This time they were great. I’m a happy camper. We then went to Costco and Sam’s Club for groceries. It’s hard to believe the outrageous price of hearing aids. Hope I can find a better price elsewhere. Ave sacer Christi sanguis , Iter nobis rectum pandis, Ad aeterna gaudia. Hail sacred Blood of Christ, You open for us the right path to eternal joys. By evening the sky cleared and our family attended the Saturday night Mass. It’s the first time we went since our move. The Mass was beautiful and I have to admit I was surprise how well attended it is.
March 23, 2012
O gracious and Holy Father, give us wisdom to perceive you, diligence to seek you, patience to wait for you, eyes to behold you, a heart to meditate upon you, and a life to proclaim you; through the power of the Spirit of Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen. Had the weirdest conversation with a friend that was raised RC, but is now somewhat unchurched, in the sense that he plays gigs in churches as a side job every now and then. It seems so hopeless to talk theology with him about what comes out his mouth. He says so many off the wall things, he seems to have his own reformation. It’s hopeless to reason with someone who does not believe in the inerrancy of Holy Scripture. Home in front of the set with Fawn watching, On Demand AI. It was Billy Joel Night. I’ve been watching the Voice in the background online and have not taken the time is season to watch AI, so I’m totally clueless who’s who in AI this season. I was wowed by Elise Testone and Jessica Sanchez. O my God, at the end of this day I thank You most heartily for all the graces I have received from You. I am sorry that I have not made a better use of them. I am sorry for all the sins I have committed against You. Forgive me, O my God, and graciously protect me this night. Amen.
March 22, 2012
“So I turned about and gave my heart up to despair over all the toil of my labors under the sun” (Ecclesiastes 2:18-20). I have been contemplating on the perfection of divine character of Christ and that God demands we be perfect since the Sunday Bible study and on even how our noblest endeavors are sinful and only worthy of hell. When we fully come to term with this, one can abandon the foolishness of found in the theology of glory and look to the grace found in theology of the cross. Listened to episode 170 of the God Whisperers but there is a new posting, so I’m still 2 behind. Midweek sermon bonus, Pr Joshua Genig 4th Sunday of Lent Sermon Happy Birthday Jennifer, my youngest 18th of course I’m going to say, “It only seem like yesterday when I held her in my arms.” Reminiscing how different it was when I was young, we were steppin back in the day.
March 21, 2012
“For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out” (Romans 7:18). Woke up to this beautiful morning with joy in my heart to blessings revealed. The Voice: Battle Round 3. Had so much fun watching that battle between Pip Verses Nathan Perrett as well as the battle between Erin Martin and the Shield Brothers. Energized, 4 xb10s on the elliptical. Listen to Pr Bruzek Lent 2 and Pr Nelson Lent 4 encore sermons, sweet. Lord, I know nothing dwells in me and am agonizingly aware of my sins. Remind me of your gracious love and teach me to love as you love. Amen.
March 20, 2012
“The flowers appear on the earth, the time of singing has come, and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land” (Song of Solomon 2:12). Up early on the first day of spring. Fawn and I both had doctor appointments with Dr Rozner. We have been seeing his family practice since we got married and moved into town. Thanks be to God, everything seems to be going well and under control. For me, the adjustments to my recently new meds will hopefully correct the high protein levels. That only left me time to do 10 on the elliptical during the short lunch. Bill stopped by with his awesome Black & Decker Jumpstart with Inflator and helped me jump start the car and filled the tires. One can’t be blessed with a finer brother. Hopefully the battery is still good. I caught episode 178 0f the God Whisperers and am still behind by 2. The episode was on the dry Masses and Bible translations. Interesting yet sad, about a dry Mass, the piety of withholding of the weekly Eucharist is an abomination. How can one say thanks but no thanks to “Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him.”? I can go on shouting this from the mountain top to deaf ears I suppose. It never dawned on me before that the New Testament is written in Greek and yet Jesus possibly spoke in Aramaic, Hebrew and Greek. So we are most likely getting a translation of a translation in English. Dave drove by to pick me us for our governing board meeting. It’s always great to talk about family life and theology. I can’t help but to mention the weather again on the first day of spring. Everyone is talking about the sunny cloudless sky and the 85 ◦F temperature. For many and various reason, many people come to courts of the Lord’s house fill the pews and are receptive to hear the voice of God this time of year. Seems there is a correlation with spring, new life, and faith coming from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ. Amen.
March 19, 2012
The Jews then disputed among themselves, saying, “How can this man give us his flesh to eat?” So Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day. For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him. As the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on me, he also will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like the bread the fathers ate, and died. Whoever feeds on this bread will live forever” (John 6:52-58). Aah, so beautiful a sound, Bob Acri similar artist playlist on last.fm in the background all day in the background. Blown away by Bob Acri – Sleep Away, just had to add the youtube link. I once hear Joel Osteen say something about the foolishness wishing. Stop wishing I you can do this and wishing you can do. If you wish you can play a piano, you take lessons and practice. I thought to myself just being motive to do something doesn’t mean one can do it well. It’s a gift from God. Back to doing 4 x 10s on the elliptical. Wow, saw a 5 minute trailer for, Snow White and The Huntsman. Looks like a good one. I had a brief yet profitable conversation with dear and highly respected friend, who is a former Roman Catholic discerning over a tabernacle. It is a very sensitive topic because for Lutherans, the Eucharist is the most Holy Sacrament upon which Christ comes to us in a concrete way. Our parish takes to heart Christ’s very words, “Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him.” Not only do we gather around the Eucharist every Sunday at St John, our parish celebrates Mass almost every day of the year. We firmly believe the Eucharist is the very body and blood of out Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Without a tabernacle, all the blessed Eucharist is consumed. I’m failing to fully grasp the reasoning given against the use of a tabernacle. The desire to have the bread and wine consecrated in the Eucharist available for the sick and dying led to not consuming all of the Blessed Eucharist, a practice which has endured from the earliest days of the Christian Church but perhaps toss needlessly a side by many Lutherans. Saint Justin Martyr, writing less than fifty years after the death of Saint John the Apostle, mentions that “the deacons communicate each of those present, and carry away to the absent the consecrated Bread, and wine and water.” But the conversation, in the body of Christ, may be too sensitive to discern over in my parish in my lifetime. I came across a recent article about Iran that humbles the ordinary lives of Christians in our country. Prayers for the persecuted church, especially for Yousef Nadarkhani.
March 18, 2012
O God our God, grant us grace to desire you with a whole heart, so that desiring you we may seek and find you; and so finding you, may love you; and loving you may hate those sins which separate us from you, for the sake of Jesus Christ.— St Anselm Laetare Sunday, perfect all around day which start out with the stunning liturgical Rose Mass wore on Gaudete also. When I was first introduced to Taizé, I couldn’t stand and thought it was horrid. Since then I’ve learned it was because the blended music and service was confusing among other things. At St John, I’m struck by the intensity of the prayer. Massdomine desus filius patris, miserere nobis Lord God, Son of the Father, have mercy on us. Ah, music in the service of the gospel. Talk about preaching Christ crucified, the whole counsel of God, so that we are equipped to do good works. Just being in the courts of the Lord house and among his people is a true blessing. Our time and space between Mass and bible study in undeniably unique and joyful. It is clear in my mind that Sanctification is the work of God’s grace. Albeit set apart from justification it has everything to do with conforming to Christ’s righteousness. Another words, Faith in Jesus Christ does not set us free from good works, but sets us free from the presumption so seek our justification from our good works. Indeed, good works are necessary for salvation but not by works of righteousness. “For God so loved the world, he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. Jesus Christ and him crucified creates world where everyone matters. If we believe, true life, to be human, is to live a life that matter. I was stuck by a Norman Nagel quote, To neglect your church, your prayer, your Bible study, your devotions, is to tell God you have no desire to grow….that you are satisfied with being a weak and shaky Christian…How perilous such a person is slipping away from God.” Awesome day with the entire family. Alex baked some cupcakes to help us with a early Jennifer birthday celebration, since everyone was home. It was nice out so we played a little out front. I even briefly tossed a football with Rob. I always knew Andrea was good at baseball, but didn’t realize that Jennifer was good at it too. Strange, I never seem Alex play any other sport other than Tennis. I heard he can play badminton equally as well. Fawn plays tennis once in a blue moon. Weird that Fawn and I use to like going bowling and rollerblading and somehow just stop doing it all together. I use to have bees problems. Sigh, this year it’s wasps. Rob was very helpful and brave to climb up toward the roof to spay. LOL, started to say they were dropping like flies, how wrong is that? Need to go to Grainer to get more professional wasp and hornet spray.
March 17, 2012
Happy St Patrick’s Day. OK, last time I going to talk about the great weather, lower 80s. So what happen to spring? Great going out early out and about with Fawn running errands, windows down to a Super Target, Sam’s Club, Home Depot and gas, Sigh… $4.29/gal. Saw my sister Nancy working at Sam’s. Being out and walking a bit was amazing and carefree. It took my mind off things and was very relaxing. All is well with her and her family. The plan was to give the toilet a complete internal makeover. Fawn wasn't convinced it was a job I should be doing. So the honey do was limited to a new lever. That took care of the running water problem. No corn beef and cabbage, the request was for sausage and spinach pasta, yummy. Kicked that bad boy up a notch. Lord, on us poor miserable sinners. Remind us nothing is important in our lives unless it glorifies you. You are the light of the world. Help us find you in the darkness of our life. Guide us on our journey back to Eden. Amen.
March 16, 2012
It was a super day for the most part. The grass is green, plants are budding, and the birds are back. Spring is in the air, albeit it feels like late Mat already. What out and about briefly running a few errands and soaking in the awesome weather in the upper 70s. Bad boy; only did 10 in the elliptical. Hmm… University of Wisconsin did offer much in scholarship for Jennifer as we hoped for. So we are making plans to visit Loyola. The tuitions will be about the same since Loyola is offering a huge scholarship against a staggering tuition. I stunned the University of Illinois is so high. We can attend a neighboring state university like Wisconsin and Iowa cheaper. Fawn commented on how kind of Pr Genig to drop up a line. Albeit trying, about the uncertainty of the job. I'm in the same boat with most Americans in this poor economy. Much like death, we are so many heart beats away and not knowing the exact time only that it will certainly come to past. And with each pasting heartbeat, the reality becomes more certain eminent. I feel really good about my coding abilities in html and Java now. I really miss writing code and the creative challenges it offers. Interesting that this past week revealed that I really get into it and the time fly by so quickly. It consumed so much time that I sometime neglect my daily devotions among other things. 1 Corinthians 10:31, comes to mind when I think about everyday activities. “So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” Wow, this is really extraordinary. I’m stuck by the fact that life takes on special meaning in that everything we do is ordained by God in Coram deo though Christ the son and him crucified. Amen.
March 15, 2012
I’m keeping tabs on tabs; another duplicate day. The scrubs are budding the grass is turning green and bird are back. Slow progress in coding. Hard to believe how much has changed. The technology has advanced tremulously. Because of the, one would think it would be simplified, not so. Actually more complex and the tutorials are durst and not written very well. Too much is assumed. Did 4 x 10s on the elliptical. Soup and salad for dinner. Well that’s pretty healthy. Hearing American Idol in the background from the family room. Haven’t watched it at all this season. Perhaps I will when time allows. Way too many things going on. Lord, grant me wisdom and courage to reach out to as your instrument of comfort and encouragement to people in need. Amen.
March 14, 2012
Just when you think it can’t get much better, it hits the mid 70s and not a cloud in the sky. Things are'nt that pretty with test results findings. I’ll need to make an appointment to review the numbers and plan a course of action. Did 4 x 10s on the elliptical, and feeling pretty good. Hmmm… struggling playing with html/Perl and JavaScript examples.
March 13, 2012
Wow what a beautiful day. The sun is shining and the air is like spring. It was 67 and was forced to stop and briefly enjoy the gift of a beautiful day. Forgot to mention I did 10 on the elliptical yesterday. Back to doing 4 x 10s on the elliptical today. There is definitely is a correlation to my well being with exercise. Watched The Voice, Battle Round 2, awesome. All beautiful voices that sang from their soul, but there were some very clear knock outs and well as close bouts. Love this show but kind of sad not all the best singers advance to the live show. The beautiful day and all this battling, remind me that Christ already won the battle for us. We are to stay the course and not to allow Satan to claim the attention of our hearts. My day is complete. My heart leaps with joy with words from Pr Gening. What a blessing he and is family are. I’m envious that his congregation is blessed with not only a tabernacle but a votive stand to boot, good for them. I think it is painfully slow to move away from the status quo at St John. It requires much teaching to edify and bring back to the church much that was needlessly thrown out. I have been reading several crucifix icons since we been on the topic of ours the past several weeks. It is a joy that so many are engaged with questions and comments. I find it interesting that because the icons are written so differently about the passion of Christ, we all have different preferences. I think this account for the positive as well as less than positive reactions and criticisms toward our crucifix icon over the altar. I personally favor the rich symbolism found the San Damiano Crucifix. "Most High, Glorious God, enlighten the darkness of my mind, give me right faith, a firm hope and perfect charity, so that I may always and in all things act according to Your Holy Will. Amen." (Saint Francis's prayer before the San Damiano Crucifix)
March 12, 2012
“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal” (2 Corinthians 4:16-18). Having a Charlie Brown day. What in the world is going on? Seems like it’s been that way lately, everything was running smoothly and you put your best foot forward and then, the ball is snatch away, again. Ahhh… flat on your back frustrated and hurt. Why is everyone picking on me? Not easy to resist the urge to be bitter. Not proud that I snapped and barked. God of Grace and God of Glory was yesterday’s processional hymn. We prayed asking for wisdom and courage for the facing of the hour, the day, the kingdom goal and for serving the one we adore. Although doubts and fears exist and affect me, it doesn’t bind me. Lord, restore my sight, give me the wisdom to see all things in their proper light; neither making big that which is really insignificant and small, nor diminishing and disregarding the great things you send my way. Teach me to find your trace in all things, in every encounter, in every face, and to love everyone I meet along my brief life’s way, those who love me in return, and those who cause me pain. Amen.
March 11, 2012
I’m getting carried away always talking about the wonderful weather we have been getting. I made it to the mid 60s and promising to hit 70 tomorrow. The day started out with the weekly Mass and another awesome bible study on the icons. Lutherans, at least in the NID are vaguely familiar with Icons, there were tons of questions. What a joy it is for me and my family to learn about our about our holy space. It has so much to tell about the Holy Trinity, the Incarnation, the sacramental life and embodying Christ in the world. Hmmm… is Jean has gone back to the later service. It was a joy to worship with her, Adam and Bob. Thanks be to God, Nancy shared the good news about receiving her negative biopsy report for cancer. There are spiritual implications for Christians to participate in Ching Ming rituals, but it seems like many Chinese Christians have little to no issue with it and remarkably these rituals do not violate their conscience. It’s really creepy when Chinese shepherds integrate and transform pagan festivals as acceptable forms of respect on one cultural heritage. Funny how Fawn and I unknowingly handed down what seemingly appears to some as a Germanic heritage to our children. We had no choice in the matter. After all, Jesus is Lutheran. If it weren’t so, I wouldn’t be.
March 10, 2012
Wow, what a warm up, into the 60s. Definitely having some crazy weather swings. Fawn and I was out of the house by 8:30 out and about doing errands. Meijer, American Best, Bath and Beyond, Costco, IKEA, Marshals and finally T J Max. Fawn said that didn’t count as a walk, so I did 2 x 10s on the elliptical to boot. I did so research in addition to what Pr Bruzek has already taught us on Post Modern Christian. Fawn’s brother Henry stopped by for a brief visit, dropping off freshly brew ginseng. We don’t get to see him often enough. Seems to me how strange is for companies to just tell people to uproot themselves or face being terminated. Corporate leaders are so indifferent and appear to be godless people. It’s easier for me to look someone in the eye and speak fearlessly with candor as well as pen my feelings than it is for most people. I realize that why my opportunities past by me.
March 9, 2012
So many people let go and hearing most have yet to find work. The few that have found work had to move to Texas and Atlanta, earning a fraction. I see that gas prices are climbing again, well over four dollars a gallon. What is one to do? It was busy all week, but I still managed to get in 2 x 10s after relaxing at the end of day with the movie Real Steel. Nothing profound, just fighting robots. I had no high expectation but to relax to a transformer type of movie. I thought it was much better. LOL, I did expect the underdog robot kid’s robot to actually win. I was surprise Nancy didn’t get her biopsy test results back yet. Prayers for her and for the unemployed and underemployed.
March 8, 2012
“For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death. For see what earnestness this godly grief has produced in you, but also what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what fear, what longing, what zeal, what punishment! At every point you have proved yourselves innocent in the matter” (2 Corinthians 7:10-11). Feeling better, both physically and mentally, so I did 2 x 10 on the elliptical. Goofing off on some HTML, just to brush up on my web skills. Was pondering over what Pr Bruzek have been talking about on hospitality in a postmodern age. I think it is a natural progression after much time reflecting and concludes sorrowful repentance as a sovereignly bestowed gift of God. I hope to pen something on this over the weekend.
March 7, 2012
Mid 60s, insane. Time to rethink global warming or just enjoy it? Work up this morning so stiff and aching all over. Intending to make this quick and off to bed. Have my sister Nancy on my thoughts and prayers. She got the second biopsy sample, this time from the hip. Made my beef, tomato pepper dish, just the way I like it, but it was a bad idea to try to mix brown rice with white rice. Candor runs in our family veins. I took a beating. The white turn out mushy white the brown was still hard, oh well.
March 6, 2012
The day was the bomb, made it all the way up to the lower 60s. Did 2 x10 on the elliptical before going on a walk with Fawn in the neighborhood. I’m glad we started out forging toward the strong warm southerly wind because it made the way back a breeze, no pun intended. Watched The Voice Battle Round , it was an awesome show. I felt bad for the ones that were sent home. Not that it was tall the close, but that they all can sing well. My favorite duet was Monique Benabou vs. Chris Mann, “The Power of Love” and the closest battle was Anthony Evans vs. Jesse Campbell, “If I Ain't Got You”. Wow, wow, wow, two powerhouse singers. In the still of the night, inviting and surrendering to and with God’s presence and quite in prayer. Amen Pr Bruzek.
March 5, 2012
Busy, busy, busy, and lost track of time playing with HTML and Visio. Did 3 x10s on the elliptical though. Tire and calling it a day...
March 4, 2012
It was an all round good day. Not sure why I haven’t use that beautiful coin word trifecta, by Dave in while. Word and Sacraments with an awesome bible study to boot. Not to mention the music. The blessings of the Mass were savored over lunch in joyful thanksgiving. Specking about lunch, it was beef and bitter melon. Awesome dish, but requires an acquired taste for most. Always a blessing whenever Andrea and Rob come share part of the day with us. Fun time over solving a few good tough riddles. Naturally, I was humble about how smart I am. I surprised myself and didn’t realize I had it in me to do 2 x 20s on the elliptical. Thinking Fawn doing 25 on the elliptical yesterday and today had something to do with it. I can hardly wait for better weather, suitable to do our most enjoyable walk and talks. Obama: Pastor-in-chief young Genig has a flair for words.
March 3, 2012
Woke up this morning with a taste for Dim Sum. So Fawn Bill and I went to the city to the Chinese bakery. A trip to the city is naturally incomplete without a stop by the infamous Lawrence’s Fisheries. Was musing more on the gruesome punishment place on Christ for our sins on Good Friday. This brings me back to my daughter Andrea’s wedding where processional hymn was Lift Up the Cross, which we will sing tomorrow. Andrea was right, this hymns is indeed a great and fitting responsive hymn of prayer to God’s love. The cross of Christ tells the story of his stunning sacrifice and his glorious victory over sin and death. Pausing this Lent to reflect reminds and encourages me to daily lift up the cross for all the world to see, so that all might come and adore Christ the victorious King. Behold, O Kind and most sweet Jesus, before Thy face I humbly kneel, and with the most fervent desire of soul, I pray and beseech Thee to impress upon my heart lively sentiments of faith, hope and charity, true contrition for my sins and a firm purpose of amendment. With deep affection and grief of soul, I ponder within myself, mentally contemplating Thy five wounds, having before my eyes the words which David the Prophet spoke concerning Thee: "They have pierced my hands and my feet, they have numbered all my bones." Amen.
March 2, 2012
Baby boomer living, it’s the last of the oatmeal. The daily norm is cold cereal, but I confess the love put in a bowl of piping hot cereal is a treasure and truly a remarkable standby on chilly mornings. Happy Friday was on my mind from the get go. Then it led to thoughts of Good Friday. Started to say what the Jewish and Roman authorizes did to Jesus was definitely not Good. But the fact of the matter is we all nailed him to the cross. “but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us” (Romans 5:8). This is “good” thus Good Friday? Maybe? Work for me. 2 x 10s and 1 x 15s on the elliptical.
February 28, 2012
In God's beauty, all the earth is sanctified. Tree and stone, wood and paint have glory In His beauty. Creation is transformed; The fallen is made holy. And man, beholding Beauty's vision, Shares His life. I enjoyed an icon slideshow they are very helpful for me in my prayer life. 3 x 10s and 1 x 15s on the elliptical, perfect. Went of my annual eye exams and my eyes are healthy. Lord, thank you for the gift of sight that enable me see the wonder of your creations and for the Christ in me to see beyond my sight. Amen. Chillin Barbra Streisand - Evergreen
February 28, 2012
“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit” (2 Corinthians 3:18). February coming to an end? It was a mild spring like day in the upper 50s and sunny, unbelievable. The wind has really picked up and is howling as I starting this entry. Determined, and did 2x 10s and 2 x 15s on the elliptical. I wasn’t easy, thinking kicking it up a notch might not have been such a good idea. Let’s see how I feel tomorrow. Thanks be to God, Nancy’s biopsy report came back negative. I am blessed to have strong women of faith in my life. What distinguishes them is their continued prayerful obedience to the gospel of Christ and not dwell in their infirmities but are able to glory in them. The fruits of their lips bring praise and glory to God. More joyous news, our neighbor, the Jones, the oldest daughter Ashley is engaged to be married this June. One can’t ask for better neighbors. We have been neighbors as well as good friends for 20+ years.
February 28, 2012
Whew, fighter fighting is no fun. I was so relieved when the work day concluded. It’s really no fun being under the gun like that. It’s always like that when the Lead engineer is on vacation and your tossed in the middle of the frying pan. No glory to man, but glory to God. The Glory we should be seeking is the Glory of God. It doesn’t surprise me anymore the displays that are given to church workers in my former parish. Let’s not seek the glory of any man above Jesus Christ, his church and the gospel are not part of any tradition. Glad to be routinely doing 4 x 10s on the elliptical.
February 27, 2012
Father of love, source of all blessings, help me to pass from my old life of sin to the new life of grace. Prepare me for the glory of Your Kingdom. I ask this through our Lord Jesus Christ, Your Son, Who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever. Amen. Up early and went with Fawn to the imaging center on route 59 to get a bone baseline. Every time I dive down 59, I am struck by the sheer daunting size of the enormous mega-church attract thousands and thousands of people each week.. I only know little about the mega-church concept. Don’t know why I even bother to part of their 45 minute podcast. It was as I expected. It took me a while, but I’m glad I finally got a chance to visit Heidelberg again through The God Whisperers. Hmm… Flarp, talk about digressing as well as reverting. Now I’m not so sure about hanging with these learned guys, perhaps not a match. I’m so glad to hear from Nancy, she remains in good spirit, trusting in our Lord. She went in for the same abdominal biopsy procedure as our sister Mary and expect to have the results back on Wednesday. Lord, hear our persistence petition for negative test results. Amen. Yeah baby, 4 x 10s on the elliptical, now that’s what I’m talking about. Back on track.
February 26, 2012
Lord, you alone are worthy of all worship and praise. You shower us with your grace in word and sacrament. Comfort us, O Lord on this day of rest. Amen. Smells, Bells, and Other Liturgical Odds and Ends; reverence toward holy and sacred be it times, things or places. All things teach from generation to generation. Sunday Mass is the highlight of my week. Our Lord calls us to, “Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy” (Exodus 20:8). Interesting thing about the proper distinction between law and gospel in that the law condemns; the Gospel saves. Law is strange word to use in a Father and child relationship. As a parent, out of love, I taught my children to do this and not that because it is good for them. Lord, grant us grace so that we are enlightened by your word and live in accordance in it and to die happily believing in it for we are ashes and dust and dependent on you word and sacraments. Ongoing prayers of comfort by name listed in our prayers in Life Together and my sister Nancy. Hmmm… 2 x 10s on the elliptical, get with it man … self admonishment?
February 25, 2012
Loving creator, I am not asking to overcome my weakness, but to use it in some way to glorify you. Let me be aware of the many ways you reach out to help me today and let me stand in awe of the power that you use in such loving ways. Amen. I have been pondering on the question, “Are good works necessary for salvation?” for quite some time. Like most Lutheran, it was a resounding no, pointing is Sola Fide. So naturally I was stunned to learn that good works are absolutely are necessary for salvation. In his, Preface to the Letter of St. Paul to the Romans, Luther states, “Faith is a work of God in us, which changes us and brings us to birth anew from God (cf. John 1). It kills the old Adam, makes us completely different people in heart, mind, senses, and all our powers, and brings the Holy Spirit with it. What a living, creative, active powerful thing is faith! It is impossible that faith ever stop doing good. Faith doesn't ask whether good works are to be done, but, before it is asked, it has done them. It is always active. Whoever doesn't do such works is without faith; he gropes and searches about him for faith and good works but doesn't know what faith or good works are. Even so, he chatters on with a great many words about faith and good works.” Outwardly acts of mercies show that there is faith, just as fruit shows s tree to be good. Matthew 25, The Final Judgment, often comes to mind. Just to be clear, by grace, we have peace and have been justified with God though faith though our Lord Jesus Christ. Good works are the fruits of the Christ that is in us and not of our own doing. I was listening to the Pr Nelson’s brilliant Transfiguration encore sermon on line while reading a Transformation Icon. Clearly in our worship I am mistaken to even think at one time, Shine Jesus Shine even has a place in liturgical worship. Amazing, good for me, I still did 4 x 10s on the elliptical even with all the running around about town doing a long list errands, post office, shopping at Walmart, Target and Kolhs for what nots. There is hope for physical transformation if I can keep this up. Losing only 10 pounds in 6 months wasn’t a good showing. I have noticed that my tongue is much tamer. Jesus teaches us, “it is not what goes into the mouth that defiles a person, but what comes out of the mouth; this defiles a person” (Matthew 15:11). I’ve done my share of using hash words and come to realize afterwards my foolish behavior in breaking ones spirit. Set a guard, O LORD, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips! (Psalm 141:3). Amen. Prayers for my sister Nancy for negative biopsy test results. She will undergo the procedure either on Monday or Tuesday. Lord Jesus, in your Holy Name, be merciful; destroy all cancer cells and bring negative biopsy results. Take all of Nancy’s anxieties and comfort her. Amen.
February 24, 2012
Only got a little over an inch of snow in my neck of the woods, but it was wet and quite heavy. Despite the huffing and puffing, I still did 4 x 10 on the elliptical and was full of energy all day long. Lord, the realization of imminent death and returning to dust; I turn to the goal of increasing my regular exercise to improve my physical health to possess more physical energy to devote to spiritual goals. Inspire me to increase my level of exercise and stick with my renew enthusiasm, O lord, that I may be healthy in body, mind and spirit to the glory of your holy name. Amen. Finally posted On Ash Wednesday I’m still wowed by God’s beauty, the blessing of that Mass was incredible. Can’t wait for Jennifer to get back tomorrow, hoping she is having fun competing at state and will fare well. No class tomorrow morning, hmm…
February 23, 2012
The day is almost over. Lord be with me; forgive all that I have done that displeases you and allow me to rest in your grace. Amen. I excited for yet apprehensive she is competing in state after taking 1st place in regional in high school business competitions. Lord, protect Jennifer by your grace and let your holy angels be with her. Amen. Chillin with The Voice blind auditions part 4. I really like this show. I was inspired to do 4 x 10s on the elliptical after reading a snippet of a women transformed after a stunningly shedding 364 pounds. I was struck by Rev Weedon’s prophetic words, “There is nothing worth comparing to this life-long comfort sure; Open eyed my grave is staring; even there I’ll sleep secure. Though my flesh awaits its raising, still my soul continues praising: I am baptized into Christ, I’m a child of paradise.” I spent a little time typing the brilliant welcome on our Ash Wednesday worship folder and hope to post it by this weekend on blogger. Was truly blessed by President Harrison share Lenten blessing on YouTube. Heavenly Father, you have given Pr Bruzek and Nelson enormous responsibilities that would overwhelm most when you called Pr Genig to your church in Atlanta. Let your son Christ Jesus live through them for our benefit. Preserve in them your strength that they may serve our community with patience, wisdom, love and joy. Amen.
February 22, 2012
In the still of the night, my mind is racing from the Mass for Ash Wednesday. I hardly know where to being, so prayer is always good then allow my stream of conscience to flow. Lord, in your goodness and great compassion, blot out my iniquities. Amen. Fawn made her infamous pasta sauce. It was meatless today, but awesome as always. Glad I was able to do 2 x10s on the elliptical. Were pretty sure were going to lock Jennifer in to the University of Wisconsin at Madison. We were going to look at Circle and Loyola in Chicago, but decided against it. I was born and raised in the city and am familiar with the dark side of the city. Crazy that all my sibling and I couldn't wait to get out, and now all kids move in the city. Lent is a time for repentance, acts of mercy and prayers. Lord, grant that we focus on this ancient season of special devotion that it will become habitual. Amen. Repentance is more than confessing our wrong doings. It includes turning away from sin and turning to God for forgiveness. I wonder if there is such a thin as free will. Some say you have free will outside of Christ. But I wonder, is such a thing as free will at all? There are many references that call for us to repent. Oddly enough, as good Lutheran, Jesus does the verb, so it does not surprise me that, if in fact it is God who repents us. We don’t have the will on our own to even consider the notion of repentance. To this day I still don’t get my side of the family. They are either evangelicals of pagans. So they all don’t observe Ash Wednesday and joke about giving up chewing gum or candy. How about giving up our sinful bad habits? My son-in-law Rob got it right, I learned from his wisdom on Sunday. I agree with them that the bible does not mention the custom of Lent, but they remain blind to the fact the practice of repentance and mourning in ashes is biblical and found in 2 Samuel 13, Ester 4, Job 2, Daniel 9 and Matthew 11. I read the Welcome on the worship folder. Pr Bruzek is brilliant and I’ll need to post that in blogger tomorrow as, On Ash Wednesday. I was humbled that Ted asked me about my blogging and was interested in reading it. Just the thought that people are remotely interested in something the likes of me would have to say sends shivers up my spine. Dave mentioned to Ted that I often mention St John. Well of course I do. I rejoice in the hilltop the Lord has gather my family. I have Psalm 27 written all over me in that, “One thing have I asked of the LORD, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to inquire in his temple” (Psalm 27:4). I getting a little long winded, so I wrap it and pen how amazing the Mass was and to have the privilege to service the best community to be in. The Mass was full blast worship, one prayer after another and the imposition of the ashes. Cantor Peter and Kantor Mueller, along with the SJ Kantorei and the SJ Winds & Strings, the music was outstanding. Lord, create in me a clean and contrite heart that I may obtain you. Send your holy angels to guard me this night from the evil foe. Amen.
February 21, 2012
Thinking how odd it was for me to say in February, “unbelievable, it snowed.” It’s just that it has been an incredibly mild winter. The gloom and doom overcastted brought back the reality that it is still winter. I gave myself an energy boost doing 4 x 10s on the elliptical, good for me! Often times we talk about beauty and the sight of Christ’s beauty at church. Looking for beauty in everything, Claude Debussy - The Girl With the Flaxen Hair I guess I like it because it is impressionistic and fire up the imagination of the listener. I seen may Icons and stained glass of Christ and of the Trinity and prefer them over the paintings of a Jesus or even Michelangelo’s depiction of God. That is certainly not to take anything away from them. Posted the handout on the Eucharist t via blogger; Larry’s World link. Car pooled with Dave to GB meeting. I really enjoy riding and shooting the breeze with him family and life in general. We have a lot in common and we can to talk openly on just about anything. “As in water face reflects face, so the heart of man reflects the man” (Proverbs 27:19). This all plays out in world as, one can see their own reflection in the mirror, but what he is really like is shown by the kind of friends he chooses. O heavenly Father, bless our thoughts and our sharing of them, that we may have wisdom. Amen.
February 20, 2012
Lord, in this holy season, lead us to sincere repentance. Help us remember we are poor miserable sinners and remember the grace of your loving mercy. Amen. I’m already thinking about the imposition of the ashes and why receive the ashes on our foreheads. It is a reminder to us whose mark we bear as members of the body of Christ as well as an outward proclamation of sorrowful repentance and faith in the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ for our eternal salvation. It is help to remind us we are mortal beings. “…you are dust, and to dust you shall return” (Genesis 3:19). We need this Lenten season to renew our sense of who we really are before God. It is so easy to habits of sinful thinking and living that are contrary to Eucharistic life before the face of God. Feeling super did 2 x 10s on the elliptical. Lord, grant me a peaceful hearth and quirt rest. Amen.
February 19, 2012
Oculi nostril ad Dominum Deum, Our eyes are on the Lord our God. The Mass is always beautiful, today was exceptionally so. We celebrated The Transfiguration of Our Lord. Out of Zion, the perfection of beauty, God shines forth (Psalm 50:2). The music was exceptional; the ensemble consisted of Lumdamus, SJ Choir and SJ Brass. The Nave was filled with bold voices, proclaiming Jesus is Lord. The recessional hymn, Farewell to Alleluia took my breath away. Andrea and Rob bring with them extra joy when they come down and join us in worship. Jean’s Bob has been joining us regularly for some time. Today was an indication that things are become very serious. We all joined them at The House of Emperor restaurant as Jean introduction Bob to her mother. Everything went joyfully well. The kids naturally went out to play tennis and toss a footfall in the continued outstanding spring like weather. As for me, I still fail to convince Fawn to participate in the experimental kissing exercise outlined by Pr Bruzek for my learning benefit. I venerate the most pure image found in the Icon and worship God alone. We read the 15th century Russian icon of the Transfiguration, in bible study. I view icons as a window back to Eden and as well a window out of the valley of tears for believers. O God, who on the holy mount dist reveal to chosen witnesses thy well-beloved Son, wonderfully transfigured, in raiment white and glistening: mercifully grant that we, being delivered from the disquietude of this world, may by faith behold the King in his beauty; who with three, O Father, and thee, O Holy Ghost, liveth and reigneth, one God, world without end. Amen.
February 18, 2012
Awesome day, it started with the last catechumnate class and the next to start in the fall. What a turnout, with many parishioners coming out to bless them and to simply love them. Indeed, we would love to have them join us in our jouney back to Eden. Hoping to get an ecopy of something Heri Nouwen penned on the Eucharist to post on Larry’s World I found out about why Farewell to Alleluias during the penitential season of Lent. The church has high and low seasons. The alleluias are a participation of the angel’s worship where we join in with all the host of heaven in laud and magnifying God’s glorious name in the Sanctus. Pr Bruzek mentions the Mass with changes during our Lenten exile. I assume that the farewell to alleluias from the Mass we won’t among other things sing with angles and archangels and the company of heaven and will focus on acknowledging our sin and repenting on them. And after the biblical 40 days, we may again be privileged to worship God as the angels do. Ah, the Liturgy, that acknowledges the amazing gifts that our Lordgives us and we receive them in gratitude. I found great joy to bond with my sister-in-law Jean after class. We talked about the common joy we share in Christ. Jean shared, with misty eyes, of how special Fawn and her godmother’s faithfulness in Christ influence her. I had the honor and privilege to meet the sainted late Mrs. Heimsoth. I actually know my nephew Adam much better than his older brother Airic. The fallout from sin is never pretty. I wish I would have handled it better. I just didn’t know how back then or even now given the same circumstances. After the class I went out to lunch with my brother Bill. We had a great time catching up. Really, ESPN? ‘Chink in the Armor’? Yes, I do understand what a chink in the armor is, but as a headline with the picture of Jeremy Lin? It is almost impossible to give the writer and editor the benefit of the doubt and put the best construction on it. Sigh… Maybe I can redirect stupid and point this out t Fawn. Oh wow, the movie, The Mission. A must see powerhouse movie of beauty and compassion. Got to love the buck a movie rental, from the Naperville library. The Help. It was a movie the ladies SALT group went to on their night out on the town. Anyway, it’s going to be double feature night… In our sorrows and in our rejoice, we call until you O Lord. Amen.
February 17, 2012
"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice!" (Phil. 4:4). Last night, I had a brief by conversation with Dave about death and dying and joy in the mist death. I mused more on the joy in my life. And rejoice in the joy found in the gifts of friends and family and marriage and children. I even ponder on the joy found in the aftermath of our sorrow of darkness. There special joy being among the catechumens. Came across Genig Sermons on youtube. Another blessing. What can I say about the beautiful day? It was bright and 54◦F. It won’t be much longer when I will be waking to the sunlight; the days are starting earlier and setting later. Neil Peart - Drum Solo - Rush 30th Anniversary he can play! Have I ever mention I like drums? Managed to get in 10 on the elliptical, what happen to trying to put in more time? This was a long evening on committee hearing video, Lines Crossed: Separation of Church and State - Part 1 Has Obama Administration Trampled on Religion and Freedom of Conscience? Absolutely. I don’t know what the second panel will say, but I seen and heard enough. I think Pr Harrison statement and responds to queries was outstanding and reflect well with the Lutheran doctrine of the two kingdoms. Lord, guide and bless our national leaders who have been sent by the people and ordained by you, to manage this great nation. Grant them your wisdom so that their decisions direct us to your will. Amen.
February 16, 2012
Dang dude, Baard Kolstad - DRUM SOLO. Love the sound of drums. Good and bad news, Thanks be to God, I got another extension to the end of May. The bad news is some fare well and their last day is at the end of the month. Prayers for the Unemployed and underemployed; especially Bill, Ken and Danna. Lord, bring joy, take the hands of your servant and use them for the work for the good of the world and the glory of your name. Listen to The Voice: audition 3, Pip Andrew and Jordis Unga have an awesome voice and Erin Martin was very entertaining, she has a contagious smile. Dave told me the good news about the birth of yet and Genig girl, Rose Marie? The name sounds familiar. Indeed, “Every good and perfect gift is from above…” (James 1:17). We also muse over the tabernacle. I think Pr Bruzek did a good job talking about it in his bible study. Sadly, only did 10 on the elliptical. Continued prayer for Rev Weedon as he prayerul considers work at the synodical level.
February 15, 2012
Ah, listening to Iguzu Falls The Mission Soundtrack as I start his journal entry. LOL, I can’t help but to look at it full screen. Glad I have dual monitors. It reminds me of Nigeria Falls albeit it is nowhere as majestic as the Iguzu Falls, but Fawn and I held hands as young couples enjoying the beauty of God’s creation. Lord, we join with all creation in proclaiming your glory. Amen. Hard to believe all the different doctors Fawn has to see on a regular basis, all thoughtfully watching over her. Jennifer’s other brace came in via UPS. I hope the support will prevent injuries while she strive to strength her knee. It worked well for her other leg. It is fun getting to doing something new for a change. I’m testing software for a new tool. Managed to get in 2 x10s on the elliptical. Well the music ended so time to call it a day...
February 14, 2012
episode 176: Heidelberg disputation theses 9-13 on The God Whisperers. Need I say more? Dead works, moral sins, arrogance, fear and faith. I’m saving the series on my desktop and will preserve it on this site on a later date. Sad to hear that Rick's grandfather pasted away yesterday. May his family be comforted in knowing the he is in the arms of our Lord. Hmmm… only had time to do 10 on the elliptical. Thanks Dave, wowed by the beauty of God in Iguzu Falls The Mission Soundtrack A nice way to end the day ...
February 12-13, 2012
I’ve come to realize spending time arguing with the foolish such a wasting of time. There are so many heartbeats left. The idiom is, there are bigger fish to fry. Better just to share the goodness of the understanding of Eucharistic faith. Albeit, I’ve only been to the daily office of the Eucharist about a dozen or so time. The celebration of the Eucharist is indeed available and about 50 parishioners regularly attend. But I do attend the weekly mass on the Lord’s Day. Yesterday was no different than any given Sunday. "My Lord and my God, since I cannot now receive you sacramentally, come into my heart spiritually and abide in me now and for all eternity". Wow Adele back strong singing, Rolling in the Deep, at the Gammy and walking home with 6 award. Paul McCarthy voice is remarkably still hold up and sound good as ever. I went to the doctor office and the results was a mixed bad good that my number have improved and I lost 10 pounds from my last visit, 6 months ago. But I need to watch what I eat more carefully; my blood pressure is up. Did 2 x 10s on the elliptical. I saw on Weed’s blog the Rev Weedon is considering a call to serve as Synod's Director of Worship and Chaplain of the Synod’s International Center. I think the only question he needs to answer to calling is he a parish priest or not. The call process is perplexing in the LCMS. A pastor is call to be a parish priest through the congregation. But who or how does one calls one to be a Director or Worship/Chaplin? This brought back painful memories to see our learned and highly loved associated pastor leave our community to assume the office of Senior Pastor. It left a huge gaping hole to fill with the bar set so high on the vacancy. This leads to an interesting question. A pastor is call to be a parish priest through the congregation. Who or how does one calls one to be a Director or Worship/Chaplin?
February 11, 2012
Chillin' with Adele was the bomb last night. I really enjoy her voice. I was wondering about the cold winter. Well this morning it was in the single digit and stayed that way throughout the day. The sunny bright sky is so deceptive. The car windshield required a little muscle to scrape off the thick frost. Fawn and I was blessed at the morning bible class. The class was larger than normal with parishioners attending the class and blessing the catechumens. Fawn and I have been going from table to table each week, welcoming all the soon to be new congregational members. This week was interesting in that someone was curious why I left my former parish. I answer truthfully. Surprisingly enough, one of the catechumens new to area has visited that parish for a month and thought I was kind in words. It didn’t matter and we thought it better to rejoice in the hilltop where our Lord has gathered us rather than to worry about the different kinds of Christians. Talk about different type of Christians, sigh... saw the work of a person who wrote a "contemporary Icon" that reads like an animated god made in the image of the world. This offensive cartoon would most like be able to sell it as a t-shirt at some funky youth gathering. In great contrast, I ran across some really nice Christian art work that brings about the glory of God many years ago. A few years ago it was a honor and privilege to shake the hand of this talented artist, Tom duBois. I met him on at St John at the Christmas Eve Mass a few years ago. He is a close friend of my dear friend Dave who have done a beautiful stain glass in my former parish and his art work can be found in Christian publications. What a small world. I often surf the web for art. Today I enjoyed looking at images associated with the Presentation of Jesus. Lord, keep and bless Pr Bruzek and Nelson who prepares to administer and receives your holy gifts. Amen. We wrapped up the study on the Eucharist and Pr Bruzek never ceases to amaze me. The study was based off of 1 Corinthians 10 and 11. The spoke about what the Eucharist is and is not. Lord, grant us faithfulness to the end. Amen. Just imagine when it comes times to stand before our Lord. In his final judgment, Matthew 25, one of 2 things will happen. The first possibility is, the Lord will to come and thank us for feeding him when he was hungry, giving him something to drink when he was thirsty, clothe when he was naked, visited him when he was sick or in prison. The latter is to tell us to depart from him. Lord, in your mercy, renew all those who are withering in the faith or has fallen away. Amen. I extremely love it when Carl and Sandy come down for a visit. Little Zachery is without his helmet now and is so handsome and full of smiles. Today was truly an enjoyable day that I spent the entire day with Fawn as though we were a young couple. As much as I love my children, it is great to have children that are old enough to be independent. Hard to believe my oldest, Andrea is married. Rob and she bring me much joy. The Magnificat come to mind, “And his mercy is for those who fear him from generation to generation” (Luke 1:50). Lord, grant us receptive hearths and mind on the Lord’s Day. Amen.
February 10, 2012
Grant, we pray, almighty God, that your faithful may resolve to run forth with righteous deeds, to meet your Christ who is coming, so that gathered at his right hand they may be worthy to possess the heavenly kingdom. Did 4 x 10s on the elliptical and feeling so much better. Why then, don’t I do it daily? I really snowed heavy but amazingly not much of it accumulated. Talk with Tim about astronomy; well actually he did most of the talking. I know very little about it and just listen to him sharing his joy. I was blessed with the imagery of God’s glory, Conditor Alme Siderum and share that with him. Hmmm... ended washing the dishes twice today. Fawn try to pull a fast one by telling me I didn't do the dishes after lunch. Funny lady. I did them after dinner just to amuse her. Nice peaceful time listening to Episode 175: Heidelberg Disputation (part 2) Theses 5 and 6. Wow, wow, wow, confessing the sins of our good works is the only way we can present them. Hearing Mrs. Miller always leaves me speechless and the funny thing about that really bad bear joke is that I couldn’t wait to share it. I look forward to the remaining episodes on the Heidelberg Disputation. Just going to relax listening to Live from the Artist Den Adele …
February 9, 2012
One thing have I asked of the LORD, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to inquire in his temple (Psalm 27:4). I was contemplating God’s beauty. Beholding the beauty of the Lord is stress in everything we do at St John. So people, in their ignorance, think of beauty as mere decoration a waste of money and nothing more. But if we look at creation, it is filled with unmatched beauty. Mere decorations? Everything teaches. God’s beauty is in his glory, where our hearts are touched and transformed to reflect his image. Got off my butt and did 2 x 10s on the elliptical. I’m already wishing it was the weekend. Almighty, eternal, just, and merciful God, grant to us miserable ones the grace to do for you what we know you want us to do. Give us always to desire what pleases you. Inwardly cleansed, interiorly illumined and enflamed with the fire of the Holy Spirit, may we be able to follow in the footprints of your beloved Son, our Lord Jesus Christ, and attain to you, Most High, by your grace alone, who in perfect Trinity and simple Unity lives and reigns and is glorified as God almighty, forever and ever. Amen.
February 8, 2012
Behold, the Christ in me, beholds the Christ in you. Brrr… its cold outside. Spoiled for sure, because it was in the lower 30s, this is normal for this time of year. I actually can’t remember it even got into the single digits or below, got to be the warmest winter in recent history. Never fails there was issues with my W2 that needed corrections. Bought and installed the tax software. I’m always fascinated by all the changes to the tax laws. One can never get a break. Every time this year I strive to keep my conscience clear before God and man. Living in two kingdoms is really strange. We live in nation, by the grace of God, that that the governing are ourselves, and not a Caesar. And it doesn’t recognize a higher authority. This is quite different then living in Eden. LOL, call me Rodney Dangerfield, walked away for a brief moment, and my prankster wife type in, “Blah, blah, blah…” Hmmm, penning worthless and inconsequential words? I mused about the tongue in the past. Jesus said, “I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned” (Matthew 12:36,37). And St Paul said, “Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption” (Ephesians 4:29,30). So the bar is set high when we talk to each other. Do your words build up or destroy? When we meet new people in church, even small talk will be judged by God for its intentions. Is the conversation a way to say, I care about you and want to get to know you better or is it intentionally light because I don’t know you and want to keep it that way? Lord, let us be mindful that you are in everyone; grant that we be insightful and more caring and compassionate. Amen.
February 7, 2012
Fawn and I gleamed with pride over Jennifer’s knowledge of the history of the Reformation. I recall her interest at a very early age of claiming her Lutheran heritage. Made beef, tomatoes and peppers over rice, it’s a wonderful dish, but the second helping put me to sleep. I dosed off for several hours after a mere moment on the recliner. Got good news, Zach is no longer kingpin. Thanks be to God, he doesn’t require to wear a helmet any longer. I was surprise but guess I shouldn’t been when I spoke about running the race and enduring to the end. My Lord, I offer Thee myself in turn as a sacrifice of thanksgiving. Thou hast died for me, and I in turn make myself over to Thee. I am not my own. Thou hast bought me; I will by my own act and deed complete the purchase. My wish is to be separated from everything of this world; to cleanse myself simply from sin; to put away from me even what is innocent, if used for its own sake, and not for Thine. I put away reputation and honor, and influence, and power, for my praise and strength shall be in Thee. Enable me to carry on what I profess. Amen.
February 6, 2012
Ah, well rested after a solid night sleep. Did 2 x 10 on the elliptical. The work day went busy fast. Wish it like that all the time. No time for foolishness. Was thinking about Pr Genig so I googled him and found his pen on the Christian Leadership Center; The Sacramentality of Preaching and 2 Epiphany (15 Jan 2012), from the University of Mary. Who said there isn’t good Lutheran writing on the internet? Not all Lutherans are angry people.
February 5, 2012
Joy, 2 infant baptisms today! Bible study on the tabernacle and Icons was so rewarding. Buffalo wings and Nachos, not the best dinner, but went great with Super Bowl XLVI. I’m not on sports but cheered along with Andrea for the Patriots. It was an exciting game where the Giants edge the Patriots 21-17. I’m not a Madonna fan, but have to admit she reign at the halftime show. It was the best halftime show in a very longtime. I truly had a great time bonding with Rob. Well, Alex make it home from his weekend out of town trip and it is great to see that he had a great time and refreshed. Tire now so ...
February 4, 2012
Aren’t weekends the best? Fawn and I blessed the catechumens as well as were by them. Pastor Bruezek asked and was grateful for any prayers for him. Prayers for him and Pr Nelson are very important. Their service to God in watching over us draws non ceasing attacks from the evil foe. The bible study this morning was on the Eucharist. The Eucharist is all about God’s life given in Jesus Christ to be our life. It is all about God’s Spirit, the Spirit of Jesus, now to be our breath of life. As we eat and drink, we become walking shrines, living temples, in whom the living tribune God truly dwells. And if this scary thought should us take our fellow Christians more seriously as what they really are, it should also make us take more seriously the tasks to which the living God calls us within this world. We cannot worship the suffering God today and ignore him tomorrow. We cannot eat and drink the body and blood of the passionate and compassionate God today, and then refuse to live passionately and compassionately tomorrow. If we say or sing, as we often do, ‘Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit’, we thereby commit ourselves, in love, to the work of making his love known to the whole world that still stands so sorely in need of it. This is not the God the world wants. This is the God the world needs. - N. T. Wright, For All God’s Worth, pp. 31-32. Walk and walk seeming forever, until the mall seem like a postage stamp. I got encouragement for Jennifer while on the elliptical to do short bursts to increase my heart rate to improve my cardiovascular system. Joy tomorrow, 2 Baptisms. Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward (Psalm 127:3).
February 3, 2012
Lord, if I forget you this day, do not forget me. Amen. Busy, busy, busy. But I made it through the day. It is trying at times dealing with people at many levels, especially in the workplace. It is questionable and highly unlikely I am a credible witness of God’s love. So I continue to pray for a clean heart where the Gospel is written in me. Like always, I had a great conversation with my friend Bob the Buddhist. Seems I am ways clearing up misunderstandings about Christian doctrine and traditions. He once told me other Christians have spoken to him and are offensive to him in many ways, seemly demanding conversion. There is great division between the different doctrines and traditions; much which is worldly and not the wisdom which descends to us from above. Seem like man’s glory attempting to ascend to a God in their own image. We pray fervently with Jesus in his priestly prayer that we be one so that the world may believe that the Father sent him, Christ Jesus, our Lord and Savior, the Son. The one that make my eyes flutter was the theology of glory which is common within Buddhism. The authority is internal, whereas man makes the decision based on good teaching. Christianity is the theology of the cross and the authority is external. I sent a copy on this week’s brilliant sermon along with the audio and I got some Buddhist material about calm abiding. One of the things I come to realize this week is, it is impossible to find a prayer uttered by man more righteous than that of Jesus’ own words. The mysteries of prayer remain just that to me. Fawn has a great sense of humor and was egging me on all day about the color turquoise, don’t know why, but that color drives me up the wall. Did 10 on the elliptical and took a 30 minute alone and found the cold air invigorating and the day was anything but dreary. Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ (1 Thessalonians 5:23).
February 2, 2012
Great is the wisdom of the Lord! God Almighty, Your wisdom includes an understanding of what is fair, what is logical, what is true, what is right and what is lasting. It mirrors Your pure intellect! I entreat You to grant me such wisdom, that my labours may reflect Your insight. Your wisdom expands in Your creations, displaying complexity and multiplicity. Your wisdom is an eternity ahead of man. May Your wisdom flourish forever! Fawn clearly doesn’t realize how lucky a woman she is to be married to the likes of me. She claims that I have brought stupid to a whole new level. I won’t pen the details. LOL, one may tend to agree with my darling wife. In the quiet on the night while penning this journal entry, I’m listening to Pr Bruzek’s spot on sermon about God’s gift of quiet silence in our lives. I was struck by the peaceful silence that is found in the Liturgy and contrast it to Skull Church: Head Banging Worship Talk about the demon drowning out what Jesus has to say. It is the 6th day of musing over prayer. I smiled reminiscing about when I prayed and muse over the Psalter, last year. O LORD, I call upon you; hasten to me! Give ear to my voice when I call to you! Let my prayer be counted as incense before you, and the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice! (Psalm 141:1-2). We are to come to the Lord with devout hearts confessing our need for him and lifting up our empty expectant hands to be filled with God’s gifts. Too cool for a walk but did managed 2 x 10s on the elliptical.
February 1, 2012
Wow, the start of another month already. Prayers and prayer life have been a focal point this week. Martin Luther wrote 2 short helpful prayers to begin and end each day with God. Interestingly the prayers ask for holy angels to watch over us. Just imagine, in the Gethsemane, Jesus in his agony could have appealed to the Father and the Father would have sent him more than 12 legions on angels. It is truly a blessing when my first thought of the new day is centered on God. Often times my first prayer of the day is the one given to us by Jesus and followed by morning lauds. H1-B Visas is become a growing sticky talking point with so many American workers out of job. I came across a brief article about Hindu worship and prayers offered to the visa god. Did 2 x 10s and it was another sunny day in the mid 40s Fawn and I went for a walk. Well sort of anyway, Fawn was in one of her power walk moods so I just trailed behind. I spent time reviewing and updating my resume. It is only a matter of time when my contract extensions will cease. Jennifer got fitted for a knee brace on the other leg. I feel so bad for her, not know if you’ll be able to play tennis at the competitive level Alex and her enjoy. I was thinking about Pr Gening and his family. May the Lord's face shine upon the and give them peace. Ah, tilapia some liked it steamed and others like it blacked so I whipped up both for dinner. The entire day was so relaxing and listening to The God Whisperers after such a fine meal was like icing on the cake. Episode 174: hanging out in Heidelberg (part 1). I read all 28 theological theses and the debated proofs of the theses, after chiming in the on the doctors consideration of the first four theses of The Heidelberg Disputation . I think this disputation is arguably more significant than the nailing of the well known 95 theses. For me, this presents the gospel clearly and is at the heart of the reformation on how we are reconciled with God. I’ll end this day as I started, with pray in the name of Jesus, together with all the saints as he has taught his disciples: “Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. 10Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. 11Give us this day our daily bread. 12And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. 13And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen” (Matthew 6:9-13).
January 31, 2012
Our Lord Jesus has an unusual way of managing His Christians. The greater His saint the greater the cross that saint must bear. The more He loves a man, the more roughly He rakes him over the coals of anguish. No one should become a Christian with the intent of having a good life in this world. Abraham's case here clearly shows this. -- Blessed Valerius Herberger, The Great Works of God III/IV, p. 84. I was musing over all the things Pr Bruzek said about the altar. I was struck by the altar manifestly denotes the Lord and is where sins are remitted. It was a beautiful last day in January. It almost hit 50. Fawn and I dropped Jennifer off at school the it was off to Labcorp for blood work. The problem was, it did open until 8 am. We had an hour to kill so we when groceries shopping at the beautiful, spacious and super clean Jewels on 95th Street and Route 59. So this is how they live on the other side of the tracks. It was so was nice Fawn and I went for a really nice walk. The joy in my heart had this old dog humming Al Green – Lets Stay Together I’m, I’m so in love with you. Thinking Obama did a newer Seal version. LOL. I don’t know how true it is that the old Adam, loves to wallow in sin, but I’m sure without faith the old man and his good works remains dead. I picked up the Life Together and prayed for persecuted Christians that, You O Lord be with them grant them strength that they never be ashamed of your saving Gospel and though them their persecutors will know God’s love and forgiveness and blessing. Amen. I also prayed to the Lord of Mercy and Father of Comfort for healing and restoration for those needing comfort, health and recovery as well as for those who need our ongoing prayers, by name; We turn to you O Lord for help in our times of need and ask you be with your servants in their illness. Amen. Blessed is the one who considers the poor! … The LORD sustains him on his sickbed; in his illness you restore him to full health (Psalm 41:3).
January 30, 2012
It’s really something to wake up every morning knowing your nothing but a damn sinner and knowing there is little you can do about it except get up with God’s help and to truly try our best to reflect God’s image. Most people who use a social media to stay connected with friends and family. I just pen journal entries to help me gather my thoughts and allow whoever stubbles upon this site to take a glimpse at my view of the world. I only say I’m a worm and do not elaborate on the details of my struggles with sins. I think it would curl most people toes if I did. Thanks be to God for God’s gift and correct understanding of Confession and Absolution which allows me to rejoice in prayer to resist temptation and live a life that glorify his holy name. It was a busy day trying to bring some resemblance of order to the chaos. In doing so, I found myself constantly needing to our Lord’s help to guard my lips. O Sacred Heart of our Lord Jesus Christ, grant me a heart that is humble and sees the good in others. Place words on my tongue that are easy on the ear and on the heart. Amen. Was so happy to get away and take a mid day break lunch to have lunch with the contracting firm albeit they don’t know the status of another possible contract extension. It’s not even clear if it is going to be quarterly. There was a mention about Christianity being somewhere between and including God the Father and Jesus is a friend of mine. It’s not clear to why Jesus is a friend of mine bothers me. Could be because he offer friendship and we constantly betray that friendship. Fasting for blood work tomorrow. O eternal God and Ruler of all creation, You have allowed me to reach this hour. Forgive the sins I have committed this day by word, deed or thought. Purify me, O Lord, from every spiritual and physical stain. Grant that I may rise from this sleep to glorify You by my deeds throughout my entire lifetime, and that I be victorious over every spiritual and physical enemy. Deliver me, O Lord, from all vain thoughts and from evil desires, for yours is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, now and ever, and forever. Amen. -Saint Macarius-
January 29, 2012
Lord, increase our faith and love that we may know the hope and peace from which thy presence flow. Amen. This is the second day of recording our prayers for a week as an exercise for the new member class. I see that Sunday my normal routine of daily prayer is extraordinarily different. Luther said, “It is a good thing to let prayer be the first business of the morning and the last at night. May we rejoice and be glad in the day our Lord. The norm is Luther’s Morning Prayer, but on Sundays it’s, “Lord, grant your faithful people your Holy Spirit, keep us in your steadfast grace and truth and give your catholic church your saving peace.” Amen. The Lutheran Mass is the highest form of prayer; well it is in my prayer life. In the quietness we are removed from the bombarding sinful noise of the world that distracts us from the gifts of God. In the still of the night I often ponder on Christ’s love for us. I notice in bible study, there seem to be a few that don’t fully understand Mary is the Theotokos of God. I am grateful for the Blessed Mother’s example of faithfulness and limit my veneration to, "Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus." The bible said so little about The blessed virgin, sadly some don't make much of how helpful she is while others make up more things elevating her beyond what holy scripture reveals. The studies on between the Divine Services are enormous. We are learning so much why we do the thing we do in striving for best practice in helping us on our journey back to Eden. Awesome time at Jean’s after Church. She had us over for omelets and conversation, getting to know Bob. Lord, comfort and physically heal our illness, especially Fawn, Jennifer, Jean, Faye and Ted; Help us in vocation and provide for us, there are so many of us that are unemployed and underemployed, especially Carol, Ken and Dana. Christ Jesus, keep us and protect our soul. Let us rest in you peace. Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit; As it was in the Beginning, is now, and will be forever. Amen.
January 28, 2012
Mid 40s again, nice day? Of course it is, considering its still January in northern Illinois. Had to brush off a dusting of snow again to make to Saturday morning catechumenate class. It was on God’s gift of prayer and teaching the catechumens to pray more easily. The life of prayer is a fruit of faith. We are to address our heavenly Father with petitions and praise. We are to present our needs and the needs of others and give thanks. This is indeed quite different than the backward prayer, I want a pony. The biggest hindrance to daily prayer is sin and our selfish worldly desires. Everyone was blessed; continuing to learn and grow, as well as encouraged to carry on with daily prayer. Lord, assist us; that we may approach you. Amen.
January 27, 2012
Friday, yes sir. And it was in the mid 40’s. Picked up Jennifer from school and got a fantastic treat at Starbuck’s. Great time sharing and the coffee was on her. Muse a little on this upcoming week’s Gospel reading from Mark 1:21-28. I’m amazed at Jesus’ teaching, yet at times my heart reacts offensively to God, because the way I live do not echo what Jesus teaches and desire not to be corrected. Lord Jesus, thank you for your powerful teaching. Forgive me for the times I’ve ignored it or failed to keep it. Give me the time and resolve to regularly read, learn, believe and do what you teach. Use your Word to strengthen my faith. Amen.
January 26, 2012
A comment by me, that we are a nation of laws, in regards to a conversation on illegal immigration didn’t go well. It was sparked by comment sparked apathy toward undocumented worker. I should have known the outcome, but how can we leave the wording undocumented and illegal alone when things should be done in good order. Sadly, the finger pointing started. Oddly enough, the conversation started off with Gov Brewer finger pointing Obama. Politics and religion are always sticky points. Managed to get 2 x 10s on the elliptical. Read Augustine’s breathless words of truth, in Christ; “Thou hast made us for thyself and our heart is restless until it rests in thee”
January 25, 2012
Wow, what a busy day. Went with Fawn to see Dr Wright during Lunch. Thanks be to God for good test results. Super long work day but got the needed done in 12.5 hours ending the work day 10:15 pm. It’s going to be hard to get the comp time back. Manage to get in 10 on the elliptical. That was good because Fawn mom gave us quarter of a roast duck and a pound of roast pig. Good stuff.
January 24, 2012
Awesome edition, episode 173: a sweetly scented sacrifice. One of their finest show, love those guys. Yeah baby, did 3 x10s on the elliptical. Tomorrow and perhaps the remainder of the week promises to be super busy. A boat load work came in toward the end of the day. I still have fun making journal entries but am questioning its value. I often wonder what it really says about me and the world around me. Do I dare go deeper and reveal more? Who care what I think or say? It’s really more interesting to listen to learned teachers of Christ. I’ve been blessed by faithful stewards of the mysteries like Dr Kleinig, Just, and Bruzek and especially young pastors like Pr Genig and Nelson. I was reading about the ALCC. But still don’t know enough about it to say anything or comment about it.
January 23, 2012
It was amazing, mid 40s in the morning. But the temps did plummet. Man O man, and talk about wind chill, brrr. I started the work day morning IM conversations with a, “Happy Monday!” And I got back the predictable question, “What’s good about it?” To which I replied, “Happy talk. Rejoice!” Years ago I though like most, “Monday is a awful way to spend 1/7 of your life.” Coming off a relaxing weekend going back to a stressful rat-race environment, just doesn’t promise to be a good day. But hey, we can rejoice or let the day the Lord has made be dreary, it’s our choice. 2 x 10s on the elliptical, O well.
January 22, 2012
I thought there is nothing new I can say a about Sunday Mass I haven’t said already. I was wrong, I was thrilled to see Bob come back and worship with us. It so nice to see new people as well as some I haven’t seen in a while. Seems like Pr Bruzek and I are on the same page, in what we are seeing what is happening in Lutheranism. But I am stunned to hear that the LCMS perhaps may be the most doctrinally sound Lutheran denomination. Great questions are being asked in bible study that never thought to ask. What a great bunch for parishioners. I am amazed at what God has done to this congregation that was having internal struggles a few years ago. I heard the phase “ought to” and began muse about the gap between things we ought to do and what we do. Ought to, is all law. The gospel is way, in Pr Bruzek’s words is “we get to”. Our bond with Christ is in the doing acts of mercy. Andrea’s birthday was a week ago but we celebrated today with a Portello’s chocolate cake. I hardly watch football be join is cheering on the now AFC Champions, New England Patriots. Andrea has been cheering the on for a lot of years now. Everyone seems to like watch and talk about football. I use to too all the time. I lost interest about 25 years ago but still took Alex to games when he was young. Then love watching and cheering on all children play competitive sports. O wow, Jennifer learned she took First Place again in Regional and will compete in the high school state business competition. She was surprise, because she did feel it wasn’t her best effort but thought it good enough to place.
January 21, 2012
Dug out and drove Jennifer to the business competition. She think she did well enough to qualify foe state. We really have some great neighbors we tend to help each other out and genuinely care. Which I think is rather strange because it does not reflect the world I see out and about town. I see a great deal of narcissist behavior more times than I care to. While out and about, Fawn and I did get the groceries and manages to find Andrea a nice outfit at J C Penney for her birthday. I don’t know why we went there, because can’t remember the last time other than it has been, years? In a conversion about how great the people on out block are, I thought it was ashamed the problems and distortions that prevails in the American religious mainstream Protestantism. I’m a Lutheran because Christ Lutheran. But the conversations of Lutheranism are funky. People in general think Lutherans are Protestants, when they are not; while some Lutherans in name only, have reformed themselves outside of the church catholic. I have listened to men in pulpits influence the hearts and the lives of men that are clueless to the voice of the Good Shepherd .Their summary of Christian Doctrine does not line up what God say in his word. I just don’t know, sometimes I think I spend too much time worrying about the duties of other men to raise their family in Christ. I need to give it a break I came across an awesome Catholic Prayer for the Preservation of the Faith. Now I’m all fired up and eager for tomorrow’s Mass. Lord, increase my portion of faith, that I may worship you by revealing your glory in the day to day routines of ordinary life of Larry’s World. Amen.
January 20, 2012
Another day in the deep freeze and an onslaught on snow. Only did 10 in the morning. Try shoveling by hand several times and got a good workout. It never stopped so I’ll need to be up early tomorrow morning And bring out the Toro snow blower. The bad boy may be an old one but still able throw snow farther more than I ever need it to. It is truly a blessing to have friend in the one true faith. Carol W offered me encouraging words full of wisdom from above that are poetically beautiful. She painted imagery of his glory that is found in his creation in the sky and in the sea and pointing to our faith in Christ, who sustains us. Amen, Amen, Amen indeed. Took Jennifer for physical therapy and she continues to improve. Lord, comfort Jennifer and strengthen her knee. Amen. She is working really hard today to prepare for business completion. She took first place last year and qualified to compete at nationals. I feel bad now for not letting her go. It had something to do with interfering with her ACT testing. She did it on her own last year. I’m surprise she ask me to chime in her preparations this time. She knows more than I do, so I was at best only able to offer her a few words of encouragement in a prayer to do your best. Almighty and gracious God, you call me to the dignity and glory of a life that brings love into being, experienced and visible. Show me how to use all my words and all my acts, skillfully and precisely, as I share your creative work in this "far better way" Amen,
January 19, 2012
Woke to a very light dusting of snow and the big chill. Brrr… started out in the teens and dropped down to single digits. The sun broke out; that good. Yikes, bad news, more bloodletting at work is coming. Seem it is imminent this contract will end and not be extended. Lord, have mercy. Whoo hoo, did 4 x 10s on the elliptical. Listened to episode 172: south pole edition, great show. Some talk about daylight for months on end and made me think about heaven where we shall walk in endless light. Great email response to Steve. The old man doesn’t want to cooperate and do not hate sin and tries to justify it (dead man swimming). Thanks be to God for the new man who has the proper fear of God and hates sin. Often time we blame Satan for our sin and say the devil made me do it. Own up, confess and repent. The chapel sermon by Norman Nagel and commentary by the Manly Doctors of Divinity was awesome. Lord, have mercy. Place your healing hand of healing and comfort on Fawn, Jean, Faye and Ted. Amen.
January 18, 2012
To God be the glory forever. Amen. Brrr…. 5 ◦F this morning and worked its way up to the mid 20s. The Sunny day was deceiving. I know only doing only 10 on the elliptical isn't enough, but 10 it was again today. It is important for he to control the sugar in my blood and increase HDL (good) cholesterol. It would be nice to burn excess calories and achieve optimal weight but … Anyway, I’m setting my mind to do more time on the elliptical tomorrow. Mused about Marriage and married couples as being Icon of the church. Indeed they are as noted in the Random Thoughts of a Lutheran. Andrea and Rob are off to a good start as new generation giving glory to God. I think of Isaiah’s vision of the Lord where one seraphim called to the other and said: “Holy, holy, holy is the LORD of hosts; the whole earth is full of his glory!” (Isaiah 6:3). But I actually think the glory of God is best seen Jesus Christ. I think that Christian illiteracy has plagued us and a stumbling block for most of us. What does one do if their teacher is unlearned? I’m in the early winter of my life and only now beginning to realize that living for God’s glory is the greatest achievement one can bring about in one’s life.
January 17, 2012
I was surprise to wake to the pouring rain. As the temperature dropped the rain to snow but only a inch or so accumulated. Oven baked barbeque chicken was for lunch and dinner. I simply love eating chicken. Cook it anyway and I’m there. I need to start do more than 10 on the elliptical. The Governing Board meeting was very interesting and I learned a lot about the Saint John and her pastors. Thanks be to God for his appointed shepherds.
January 16, 2012
Happy birthday to my first born. She change my world and to this day remains a precious blessing. IIt was back in the 40s and most of the white stuff melted, but snow is being forecast and am expecting to wake to the white stuff again. Was up early and got a few hours of work in and then it was off to visit Fawn Dr Harvey. Thanks be to God, the exam bore good results. The remainder of the would have just ordinary except for the fact Fawn made her delicious out of this world spaghetti with meat sauce. Everyone went back for second helpings. Prayers for health, comfort and recovery; for Fawn, Ted, Joyce, Faye.
January 15, 2012
Ah, how sweet, worship the Lord is holy splendor and singing a psalm is honor of his name. I believe Wihelm Lohe is right about the Eucharist being the most important part of worship because I sadly seen and heard questionable sermons or downright demonic influenced words. But it is impossible to go wrong with communion if the celebrate just stick to rightly administering the sacrament. The days are still short. It continually reminds how I long for light, as I wait in darkness. I'm starting to see quite a few gem on Weedon's Blog by Rev Dr Stephenson.
January 14, 2012
It took a bit of work to get the snow off the hood of the car that have been sitting on the driveway all week. It just goes to show how much snow actually accumulated on the unattended. But I made to the Saturday morning Catechumenate class where I am blessed by sound and inspirational teaching and among the hungry and thirsty. I’m honored and thrilled to be in class with my sister-in-law Jean. Where else in world would you get Winne the Pooh in regards to what happens in Confession and Absolution? “I have been Foolish and Deluded,” said he, “and I am a Bear of no Brain At All.” “You are the Best Bear In all the World,” said Christopher Robin soothingly. “Am I?” said Pooh hopefully. And then he brightened up suddenly. Brilliant! Everyone was excited about the Easter Vigil in April and to begin a new life as member in our community. I t is hard to believe we started this class back in September and it feels like was just yesterday. It is really something but not surprising to continually see God gather his children to his court at St John from my former church. I was thinking about my sister Mary and sadden by how much a miss her, it been 2 years and today would have been her 62nd birthday. Both my parents and step mother and my oldest brother Dan as gone also. O how I cherish the joyful memories.
January 13, 2012
TGIF… I should just leave it at that, but I’m angry. I’m not going to talk or pen about it other than to say that it isn’t a self center but righteous indignation. Confrontation in the work place isn’t advisable, even to dispel the sin. Sadly, that is how some people play and provoke you to anger. “Be Angry but do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil” (Ephesians 4:26-27). I think St Paul was referring to, “Be angry, and do not sin; ponder in your own hearts on your beds, and be silent. Offer right sacrifices, and put your trust in the LORD” (Psalm 4:4-5). This means we are to make peace with the Lord and give our anger to the Lord to deal with what arouse our anger. Righteous anger is it an attribute of God. For God is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love. The strange thing is, my anger, helps me realize that my rebellious sins, which angers God, is hidden in the holy blood of Christ.
January 12, 2012
Well it happened, it snowed! Alex hit it during lunch and I did it after work. The bad thing is it continues to fall. Guess I’ll have to get up early tomorrow morning. It is still amazing not to be in the normal single digit or sub zero freezing cold weather. It hit the 50s twice this week but the temps did drop rapidly this morning. Work….hmmm… nasty ongoings…. there always seem to be the individual that always keep having one issue after another. O well, too bad today isn’t Friday, because it is hard to always be selfless and display the love of Christ. Was bored by episode 171 of the God Whisperers, so I listened to the encore sermon. With Christ’s Baptism Jesus has given a chance to be what we were always meant to be, fully human; gracious loving children of God. Prayers for Fawn, Ted and Faye; for comfort and ongoing healing.
January 11, 2012
I feel good, did 2 x 10s on the elliptical and all the fires are out, my mid morning. Bob and I talked about faithfulness to a spiritual teacher. It was one four concepts in the handout he gave me. Interesting, that a Buddhist would normally follow a teacher for 5 years before actually consider committing to the teacher. I never remotely ever consider faithfulness or commitment to a pastor. To me the pastor helps makes Christ known to me and will only attentively listen to his words if it leads me to Jesus Christ, the son of God. Musing a little over the upcoming GB meeting agenda and wondering if it is time to consider calling a Pastor. Parishioner are talking about how they miss pastor Genig and his contribution toward the beauty of the Lutheran Mass and his ability to preach and teach and tend to Lord’s flock; as well as wondering about the calling of a pastor.
January 10, 2012
Hmm… fire fighting at work all day, need I say more? Did 10 on the elliptical and was squeezing the hand grips. Need a long walk in the afternoon so Fawn and I bundled up and walked to the Walgreens. I felt a lot better after the walk and talk. My friend Bob the Buddhist sent me a pdf on the Four Mindfulness. I took a little time to read some of the excerpt. I can see a lot of parallel teaching filled with wisdom, between Buddhism and Christianity. But there remains the ultimate non reconcilable difference.
January 9, 2012
Did 3 x10s on the elliptical. That was as exciting as it got. Good stuff on Weedon’s blog. I’m reminded of astonishing rich Lutheran heritage of sacred music, “of singing praises and proclaiming the great things our God has done to save us and sanctify us”. Amen to, “ may it grow ever stronger into the next generation!
January 8, 2012
Sang with the angels and received God’s gift. The Time and Talent fair well attended and many were signing up where they can help serve. I think Carol H did a fantastic job taking on the bulk of the organizing as well coordinating the event. Hats off to all the department heads and volunteers. Rob challenged me to a game of Stern-Halma, Whew, he had me one the ropes most of the game, but I somehow came on top by a single move. I backed down and wasn’t in the mode for a rematch. That game took all I had. Fawn and I had super time at Fred and Val’s for coffee along with Rick, Sherry and Jodie. What a blessing it is to hang with brothers and sisters in Christ.
January 7, 2012
Hearty bowl of oatmeal for breakfast, perfect. I actually like it piping hot. It beats the cold cereal I eat most morning. The kids took down the Christmas tree. Fawn use to hang beautiful tree ornaments. Lately it has only been decorated with only lights. Everyone was out of the house by 10 this morning, so I had it all to myself. I took the time to clean up my work area and did 15 on the elliptical and another 15 in the afternoon. I took a little time reflecting and came to realize that people seem to be living busy lives and are not spiritually disciplined in their daily office. Instead of reading the Bible, people seem to prefer reading a tabloid or watching mindless TV shows into the wee hours of the night. I thank God we are blessed to be gathered to our Lord’s Court at St John, where I come to cherish the Lutheran Mass. We are beautifully joined in reverent gesturing, praying, responding and singing as one body with all the host of heaven. I can’t help being so grateful and marvel at how God gives himself to us. Most places fail to exhibit any sense of the holiness of God. What is wrong with people? Never mind the cults, mainstream Christianity is disturbing. Yes, the lay are called to be sheep. But we are called to be the Good Shepherd’s sheep, not mindless sheep lead to the slaughter. I am so thrilled at our new space. It is soaking in how our liturgical space is pattern like an early Christian basilica is so naturally a free-flowing pilgrimage from the font to the altar to touch and taste our Lord. Why people fight and not allow their senses to savor God’s beauty is beyond this poor miserable sinner.
January 6, 2012
Started out the morning with a 10 on the elliptical. Albeit it was a short work week, today is just one of those weeks that call a resounding whoo hoo, TGIF. Andrea and Rob made it in late morning. Once the work day was over, I began to cherish the blessing of family. The evening was filled with joyful conversation and food. Now that what I’m talking about. Cheers!
January 5, 2012
Up early and saw the beautiful sunrise. Making the sign of the Cross and remembering our Baptism and living wet. Light is good, “The light of the eyes rejoices the heart, and good news refreshes the bones” (Proverbs 15:30). Fawn went for more physical therapy at Edwards and I start off good with 4 pieces of the puzzle right off the bat and then stalled out. Good thing the was word search puzzle sheets to entertain myself. I use to hate the waiting room and with Oprah on all the time. She seems to be replaced by a show called, The View. Sigh… it’s hard to tell which is more annoying. It was really super nice out for a January day. The sun was shining and in the upper 40s. I did 10 on the elliptical in the morning and went for an nice long walk with Fawn mid afternoon. The conversation was a tough one reviewing the money needed for college at a high level. Whoo hoo, Soo is in town visiting. The kids really love auntie Soo a whole bunch. Took a peek at the worship folder for The Baptism of Our Lord. Good thing footnotes are in the ESV bible else I wouldn’t be able to make heads or tails of why St Mark would even mention, “Now John was clothed with camel's hair and wore a leather belt around his waist and ate locusts and wild honey” (Mark 1:6).
January 4, 2012
Great to still be on the job despite the chaos of taking up the slack. Sigh… I would waste my time ranting about PMs. I got several call from 2 of the guys that were let go last week. I was able offer them our Lord’s comfort in prayer with they were grateful to receive. Sweet, did 3 x10s on the elliptical. 10 minutes at a crack seems to be reasonable throughout the day. Manage to wrap up my part and beyond for the time and talent fair. I hope it provides a opportunity for the few who desire to fit in are having difficulty finding a spot to cheerfully grow and serve. Had to fire off an email to the Manly Doctors of Divinity, seem they forgot to include the link to the download of episode 170: happy circumcision new year; but I figured out their system http://www.godwhisperers.com/audio/god-whisperers-170.mp3 Funny how the ramble at times but toss in some good theology and history. They are addicting in a strange way.
January 3, 2012
Nice to sleep and wake to the morning sun. The work days was going fine until the news that the bloodletting still isn’t over. More of my colleagues were cut today. Lord, in your mercy, comfort them and aide them though these hard dark days. For work for the unemployed and under employed, especially Youlin, Naseer, Richard, Michael, Danna, Troy and Hank; for health and recovery, especially Fawn and Ted; for St John and her pastors, may we be worthy. Amen. Kicked it up and did 2 x 10s on the elliptical. Exercising makes me feel much better. Strange, that the shortest day of the year do not coincide with the latest sunrise. The latest sunrise is happening right about now for us up north I think it will be another month before the longer days will become noticeably longer. On February 4th the sun will rise at 7 am and set at 5:09 pm. O how I long for longer days and light. Call Dave and had a great conversation about the church and about friends and family. I was thinking about Jake and am prayerful about that the Holy Spirit will pierce and fully open Jake and Bob’s heart and privilege them as part the body. “Lord, let my faith be full and unreserved, and let it penetrate my thought, my way of judging Divine things and human things. Let my faith be joyful and give peace and gladness to my spirit, and dispose it for prayer with God and conversation with men, so that the inner bliss of its fortunate possession may shine forth in sacred and secular conversation. Amen.
January 2, 2012
Wow, I have forgotten how fast a editor loads on a relatively new page. Dei - being made in the image of God. Lord, guide my will to faithfully walk in your ways. Stripe away my deeds of darkness. Amen. We got hit by a light dusting of snow. Heard it caused havoc on the highway toward the city. Out early to Edwards. More physical therapy with continued improvement for Fawn and an hour struggle for me with a jigsaw puzzle for me. Looks like a dozen or so piece were done since last time. I managed to fit 6 pieces, pathetic. Did 10 on the elliptical again. I’m hoping to gradually pick it up over time. Being away from work for the few days is very relaxing. I should have spend time working on my resume, but… Well, back to work tomorrow and an opportunity to put food on the table.
January 1, 2012
Happy New Year? Fun figuring out how to add this new page. It's been a while. I wonder how Dave is coming along with his site. I did 10 on the elliptical. Well it’s a start any. Sweet, Listening to Dr just on Issue Etc. on the Christmas Hymn, Hark! The Herald Angel Sing. I always amazed at the Dr Just’s hymn studies. LOL. Embarrassing, Fawn told everyone I was in bed by 8:30. No way of convincing people what a party animal I am. I was briefly awakened, in the middle of the night, by the rain howling winds. The key word is rain. I even broke out the long johns and put on a nice new warm sweater to bare the high winds and cold rain to Sunday Mass. Our senses lead us to conclude God is far away during a cold gloomy storm where life seems to be bleak. But once inside the courts of the Lord’s house, all is well. Beautiful Feast Day. There was no bible study today, but one has to love life in our new space at St John. Most parishioners stayed around and joy and laughter fill the commons for 90 minutes until the start of the next Divine Service. We shared our hopes and joys and our courage to live not on the promises of tomorrow, but to live in the face of God. Who loves us and stands with us in the harsh winter winds howl.
